Habits That Hinder Your Improvement

When I looked up an image they were mostly of one woman nicely eating one chip, touching it to her lips. Right. No one eats chips like that. They are fake images. I put three in my mouth at a time but not as many as she has in her hand.

We all have these habits that make us feel better quickly. I’m referring to whatever keeps you down at a hovering level so that you never quite get to where you want to be in Mind-Body-Spirit. They are all one and they are all DNA pulsing at different dimensions and densities. Sentient life is composed of DNA but DNA is not just 4D. We know from studying the Tzolkin that it is universal.

Corey Goode teaches;

  1. Raise your frequency
  2. Remedy your hindrances and appetites
  3. Identify You Distortions

Raise Your Frequency

What frequency? Your vibration rate which you can feel in your eyes and brain, how potent your thoughts feel, your energy level, your heart rate, and heart strength or pulse, how deep a breath you can take, and how long you can exhale. You raise your vibration through meditation, walking, Tai Qi, strength training and aerobic workout. This is the simplest one but you need to be at it 4 days a week. It’s important that you enjoy it.

Remedy Your Hindrances

I’ll start with myself. Being an introvert, a writer, preferring to be alone and not terribly close to humans is a hindrance to my networking. I don’t like being in close relationships with humans because I’m always disappointed. They either betray you, diss you, or die. My son says, ” I just never have any expectations and then I’m not disappointed.” Well, that’s just a lack of boundaries IMO. Consequently, I just have acquaintances or informal friends. That’s enough for me. I try not to think about who might come to my funeral and assume only a few would. It seems like an exercise in ego that I don’t have time for.

My high standards for behavior and self-respect are a hindrance. I don’t like to drink or get drunk and that seems to be a social hindrance but I have no remedy for that. Our culture loves to be mindless. I love to be mindful. You can see I haven’t made much of a dent here but I have at least identified what they are. I very content in my work at home though and people.come toy door for help.

Remedy your appetites: Right now it’s potato chips but I get over it and stop ordering them from the grocery store. I just say “Stop!” in my mind and command myself around. It works! If I have an appetite to be lazy I command myself to “Get moving!” I believe we do have to boss our lazy, indulgent selves around to achieve what we really want. I’m sick to god of being fat and want to be thin as I was in my 20’s. I’ve seen a lot of older folks do it. I know I can and I will. I am shrinking.

Identify Your Distortions

This is the hardest one and involves our feelings about ourselves. For example, I think I may have a distorted view of the impression I make on others.

I feel like I’m too intimidating for most men in my age group (45-60). The ones who pursue me are young men who are are bringing nothing I need, to the table. They want what I have but not vice versa. I do believe there may be someone out there who would dig me and I them. My radar is on but I love being single. No pressure to conform to a man’s needs and desires and they have a lot of them from us. The problem is, I have my own which they can’t help with.

I remedy this one by not thinking about it. I just live my life in a structured way and get my work done. It’s a focus issue. Why think about a possible someone over which I have no control. Synchronicity is in charge here. I’m already visualizing and setting intentions. You can’t obsess over this.

This exercise comes under your antipode and hidden wisdom. You must identify them with one of the apps. Both of those positions contain karma and the shadow side of your personality.

If you are a Red initiating kin, your shadow might be overbearing or purposely trying to intimidate others, just because you can. We are leaders but we need to do it being firm, not mean. Most red kin speak their mind but we have to if we’re going to lead. We will not tell people what they want to hear and thus we aren’t very popular unless that’s a distortion of mine?

If you are a White refining Kin it’s easy to be too gossipy or nitpick critically.

If you are a Yellow Ripening kin it would be easy to be impatient and want others to move quicker or be more intelligent than they are.

If you are a Blue Transforming kin it would be easy to compete and judge others who can’t transform or change themselves as easily as you can. The blue kin are pretty magical at getting a grip and then exceeding what we thought was possible.

These are just general ideas for identifying your shadow pieces. There’s always espresso and dark chocolate to cope while you’re working at it.

Review on the Body Holon. Resolve Your Physical Hindrance on the Area that Pulses to Your Tribe or to a Close Family Member or Mate

Many times your personal tribe area will be fine but if you’ve had a rough relationship with someone close to you, that part of your body will give you fits until you can take your power back that you gave over and let it go. If they took your energy, you let them. Or it may be karma-related. It may relate to your Hidden Wisdom tribe or your Subconscious mother position too.

  • 0 =20-Yellow Sun-right top of the head. 19-Blue storm left top of the head
  • 1-Red Dragon-right eye, face, brain, pineal gland. 18-White Mirror, left eye, face, and brain, pineal gland
  • 2-White Wind-right neck/throat. 17-Red Earth, left neck/throat
  • 3-Blue Night-right shoulder. 16Yellow Warrior, left shoulder
  • 4-Yellow Seed-right arm and hand. 15-Blue Eagle, left arm and hand
  • 5-Red Serpent-right breast/pec. 14White Wizard, left breast/pec
  • 6White World Bridger-right lung, heart, ribs. 13-Red Skywalker, left lung, heart, ribs.
  • 7-Blue Hand-right abdomen, intestine, stomach, all digestive. 12-Yellow Human, left abdomen, intestine, stomach, all digestive.
  • 8Yellow Star-right reproductive all, all thigh and hip tissue to knee. 11Blue Monkey-left reproductive all, all thigh and hip tissue to knee.
  • 9Red Moon-right leg/ankle/foot. 10White Dog-left leg/ankle/foot.

The Tones of Creation energy articulating with the body is not the same as the tribes. They pulse to the joints. Apply the Tone attributes to the reason for that lack of function in the joint.

  • Tone 1 is the right ankle joint. Note magnetic attributes with your app or this blog
  • Tone 2 is the right knee joint. Note polarizing attributes
  • Tone 3 is the right hip joint. Note electric attributes
  • Tone 4 is the right wrist joint. Note self-existing attributes
  • Tone 5 is the right elbow joint. Note overtone/radiant attributes
  • Tone 6 is the right shoulder joint Note rhythmic attributes
  • Tone 7 if Vertebra C7, the throat chakra. Note resonant attributes
  • Tone 8 is the left shoulder joint. Note galactic attributes
  • Tone 9 is the left elbow joint Note solar attributes
  • Tone 10 is the left wrist joint Note planetary attributes
  • Tone 11 is the left hip joint Note spectral attributes
  • Tone 12 is the left knee joint Note crystal attributes
  • Tone 13 is the left ankle joint Note cosmic attributes

For example; I’ve sprained my right ankle (White Dog Love) 3 times. It caused my right hip tissue to go far out of alignment (Yellow Star-Beauty and Art. My mother is Blue Hand-abdomen. I covered mine with weight for a good portion of my life to block my hurt feelings that my mother objectified me for my teenage beauty and talent and didn’t care about what I wanted for my life nor did she ask me when I was young. I didn’t feel she loved me then. (White Dog) Her wishes for a performance life for me were foisted on me. It’s all corrected now and I’ve forgiven her but it took work.

Tuesday-Daily Reading; Resonant Connections are Bouncing Off of the Walls.

“I Channel in order TO KNOW. Inspiring Healing I seal the store of Accomplishment with the resonant tone of Attunement. I am guided by the power of Self-Generation.

2:7:7:7-The Tzolkin Oracle

Body Holon

  • Theme is 7Isoleucine or Blue 7 Resonant Hand; Accomplishment
  • Analog is 7Glutamic Acid or Yellow 7 Resonant Human; Free Will (Corey Goode)
  • Guide Power this morning is 7Tryptophan or Blue 7 Resonant Storm; Self-Generation. (They are calling for a damaging storm in MI today)
  • Antipode this afternoon is 7Phenylalanine or Red 7 Resonant Earth; Navigation. (The storm balances the ions and cleans up the energy on the planet)
  • Hidden Wisdom is 7Lysine or White 7 Resonant Wizard; Timelessness
  • 5GForce is 7Glutamine or Red 7 Resonant Skywalker; Prophecy

It’s a Tone 7 Resonant day so the energy is bouncing off the walls. These days it’s rare to actually KNOW anything because of all the manipulation and lying. But if you sit and use your own intuition and meditate you can know the truth. Today is a day to do it. I’m in a very good mood because the energy is like a carnival for me; a Ferris wheel, spinning tea cups or a merry go round.

At the age of 52 you can jump off of the CA strand, past to present karma in your body and jump onto the AC strand; future to present DHARMA. There is no death, aging or illness unless you leave the belief there.

Also, Whoever and whatever we’ve allowed ourselves to be corded to is here to be paid karmically. We always have a choice about how to respond. The purpose here is to clean house (Virgo) so we can use our soul energy to be of service in the light instead of wasting in on spinning in chaos reacting to everyone else’s karma. Stay out of their karma. You can’t fix anyone’s karma but your own. It’s misplaced empathy and turns to co-dependence.

Human empathy is tricky. It gets in the way of FOCUS. It comes from a natural emotional sentiment we have for other DNA in affinity; all sentient life. But there is a problem with a knee jerk, automatic empathy; their secret psyche that even they not be aware of, their ability to lie or pretend and so forth. We can feel it around each other.

I dial people up in the Tzolkin, analyze Sabian symbols and do numerology on their name to get a read on their line-up in the matrix; light and shadow and remote viewing. It’s correct and shows choices based on soul alignment, not facts. Your soul alignments upon coming to the planet are in stone and can be read in the oracles. Your choices about those alignments while here, are not. They are the oracles giving a readout on the Matrix; The Tzolkin Harmonic, the I Ching, Sabian Symbols, Numerology, and your BODY! Our bodies are an oracle of truth for all to see showing what we do, how we feel and what we think. What people say is not the truth. It’s in their body language (science has proven this) which is why digital “relationships” are a joke and based in fantasy. If someone doesn’t want to meet you that means they’re hiding something.

You can’t change or fake these oracles in the ether. We all have light and shadow. The truth is we are all working out our own salvation and there is no judgment. But choose what you want to be around and what you don’t because it comes into your space if you empathize with it.

Here is where reason comes in and feelings need to be left at the door. Does a person or group have the facts straight? What is their track record of behavior? Do they follow through and DO what they say, etc. Integrity is in the limelight today. Let go of only seeing what you “want” to see.

Interplanetary Holon

We are mediated by earth today with the theme of 7Isoleucine or Blue 7 Resonant Hand and analog 7Glutamic acid or Yellow 7 Resonant Human.

I empathize with this, on the surface and underground.

The Human species would have been lost at Tiamat if GAIA had not allowed us to come here. I am forever grateful and at her service. Humans and many species have thrived and evolved in a fantastic manner on earth. We will not die out. It won’t be allowed. If you watched the video yesterday that I posted, the GFW is at the ready if need be but they will not intervene if it’s not in the directives. We have to advocate for ourselves; self-regulate.

  • The Sun is in Virgo; organization and details
  • Mercury is in Libra; Balanced communication and aesthetic
  • The Moon is in Virgo coupled with the Mayan line-up we can get clarity on relationships. The Moon transit draws out our desire to heal, help, and fix in big synchronicity with the Mayan Oracle. USE CARE!
  • Moon aligns with Mars during the antipode this afternoon putting muscle behind it.
  • Mercury in Libra-Chiron in Aries OPPOSITION. These two are opposites in astrology. Aries likes the truth, Libra likes to cover things over so it’s “nice and pretty”.
  • During the Hidden Wisdom, the moon moves into Libra at 11:30pm

Competition Can Be Inspiring

I perked up when I heard military insider Emery Smith say, “Humans are egos.” That rang true. Today is Tone 5, the Overtone tone that is about commanding, radiance and empowerment. There is one thing every human wants and that’s personal power. If they don’t know how to self-generate it inside, which is Tone 4, they will project outside of themselves and try to pulse off of or vampire off of someone’s else’s energy to make themselves bigger or better in some way by competing. Or they will fain affinity when there might not really be much affinity to try to energy cord the person to suck energy from them. For some reason, humans compete more with each other gender wise than listening and vibing with the universe. Women compete more with women and men compete more with men.

Today is White 5 Wind which is mediated by Uranus. The attributes are communication, breath, and spirit. agile, divine breath, clever, multifaceted, inspiration to all, idealistic, mental, presence of truth, spiritual, and romantic. That’s all positive. Why is the antipode or challenge Yellow 5 Human? Why are humans a challenge to radiant empowerment? Because they compete and want to dominate more than they want to love. That’s ego. They don’t see themselves the way God sees them. That’s the definition of politics and why it does NO GOOD in the world. It’s a waste of time and drama. The attributes of Yellow Human are influence, wisdom, and free will. Humans use their influence and freewill mainly, to try to control and dominate others.

The Guide Power is White 5 Dog or Radiant Love and Loyalty, Heart. So in the Tzolkin, the energy line up and consequently the cellular DNA line-up is correct. How will that show itself in human behavior?

White 5 Wind is Divine breath and communication

If you improve something in your life or you reach a goal, get healthier or more radiant, the same gender so-called friends will SAY something positive and encouraging to you that is sincere. They will not act jealous or self-depricating, or self conscious low self-esteem about themselves. They will be happy for you. They will not call you names and hate on you, even jokingly. The “I’m so jealous I hate you” little comment. Or, “I can’t (or can) do this as well as you do!” They turn the focus to themselves and how weak they are. Watch your back!

This is my pet peeve with women. I don’t obey or follow humans as I’ve said before. I work very closely with my spirit guides, my intuition and the Universe. I am successful at anything I put my mind to and women and maybe one man compete with me. Their competition with me inspires them to do better which is good. Blue 9 Storm is the Hidden Wisdom. It is about catalyzing energy and self-generation so there you have it.

Most humans react or stare at each other on social media and in politics and then MIMIC or COMPETE to try to one up each other to be better than they were before. That’s not such a bad thing as long as they’re strangers. But it’s not loving with a friend. When a friend or sibling says something that’s competitive I know they don’t love me and it’s happened more often than not. As I type I can think of no less than 20 women and one man that either has competed or competes with me now. The funny thing is, they don’t want to hang out with me when I reach out to them. That clinches it. They feel too insecure around me. That’s not love. They aren’t the least bit concerned about what I need, don’t ask and don’t think there is anything I need because I don’t whine and I’m not dependent and insecure.

The 5GForce is White 9 Mirror, kin 178. This is the Writer’s Mantra;

” I pulse in order to reflect. Realizing order I seal the matrix of endlessness with the solar tone of intention I am guided by the power of timelessness.”

MOLECULAR LINE-UP

FRIDAY Daily Reading;Tzolkin Reading to get Your Vibe Lined Up!

Or you could just turn on the T.V.! Would that help you feel better? lol. Humans need to be getting their news from meditation and then listening to their body-cast (like a podcast). The information from your body is accurate. Use your intuition when reading yourself. We are full swing in up level mode as far as our brains changing so that we are at least at fifth dimensional interaction with each other and the earth. Your body, sleeping, appetite, and general health should be changing drastically for the better. My eyesight has changed, ability to focus, feelings about my body and awareness of what I need to work on. If your focus is still predominantly OUTSIDE of your life and your body you are probably on a downswing physically and emotionally. That’s a choice. You don’t have to go that route.

Our human society has hit a wall and has run it’s course as far as the old DNA lineup. We’re already putting new mechanisms in place that are helpful to the earth and life on it as the old way is dying off. This is a reset point.

Code 0-19; 19:15:10:75

5GForce, 5th dimensional vibe: Red 4 Serpent. I define in order to survive. Measuring instinct I seal the store of life force with the self-existing tone of form. I am guided by the power of birth (Red Dragon is the serpent’s mother). I am a polar kin. I convert the red galactic spectrum.

The two archetypes above represent Planetary Arginine and Valine. We are working on PERFECTING our personal creative vision, focusing and targeting our beliefs about ourselves. What facts do we have in 3D about what we have achieved, learned, and done. What do we feel good about and what don’t we feel good about? Are you done blaming others for something that didn’t go as you wanted it to? There is always synchronicity occurring and everything happens for a reason. What events have happened TO US and what events have happened AROUND US. Those are two very different things. Try to go through that in your head. You may have created a worldview based on what happens to others, not to you. You are not them.

It’s an important distinction because we only create what happens directly to us because our vibe (thoughts and feelings) are a literal magnet. So, while there may be any number of events on a wide spectrum happening around us, we don’t have to respond or be involved in any of it if our soul is not in need of it nor interested in it. I am personally fascinated with human society but when it wastes limited time in the physical with destructive, victim and victimizing behavior on a grand scale I withdraw. That’s not the same thing as feelings being hurt in a one on one friendship or relationship. There is no victimization there.

Time is endless but time in the physical, at this point, is not. IT COULD BE! Speaking of vision, I don’t believe physical death is necessary or smart at all. I know enough about our cells and bodies to know that we don’t have to suffer and die. It’s a special kind of indolence to be caught up in that thought form but just about 100% of humanity believe they have to suffer and die. It’s hard not to be affected by it.

When someone dies that happens to them, not us. We then can respond to what happened to them in any way we choose or need to based on our connection. It doesn’t have to be a terribly negative thing to us when something terrible happens to another. In fact, it’s not helping them if we start to go down the negative tube as well. Try to choose ABOVE the social expectation of joining in the sad sack party. Let them judge you. It will hurt them more than you sitting in their judgment.

This is the 24 hour full themeplex moving from center to the right, then to the left.

  • We sleep through Blue Eagle and Yellow Seed. This is the unconscious mind
  • Dawn to noon is the top one. This is Conscious mind flow in the morning. We’re fresh.
  • Noon to dusk is on the left, also conscious but resistance in the afternoon as humans project onto each other instead of staying centered in their own space.
  • Dusk to midnight is the bottom. This is subconscious mind of birth family programming. Hopefully, what you just went through during the day enlightens events from your family and YOU RELEASE THEM instead of repeating patterns. The media and politics are able to make quite of bit of headway by programming and using people’s unhealed subconscious mind against them. All of the institutions play on humans child self and pretend they are your authoritative parents. Gag me.

SCIENCE CORNER

This is the full themeplex in order; Blue Eagle is Arginine, Yellow Seed is Valine, Blue Night is Alanine, Red Serpent is Serine and White Worldbridger is Threonine. The last two are posted together above because they literally are almost exactly the same molecules! and then show up in Tzolkin themeplex together. That is a synchronicity between 3D and 4-5D. It happens all the time with this system. That’s why I’m doing this project. Also notice how Valine drops it’s CH3 molecule down to Threonine. That tells me that the Yellow Seed tribe gave it’s “seeds” to the White Worldbrider tribe to help us evolve on Earth

Our DNA IS TIME and I’ve seen it for thirty years. Notice that Threonine has the Carbon atom and two more Hydrogen atoms. The White Worldbridger tribe helped humans escape and survive the Maldek (RED SERPENT which is the GForce today) explosion so when we had to come to earth we needed more carbon and hydrogen to survive. The W WB tribe helped us evolve into that and changed our DNA.

See you tomorrow!

Intimacy; You’re not necessarily in a relationship just because you have sex.

just friends

 

What I’m seeing men do is, instead of doing a series of hook-ups, they decide to be monogamous with one woman. Then the assumption is that is a relationship. No, it’s not; not if you don’t have feelings for one another. It’s just an ongoing hookup which is not a relationship.

You’re in a relationship if you have an ongoing friendship, you care about one another, and you hang out and go out, you love talking to one another, you help each other out sometimes and you eat together. That might include sex, it might not. It might be intermittent sex or not. The man or woman’s sexual behavior does not define the parameters of what a relationship is.

It’s time for women to step up and speak up! We need to accept that sexual communication IS a relationship to men and they don’t understand anything much deeper or how to go about it. Women understand emotions and bonding moreso and absolutely need to mix that in with the sex. But we still should not let the man say, “We had sex so you’re my territory.” Maybe you’re just dating. Sex is just part of dating.

Women are territorial sexually as well but my point is, the emotional friendship bond is what really creates an ongoing relationship; not sex. That should be perfectly obvious given how many people have hook-ups and it means nothing. For that matter, sex doesn’t define marriage either.

Intimacy; dogs or gods?

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Who could resist that adorable puppy coming running toward them for attention? There ya have it. That’s the curse women are under with cute men. I’ve interviewed women and they agree. When a man is really cute he’s very hard to resist!  It’s terrible. We just want to love em’ up and feed them, make up a dog house, let them stay over, oh geez, on and on and it does us in. There goes the peace we need as females and space to take care of ourselves and get our work done. We really need to learn to resist this instinct!

True to form, I learn something every day about women and men, our basic natures, and realize there were many things I was not taught growing up. Can you relate to that moment someone close to you said something off the cuff and it stuck in your head? That was the case for me with my second husband Dave (my son’s father). He was walking up the stairs one day after a normal conversation and he looked at me and said “We’re like dogs. Men are like dogs” Some men are fancy dogs, or rich dogs, or bad dogs, or good dogs, or work dogs. Some are both! Some are crazy dogs or funny dogs, sexy dogs or sweet dogs. You get the idea.

If you read my blog regularly you can guess I looked at him with disbelief and derision. In no way was I going to accept that as an excuse for his behavior. Nor had I ever entertained a career in dog training or dog breeding by letting a man live with me. I’ve never even owned a dog and don’t want to because I’m consistently told that they are like having another child! Children need to be patted on the head and encouraged, praised with kind words, fed, loved, and kept warm and more. I already did that with my son. I don’t need to do that with a man or a dog. It’s a turn off to me to think about treating a man like a dog. But now I’ve been mulling it over.

I can say with assurance that I have always worked toward and considered myself a goddess as opposed to dog food. In no way have I ever fed my body to a lusty man to be consumed because he’s hungry. I think most women do though! They accept it! It does feel good and women most definitely have the instinct to feed men but it will kill your self-esteem and is not emotionally good for women.

On the other hand, men love those superheroes and I know for a fact they have a rich fantasy life about what great warrior heroes and magical powers they might possess. There’s nothing a man loves more than seeing a woman look at him sincerely as her hero. It’s not that a woman wants or needs to be rescued. We really don’t. But sometimes we definitely do need protection in a very rough world. Sure,  IronMan to the scene! I’m good with that and Robert Downey Jr. is a major hottie. A man who is a god can be recognized as truly wanting and respecting an intelligent woman who takes care of her own business. He takes care of his own business so he isn’t bothering her like a little kid and her in the role of his mother. No thanks. He also takes care of his health and teeth so he pleases her physically and of course, she does the same. Most of all, he likes himself and has matured to the point of being able to listen and care about how a woman feels.

So I can honestly say I’ve decided I am looking for a man who knows he really IS a god just as I know I am a goddess. It’s an awareness of the divinity within us; one with us and is the goal of the Spiritual movement. You won’t find it in religion and I’m guessing they find it heretical. Spiritual people are not saying we are God. We’re saying that our identity is an ascending child of God which is a god or goddess. We’re working on ourselves to get better every day. Every single human being has this in them; in our blood which is our QI, or consciousness. I’m not the goddess I want to be or know I can be yet but I’m almost there and it has nothing to do with age. That will be the subject of another blog.

 

Intimacy; How Do We Move From Lust to Love?

Do you know the difference between lust and love? I’ll go with the hard one first; Love. Love is when you want to take time to really know someone, to care about how they feel, what they need and what makes them tick. You want to be their friend. Friendship is the basis of all lasting, lusty, good relationships. It takes time and maturity to grow. Lust is everything else. Anything that’s not love is lust. Lust is the emotion behind most human interactions and has the face of greed, trolling on Facebook, offloading on strangers and the like. If you have no foundation of care and face-to-face friendship with someone you are indulging in instant gratification lust and there is nothing loving about it.

This issue has been challenging for me. I’m a very passionate, physical woman and have no problem lusting after men who are very attractive to me. I don’t act on it; it’s just fun. My personality and values are all about love. There isn’t really any other material thing I lust after; unless I’m really hungry. then I lust after food.

That’s a good segue because food hunger is almost exactly like sex hunger in the brain. And notice how many people overeat when they just need some love, affection, and sex. We’re looking for a serotonin spike and some other juicy brain chemicals that make us happy. I know I am. Food doesn’t come close to making me happy the way intimacy and love does. I don’t even like bothering to stop and fix food because I’m busy with my projects, writing, chores, things I love to do! Why do I have to stop and eat? I’ve always been like that. I’m not terribly fond of slowing down.

Now we see a problem here; denial of human need when you know it’s not likely to be easily fulfilled! I’ve been married three times to great men and had several great boyfriends. I’m still not satisfied. They weren’t perfect or didn’t satisfy me the way I really want to be. They didn’t make my brain and body explode with orgasmic happiness, although my last mate Michael came close. He loved me…really, really loved me and I loved him. Love is the sexiest thing going. Then he died suddenly. That’s not helping the situation. Love is definitely tragic.

It makes me wonder about eating disorders. If you take that denial of the need for love, warmth, and affection far enough it would make your brain or specifically, the hypothalamus gland stops craving food. So the emotion of lust would be good at this point versus the emotions around deprivation.

I’m not into deprivation at all but I am sorely afraid of loving a man, pulling him to me, and pushing him away because I need to be alone with my ideas, my mind, my life, my work, and my writing. I don’t want to hurt him. There has to be some intimacy and some time shared with your loved one or they will go away. I hate that.

broken_heart1I think I’ve stayed in lust mode in my brain because I’ve lost too many people I’ve loved. It’s like a car idling. My life isn’t idling but my feelings about bonding in a relationship are definitely idling. Maybe I’m stuck in lust gear because it’s emotionally safer. There is no risk of having your heart ripped out and stomped on the floor by death and life itself if you don’t go into love gear and really start driving.

 

Men are Dramatic in Action and Women are Dramatic in their Speech

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How many bazillion times have you heard a guy say “No drama!”? They act like they give women no drama. Men are over the top!!! Men get emotional physically and sometimes verbally. Their actions are too dramatic. That’s the testosterone and they put WOMEN through the wringer not being able to calm down their testosterone or my favorite, being so confused about how to relate what they want to us that they send dual-minded, conflicting signals. A lot of women think they’re lying but half of the time I think they just don’t know what to say…literally.

Women are more dramatic in expressing themselves verbally. Women are actually brilliant at expressing themselves verbally and men are FOREVER telling us to be quiet and stop being so dramatic. I fucking hate it nor will I obey. I find men and women to be equally expressive emotionally but in these two different modes.

Next time a man says to you, “Cut the drama” when you’re speaking and expressing your feelings, bring down the curtain on his ass regarding how his actions are overdramatic expressing HIS feelings. He can “cut the drama” too. Sheesh!

Heartset; Men Blame Women for Giving in to Sex if the Man Really Wants Connection

How are we supposed to know off the bat that a man is truly interested  in us? He’ll behave like a gentleman and not a horny dog in the alley. He’ll dress nice and take us on a date. The same could be true of a woman. She wants to know who you are not just use you for sex even though you’re throwing yourself at her.

The horny men almost always start it up and expect the woman to control the situation so that a deeper relationship might be possible because the men need bonding more than we do! Women rarely get lonely; men do. Then the man needs to control his sexual compulsion and not blame the woman for the direction it goes. Women just as easily use men for sex if that’s all they’re bringing to the table.

The way nature works; once you start something with a woman we’re going to finish it! Men need to control and FOCUS their sexual fire, like the Sun.

“If a man adores one special flower, he must FOCUS his light in that corner of the garden and breathe. Otherwise, once the sun comes out, all the flowers are going to open. Don’t blame the flower for opening to the Sun. The Sun started it! You can always go behind a cloud or turn to rain! The flower is rooted in the earth and can’t change or move. The Sun can!”

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