Competition Can Be Inspiring


I perked up when I heard military insider Emery Smith say, “Humans are egos.” That rang true. Today is Tone 5, the Overtone tone that is about commanding, radiance and empowerment. There is one thing every human wants and that’s personal power. If they don’t know how to self-generate it inside, which is Tone 4, they will project outside of themselves and try to pulse off of or vampire off of someone’s else’s energy to make themselves bigger or better in some way by competing. Or they will fain affinity when there might not really be much affinity to try to energy cord the person to suck energy from them. For some reason, humans compete more with each other gender wise than listening and vibing with the universe. Women compete more with women and men compete more with men.

Today is White 5 Wind which is mediated by Uranus. The attributes are communication, breath, and spirit. agile, divine breath, clever, multifaceted, inspiration to all, idealistic, mental, presence of truth, spiritual, and romantic. That’s all positive. Why is the antipode or challenge Yellow 5 Human? Why are humans a challenge to radiant empowerment? Because they compete and want to dominate more than they want to love. That’s ego. They don’t see themselves the way God sees them. That’s the definition of politics and why it does NO GOOD in the world. It’s a waste of time and drama. The attributes of Yellow Human are influence, wisdom, and free will. Humans use their influence and freewill mainly, to try to control and dominate others.

The Guide Power is White 5 Dog or Radiant Love and Loyalty, Heart. So in the Tzolkin, the energy line up and consequently the cellular DNA line-up is correct. How will that show itself in human behavior?

White 5 Wind is Divine breath and communication

If you improve something in your life or you reach a goal, get healthier or more radiant, the same gender so-called friends will SAY something positive and encouraging to you that is sincere. They will not act jealous or self-depricating, or self conscious low self-esteem about themselves. They will be happy for you. They will not call you names and hate on you, even jokingly. The “I’m so jealous I hate you” little comment. Or, “I can’t (or can) do this as well as you do!” They turn the focus to themselves and how weak they are. Watch your back!

This is my pet peeve with women. I don’t obey or follow humans as I’ve said before. I work very closely with my spirit guides, my intuition and the Universe. I am successful at anything I put my mind to and women and maybe one man compete with me. Their competition with me inspires them to do better which is good. Blue 9 Storm is the Hidden Wisdom. It is about catalyzing energy and self-generation so there you have it. Most humans react or stare at each other on social media and in politics and then MIMIC or COMPETE to try to one up each other to be better than they were before. That’s not such a bad thing as long as they’re strangers. But it’s not loving with a friend. When a friend or sibling says something that’s competitive I know they don’t love me and it’s happened more often than not. As I type I can think of no less than 20 women and one man that either has competed or competes with me now. The funny thing is, they don’t want to hang out with me when I reach out to them. That clinches it. They feel too insecure around me. That’s not love. They aren’t the least bit concerned about what I need, don’t ask and don’t think there is anything I need because I don’t whine and I’m not dependent and insecure.

The 5GForce is White 9 Mirror, kin 178. This is the Writer’s Mantra;

” I pulse in order to reflect. Realizing order I seal the matrix of endlessness with the solar tone of intention I am guided by the power of timelessness.”

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FRIDAY Daily Tzolkin Reading to get Your Vibe Lined Up!


Or you could just turn on the T.V.! Would that help you feel better? lol. Humans need to be getting their news from meditation and then listening to their body-cast (like a podcast). The information from your body is accurate. Use your intuition when reading yourself. We are full swing in up level mode as far as our brains changing so that we are at least at fifth dimensional interaction with each other and the earth. Your body, sleeping, appetite, and general health should be changing drastically for the better. My eyesight has changed, ability to focus, feelings about my body and awareness of what I need to work on. If your focus is still predominantly OUTSIDE of your life and your body you are probably on a downswing physically and emotionally. That’s a choice. You don’t have to go that route.

Our human society has hit a wall and has run it’s course as far as the old DNA lineup. We’re already putting new mechanisms in place that are helpful to the earth and life on it as the old way is dying off. This is a reset point.

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5GForce, 5th dimensional vibe: Red 4 Serpent. I define in order to survive. Measuring instinct I seal the store of life force with the self-existing tone of form. I am guided by the power of birth (Red Dragon is the serpent’s mother). I am a polar kin. I convert the red galactic spectrum.

The two archetypes above represent Planetary Arginine and Valine. We are working on PERFECTING our personal creative vision, focusing and targeting our beliefs about ourselves. What facts do we have in 3D about what we have achieved, learned, and done. What do we feel good about and what don’t we feel good about? Are you done blaming others for something that didn’t go as you wanted it to? There is always synchronicity occurring and everything happens for a reason. What events have happened TO US and what events have happened AROUND US. Those are two very different things. Try to go through that in your head. You may have created a worldview based on what happens to others, not to you. You are not them.

It’s an important distinction because we only create what happens directly to us because our vibe (thoughts and feelings) are a literal magnet. So, while there may be any number of events on a wide spectrum happening around us, we don’t have to respond or be involved in any of it if our soul is not in need of it nor interested in it. I am personally fascinated with human society but when it wastes limited time in the physical with destructive, victim and victimizing behavior on a grand scale I withdraw. That’s not the same thing as feelings being hurt in a one on one friendship or relationship. There is no victimization there.

Time is endless but time in the physical, at this point, is not. IT COULD BE! Speaking of vision, I don’t believe physical death is necessary or smart at all. I know enough about our cells and bodies to know that we don’t have to suffer and die. It’s a special kind of indolence to be caught up in that thought form but just about 100% of humanity believe they have to suffer and die. It’s hard not to be affected by it.

When someone dies that happens to them, not us. We then can respond to what happened to them in any way we choose or need to based on our connection. It doesn’t have to be a terribly negative thing to us when something terrible happens to another. In fact, it’s not helping them if we start to go down the negative tube as well. Try to choose ABOVE the social expectation of joining in the sad sack party. Let them judge you. It will hurt them more than you sitting in their judgment.

This is the 24 hour full themeplex moving from center to the right, then to the left.

  • We sleep through Blue Eagle and Yellow Seed. This is the unconscious mind
  • Dawn to noon is the top one. This is Conscious mind flow in the morning. We’re fresh.
  • Noon to dusk is on the left, also conscious but resistance in the afternoon as humans project onto each other instead of staying centered in their own space.
  • Dusk to midnight is the bottom. This is subconscious mind of birth family programming. Hopefully, what you just went through during the day enlightens events from your family and YOU RELEASE THEM instead of repeating patterns. The media and politics are able to make quite of bit of headway by programming and using people’s unhealed subconscious mind against them. All of the institutions play on humans child self and pretend they are your authoritative parents. Gag me.

SCIENCE CORNER

This is the full themeplex in order; Blue Eagle is Arginine, Yellow Seed is Valine, Blue Night is Alanine, Red Serpent is Serine and White Worldbridger is Threonine. The last two are posted together above because they literally are almost exactly the same molecules! and then show up in Tzolkin themeplex together. That is a synchronicity between 3D and 4-5D. It happens all the time with this system. That’s why I’m doing this project. Also notice how Valine drops it’s CH3 molecule down to Threonine. That tells me that the Yellow Seed tribe gave it’s “seeds” to the White Worldbrider tribe to help us evolve on Earth

Our DNA IS TIME and I’ve seen it for thirty years. Notice that Threonine has the Carbon atom and two more Hydrogen atoms. The White Worldbridger tribe helped humans escape and survive the Maldek (RED SERPENT which is the GForce today) explosion so when we had to come to earth we needed more carbon and hydrogen to survive. The W WB tribe helped us evolve into that and changed our DNA.

See you tomorrow!

Intimacy; You’re not necessarily in a relationship just because you have sex.


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What I’m seeing men do is, instead of doing a series of hook-ups, they decide to be monogamous with one woman. Then the assumption is that is a relationship. No, it’s not; not if you don’t have feelings for one another. It’s just an ongoing hookup which is not a relationship.

You’re in a relationship if you have an ongoing friendship, you care about one another, and you hang out and go out, you love talking to one another, you help each other out sometimes and you eat together. That might include sex, it might not. It might be intermittent sex or not. The man or woman’s sexual behavior does not define the parameters of what a relationship is.

It’s time for women to step up and speak up! We need to accept that sexual communication IS a relationship to men and they don’t understand anything much deeper or how to go about it. Women understand emotions and bonding moreso and absolutely need to mix that in with the sex. But we still should not let the man say, “We had sex so you’re my territory.” Maybe you’re just dating. Sex is just part of dating.

Women are territorial sexually as well but my point is, the emotional friendship bond is what really creates an ongoing relationship; not sex. That should be perfectly obvious given how many people have hook-ups and it means nothing. For that matter, sex doesn’t define marriage either.

Intimacy; dogs or gods?


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Who could resist that adorable puppy coming running toward them for attention? There ya have it. That’s the curse women are under with cute men. I’ve interviewed women and they agree. When a man is really cute he’s very hard to resist!  It’s terrible. We just want to love em’ up and feed them, make up a dog house, let them stay over, oh geez, on and on and it does us in. There goes the peace we need as females and space to take care of ourselves and get our work done. We really need to learn to resist this instinct!

True to form, I learn something every day about women and men, our basic natures, and realize there were many things I was not taught growing up. Can you relate to that moment someone close to you said something off the cuff and it stuck in your head? That was the case for me with my second husband Dave (my son’s father). He was walking up the stairs one day after a normal conversation and he looked at me and said “We’re like dogs. Men are like dogs” Some men are fancy dogs, or rich dogs, or bad dogs, or good dogs, or work dogs. Some are both! Some are crazy dogs or funny dogs, sexy dogs or sweet dogs. You get the idea.

If you read my blog regularly you can guess I looked at him with disbelief and derision. In no way was I going to accept that as an excuse for his behavior. Nor had I ever entertained a career in dog training or dog breeding by letting a man live with me. I’ve never even owned a dog and don’t want to because I’m consistently told that they are like having another child! Children need to be patted on the head and encouraged, praised with kind words, fed, loved, and kept warm and more. I already did that with my son. I don’t need to do that with a man or a dog. It’s a turn off to me to think about treating a man like a dog. But now I’ve been mulling it over.

I can say with assurance that I have always worked toward and considered myself a goddess as opposed to dog food. In no way have I ever fed my body to a lusty man to be consumed because he’s hungry. I think most women do though! They accept it! It does feel good and women most definitely have the instinct to feed men but it will kill your self-esteem and is not emotionally good for women.

On the other hand, men love those superheroes and I know for a fact they have a rich fantasy life about what great warrior heroes and magical powers they might possess. There’s nothing a man loves more than seeing a woman look at him sincerely as her hero. It’s not that a woman wants or needs to be rescued. We really don’t. But sometimes we definitely do need protection in a very rough world. Sure,  IronMan to the scene! I’m good with that and Robert Downey Jr. is a major hottie. A man who is a god can be recognized as truly wanting and respecting an intelligent woman who takes care of her own business. He takes care of his own business so he isn’t bothering her like a little kid and her in the role of his mother. No thanks. He also takes care of his health and teeth so he pleases her physically and of course, she does the same. Most of all, he likes himself and has matured to the point of being able to listen and care about how a woman feels.

So I can honestly say I’ve decided I am looking for a man who knows he really IS a god just as I know I am a goddess. It’s an awareness of the divinity within us; one with us and is the goal of the Spiritual movement. You won’t find it in religion and I’m guessing they find it heretical. Spiritual people are not saying we are God. We’re saying that our identity is an ascending child of God which is a god or goddess. We’re working on ourselves to get better every day. Every single human being has this in them; in our blood which is our QI, or consciousness. I’m not the goddess I want to be or know I can be yet but I’m almost there and it has nothing to do with age. That will be the subject of another blog.

 

Intimacy; How Do We Move From Lust to Love?


Do you know the difference between lust and love? I’ll go with the hard one first; Love. Love is when you want to take time to really know someone, to care about how they feel, what they need and what makes them tick. You want to be their friend. Friendship is the basis of all lasting, lusty, good relationships. It takes time and maturity to grow. Lust is everything else. Anything that’s not love is lust. Lust is the emotion behind most human interactions and has the face of greed, trolling on Facebook, offloading on strangers and the like. If you have no foundation of care and face-to-face friendship with someone you are indulging in instant gratification lust and there is nothing loving about it.

This issue has been challenging for me. I’m a very passionate, physical woman and have no problem lusting after men who are very attractive to me. I don’t act on it; it’s just fun. My personality and values are all about love. There isn’t really any other material thing I lust after; unless I’m really hungry. then I lust after food.

That’s a good segue because food hunger is almost exactly like sex hunger in the brain. And notice how many people overeat when they just need some love, affection, and sex. We’re looking for a serotonin spike and some other juicy brain chemicals that make us happy. I know I am. Food doesn’t come close to making me happy the way intimacy and love does. I don’t even like bothering to stop and fix food because I’m busy with my projects, writing, chores, things I love to do! Why do I have to stop and eat? I’ve always been like that. I’m not terribly fond of slowing down.

Now we see a problem here; denial of human need when you know it’s not likely to be easily fulfilled! I’ve been married three times to great men and had several great boyfriends. I’m still not satisfied. They weren’t perfect or didn’t satisfy me the way I really want to be. They didn’t make my brain and body explode with orgasmic happiness, although my last mate Michael came close. He loved me…really, really loved me and I loved him. Love is the sexiest thing going. Then he died suddenly. That’s not helping the situation. Love is definitely tragic.

It makes me wonder about eating disorders. If you take that denial of the need for love, warmth, and affection far enough it would make your brain or specifically, the hypothalamus gland stops craving food. So the emotion of lust would be good at this point versus the emotions around deprivation.

I’m not into deprivation at all but I am sorely afraid of loving a man, pulling him to me, and pushing him away because I need to be alone with my ideas, my mind, my life, my work, and my writing. I don’t want to hurt him. There has to be some intimacy and some time shared with your loved one or they will go away. I hate that.

broken_heart1I think I’ve stayed in lust mode in my brain because I’ve lost too many people I’ve loved. It’s like a car idling. My life isn’t idling but my feelings about bonding in a relationship are definitely idling. Maybe I’m stuck in lust gear because it’s emotionally safer. There is no risk of having your heart ripped out and stomped on the floor by death and life itself if you don’t go into love gear and really start driving.

 

Men are Dramatic in Action and Women are Dramatic in their Speech


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How many bazillion times have you heard a guy say “No drama!”? They act like they give women no drama. Men are over the top!!! Men get emotional physically and sometimes verbally. Their actions are too dramatic. That’s the testosterone and they put WOMEN through the wringer not being able to calm down their testosterone or my favorite, being so confused about how to relate what they want to us that they send dual-minded, conflicting signals. A lot of women think they’re lying but half of the time I think they just don’t know what to say…literally.

Women are more dramatic in expressing themselves verbally. Women are actually brilliant at expressing themselves verbally and men are FOREVER telling us to be quiet and stop being so dramatic. I fucking hate it nor will I obey. I find men and women to be equally expressive emotionally but in these two different modes.

Next time a man says to you, “Cut the drama” when you’re speaking and expressing your feelings, bring down the curtain on his ass regarding how his actions are overdramatic expressing HIS feelings. He can “cut the drama” too. Sheesh!

Heartset; Men Blame Women for Giving in to Sex if the Man Really Wants Connection


How are we supposed to know off the bat that a man is truly interested  in us? He’ll behave like a gentleman and not a horny dog in the alley. He’ll dress nice and take us on a date. The same could be true of a woman. She wants to know who you are not just use you for sex even though you’re throwing yourself at her.

The horny men almost always start it up and expect the woman to control the situation so that a deeper relationship might be possible because the men need bonding more than we do! Women rarely get lonely; men do. Then the man needs to control his sexual compulsion and not blame the woman for the direction it goes. Women just as easily use men for sex if that’s all they’re bringing to the table.

The way nature works; once you start something with a woman we’re going to finish it! Men need to control and FOCUS their sexual fire, like the Sun.

“If a man adores one special flower, he must FOCUS his light in that corner of the garden and breathe. Otherwise, once the sun comes out, all the flowers are going to open. Don’t blame the flower for opening to the Sun. The Sun started it! You can always go behind a cloud or turn to rain! The flower is rooted in the earth and can’t change or move. The Sun can!”

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Heartset; Three Types of Heterosexual Relationships


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The only one of these that is a real relationship is #3. The first two are sexual objectification. But by most people’s standards, #1 is a real relationship and is considered prison by many men but socially increases his status. Really, any man who prefers #2 will say he doesn’t want a relationship with a woman and will slut himself out to a woman handily. I’ve had male friends tell me that if a man is good looking enough, every man prefers #2 and that a loving relationship is absolutely off the table with the likes of any woman. These men are true immature narcissistic misogynists but ever so common. I guess it’s better then that they don’t mate.

I will admit that much of what I’ve observed about female behavior is societal programming for survival. Nevertheless, I’ve watched this for over fifty years and I believe it’s time for us to make a real leap in gender equity and get past the first two objectifying roles I describe.

  1. TERRITORY; A married woman, the mother of his children, a wife. They feign love but it rarely lasts as we all know. They are using each other for security and to raise children. There is no real love, the male mostly behaves as one of the children and the wife functions in the role of mother for everyone. This is typically pretty bad for women and good for men. Women get less healthy and men get healthier is what stats show. The reward is the woman has her children. The woman is still objectified and their sex life can easily become either boring or emotionally abusive and neglectful. This one is the outgrowth of religion.
  2. Hookup; A woman, especially these days, is sanctioned and appreciated by a man as a hook-up, a mistress, a lover, or a prostitute. She then gets roses or money. There is no relationship, no friendship, no respect, no real love at all. There is no emotional or spiritual maturity on the part of either the man or the woman. They’re just using each other for sex. This is defecation sex. When ya gotta go, ya gotta go. They both function at the teenager level emotionally, indulging in their lust and not valuing self-control or bonding at all. This one is the outgrowth of the abuses of patriarchy and materialist society.
  3. LOVE; Two emotionally and spiritually mature adults function as equals in all respects and truly love one another. This one is rare but is now possible with the shift in the energies on the planet of late. It also underlies the Twin Flame 11:11 phenom and some soul mates.  They shoot for living from their core self, have dignity, take care of themselves on every level and are monogamous. It’s not a possession, territory or defecation sex. It’s a true love bond chosen freely by both parties. He is a grown man and she is a grown woman, emotionally mature, loving themselves, no longer living in the subconscious family mind but the CONSCIOUS adult mind that is no longer dependent on the immediate family. This one is the outgrowth of Spirituality.

Women who don’t objectify themselves in a monogamous heteronormative domestic servitude relationship or a promiscuous sexual life feeding men’s sex hunger and apparently their own, with no emotional or spiritual involvement from them as an adult male, are punished or ignored. Her only reward for her dignified choice is self-esteem and sitting in her own soul. Likely, her exemplary work paves the way for exponential competition and jealousy from more timid women beaten down by the system. She will somehow be roundly punished socially by the endless followers who think themselves good people but are really skating by instead of doing the right thing and empowering themselves.

#3 is the only real option for people who value love and still believe in it and want to do it. The challenge is that you have to work on yourself and stop expecting your mate or children to make you happy on an emotional/spiritual level. Sexually, yes, it is the adult’s role to satisfy you sexually and vice versa or there isn’t much point unless you’re both asexual. Some people are and have a different motivation for a relationship other than sex. To each his own!

 

 

Heartset; Real Dating Strikes the Fear of God in Men


That’s why so many men want to go to sex right away. They don’t want to show their lack of people skills, expressing emotion, or relationship skills to a woman. Dating is a gray area with no fences, rules or customs that change with passing time. Men thrive with boundaries and go down the tubes if they’re free to roam too much or too long. It’s the time when the female pulls out all of her expertly evolved radar and sizes up a man, checks him with her software and smells him to see if he’s useful for her purposes or worth giving her body to. That is if she’s smart. Remember, every man who comes in you gives you some of his DNA. It’s a scientific fact.

Mind you, a woman at any age can find a use for a man that suits her and we believe, and I’ve been told, men want us to want them. It’s not really the other way around. Men’s egos tell them they’re on top. Most women are easily acceptable to a man, especially if she’s very into him and is adoring. A man’s ego loves that more than anything. Women don’t need to be adored; men do. I’m super doting on a man I adore. It’s fairly nauseating and I can scarcely help it! To a man I don’t adore he doesn’t exist. That can be a heartbreaker but he had his chance to be invaluable to me and didn’t make the cut. In addition, I blogged on how I don’t care for the pressure of being adored by a man.

This is why dating is so awful for men and essential for women. Men really, really, really hate rejection and not measuring up. They have the evolutionary urge to be dominant, especially with women. I personally like that because as a strong woman, I need a break. I need support and someone to match me.

Women don’t experience that obsession with being accepted the same as men. All women I know of every size, look, or creed knows we hold the world together and give it love and life. Women are awesome and everything. So to be fair to men, they have to be given a chance to perform the dance in which they excel during dating; sex. I’m good with that as long as both parties know it’s an experiment not a relationship with commitment and tons of emotional bonding. It’s too early in the game. However, the man’s sexual performance will not impress an intelligent, tuned-in woman unless there is some emotional chemistry. That is non-negotiable and a deal-breaker if it’s absent.

This is a veritable minefield for most men as they do not excel at understanding or communicating emotion at all. It’s too easy for them to fail. That is an awful 4-letter word to a man. A few straight men do get emotions and they are super hot to me but most men are unskilled because feminism has distracted women from bothering with training men. Most women consider it beneath us now and many women just use men for sex. They don’t even want children or marriage anymore.

That’s a choice so I’m not judging it. Patriarchy has been especially hard on women and children but it has also been very hard on men. The elite use and slaughter men, their psyche, and their bodies and they partly program women to help them do it! That’s a subject for another blog but suffice to say, a modicum of dating needs to happen so that the woman gets what she needs and it’s not just McSex drive through which is bad for everyone and society. It’s up to women to ask for what they need as far as relating. Just don’t call it a relationship when you barely know each other! A relationship is built on affinity, friendship, maturity, trust, and emotional bonding; not just sex…at all.

Mindset; The Black Widow Woman MYTH


I’ve been accused three times, with men I’ve dated, liked or known, of being a black widow and it’s ridiculous and offensive.  I am literally a widow (twice) and a single woman but I’m not analogous to a black widow spider! Black Widow refers to the arachnid female spider called the Black Widow. It refers to the action of many INSECTS, not mammals who inject a male, with whom they have just mated, with poison and eat him for nutrition. Apparently, calories are hard to come by in the arachnid world and in order to grow their eggs/offspring, they need food. There are a few scientific theories about why this behavior occurs but none of it crosses over to mammalian behavior.

Spiders are not the only ones who do it. Praying mantis and many other insects do it as well to their male mating partners; biting off their heads after mating. I wasn’t there when the arachnids had their meeting on how to deal with evolution but the propagation of the species does tend to come first in the entire animal and plant kingdom. Sometimes a sacrifice has to be made. lol. The exception among spiders is the male Wolf Spider who eats his female mate, so that does occur.

Getting to my point. humans are warm-blooded MAMMALS meaning the females have highly nutritious food-producing mammary glands for our offspring and very horny male mates who just can’t get enough of our breasts. As a female who has had a baby and several mates, I can vouch for the fact that we love giving it to them as well as the rest of our bodies. It’s an instinct!  In addition, female mammals are known for continuing to be nurturing and affectionate to children and mates even after they are weaned! GEE! That’s pretty nice. Feminism and having our own money has not completely ruined our loving mammalian instincts. I don’t see women spinning webs and growing eight legs yet even if they do become more aggressive and smarter.

Interesting isn’t it? The fact is, female mammals have a huge instinct to feed and nurture the males not cannibalize them. The male mammals are very aggressive with one another, however. Of course, this is very hard wired in female mammalian brains to nurture their own family and even perfect strangers or their children! It’s a beautiful thing, so men need to beg off calling us black widows or being scared of great, loving women.

It’s all the more offensive to me as a very generous, nurturing, female mammal to be made analogous to a cold-blooded, arachnid spider who eats her mate in cannibalistic sex after mating. The men I’ve known have “jokingly,” said, “I better be careful of you!” when they find out two of my mates died. The truth is, all three men have been married to overly aggressive women or women who eventually decided they were lesbian. Again, I wasn’t there at the meeting but I’m as straight and as nurturing as can be; not a lesbian.

The fact is, my son’s father died four years ago today, December 30, 2015, from cancer all over his body because he lived a life of rage and cigarette smoking. He caused his own death even though his brothers scapegoated me upon his death. My boyfriend Michael died three months later from the flu which turned into pneumonia. That happens often. And with people who have weak lungs or are generally unhealthy, it’s even more common. Michael did not take care of himself either and did have weak lungs. Instead of compassion for all of this loss I’ve gone through, because I’m intelligent and confident, I’ve been blamed for the death of males as though my very existence was a threat to them. I deserve love and compassion for what I’ve been through, not blame, competition from women, or attempt to vampire my energy because I know who I am. I’m on this planet to help, not to harm and I need reciprocation from a new, straight mate.

Women and men do take turns blaming each other for each other’s demise when the truth is, our health and happiness lie in our own hands. But we can simply help one another when it’s appropriate. The black widow accusation is just another way for certain men to escape taking responsibility for maturing when it comes to bonding and honoring their feelings for a certain woman. Many continue in their socially sanctioned slutty ways of hook-ups and friends with benefits. That’s fine but I’m not doing it. Maybe they miss their very mean ex’s and they don’t want a kind, nurturing woman. That’s always possible but I don’t attend low self-esteem meetings either.

She doesn’t look like an arachnid to me.

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