Mothers Day


I wrote this ten years ago today and forgot about it. Good ole’ FB memories

To all the Mothers:

Happy Mother’s Day.

May the abundance of the Earth and the light of the sun, moon, and stars wash your feet with the holy water borne of many tears turned to a blessed stream ambling through a heart full of joy. -ME (5/9/10)

Counterintuitive; the opposite of Intuitive


I haven’t talked about something being counterintuitive yet but the word and the concept are well known in our culture. That’s a good thing. That means most people are still using their intuition which means they’re tuned into their body and enjoy it. That is nature and it’s far more powerful than institutional and societal programming. I get out of bed every morning still believing that and seeing it in my patients. That’s why I get out of bed.

I always write about intuition, which on my part, is a bit of a reaction to a culture that lies all the time. Everything in the media shuns intuition and makes statements and advertisements that lead one to believe that we and everyone around us are counterintuitive. They’ve taken it to such an extreme that when they say intuition, they mean their version of intuition which is against the natural body and soul. It’s gotten that bad. When the media says, “let’s be intuitive” it’s actually counterintuitive.

A perfect example is our sick-care system called healthcare. Most people are willing to hand over their body, their physical decisions, their physical awareness, and all their money to a doctor or health insurance. They’ve become convinced by the system and the media that there is no way they are accurate in their own intuition about their body. I’m writing about this here because it’s drastically affecting our BONDING to one another, sex, and intimacy as well as turning intuition on its head, especially now during this unnecessary panicdemic.

The reason for this is the ancient tradition of bloodletting. The worship of bloodletting underpins our entire human culture and has for centuries. It’s sinister and incorrect and I hope to point out the details here.

Bloodletting is such an honored and ancient tradition that it’s become part of most of our Western superhero movies, Hollywood, and most of our human rituals all over the world. Bloodletting is an important part of almost every world religion. In Catholicism, they actually pretend to drink the blood of Christ and call it transubstantiation which means the wafer and wine stand in the place of Christ’s tortured body and his actual blood. It harks back to the slaughter of a lamb in the Jewish temple ritual. Christ was not the lamb of God. He was betrayed by Judas who was Luciferian. He didn’t have to die. He chose to allow it for teaching.

Honoring the blood flowing outside of the encased skin is seen as “a good thing”. That’s a Jewish idea co-opted by the Christians. Jesus didn’t condone it, in fact, he railed against the Jewish temple traditions which included too much hand-washing. Sound familiar?

I hate to bring up an unsavory subject but drinking blood and eating dead bodies is Luciferian. What does that make Christianity then who has an actual ritual around it in addition to entrenched pedophilia? In addition, we carnivores blood let animals and then eat them and call that the best food on the planet. If you haven’t been to a slaughterhouse you don’t know what you’re missing. For that matter, a chicken farm could be a field trip too. It’s awful.

I’m not going to be a liar here and say I’m a vegetarian. I have been off and on in my life but like so many people, I’m addicted to meat. I think it’s wrong of me and like many addicts, I don’t want to do it anymore but I was raised around it. My family is very much carnivore and other bad things as well. They’re basically Illuminati and I’m no longer in denial about it. In addition, we all have a license in our society and even encouragement to bloodlet an animal and eat meat with gravy made from that blood! It’s up to each one of us to clean up our act and not live double-minded.

Then there are the hospitals and all the surgery and blood spilled in our sick-care system. As my patient who is a nurse said to me one day, “I would never want to be in a hospital. It’s the worst place you could be.” She works in one! How counterintuitive is that!??? Humans. My god.

It’s important for there to be a profit in our so-called healthcare system. Wellness is not something to be taken seriously and nobody wants anything to be simple, plant-based, and whole. It lacks conflict and violence so it isn’t sexy. Wholeness or holiness is from God and they don’t believe in God. They thrive on fear, abuse, and wrongdoing. But the SACRIFICE you make as a low strata citizen will always be rewarded like getting a Christmas gift from Santa for free, even though it’s at taxpayer expense.

There’s also the just war that has kept our economy going and governments funded for one hundred years. Blood spilled on the battlefield is sacred blood because it’s violent. A sacrificial war keeps our society going. We like all the nice things we can buy that are killing our habitat. Soldiers are a necessary sacrifice to have all of those nice things. Everything is a necessary sacrifice when the elite are Luciferians. But you’ll be rewarded, if not in this life, in the next.

When you go to work and you’re a loyal worker you’re sacrificing your time and energy for slave wages and yours is a necessary sacrifice. These other jobs that require you to sometimes give up your health, like being in the sick care system in the hospital and not being given the supplies you need are something you’re supposed to accept. It’s fine if you die because you’re the honored dead. The local news will make sure that you’re given that and it justifies your life so, just be quiet.

As long as you sacrifice something FOR THE ELITE, who are Luciferians, your life is worth something. They’re God? It’s for the elite, your bosses, authorities, the people in charge who tell you to go over the cliff when they need something. If someone HAS MONEY and POWER, that makes them holy? They are God, not you. That is the God of materialism and it’s not God, it’s the opposite.

We’re in a body to be alive for a time, for the evolution and learning of our own souls. It’s a gift. We breathe the air, live life with the animals and the plants and people we love, have a baby, have sex, and be free. It’s codified in our Constitution that some incorrect politicians and citizens would like to shred. We are free to work in a career that we are passionate about. We don’t need anybody to patronizingly tell us what to do with our bodies as though we’re children in need of a state governor who is a babysitter. Blood sacrifice is not necessary. It never was. It was edited into books and stories that way for brainwashing profit. Fuck them and the donkey they rode intrusively into our lives. Christ rode a donkey to his crucifixion. We’re not riding their donkey to ours and Christ never asked us to. They twist the truth and always have.

Justice

Essay; No Possession in Relationships


just because someone desires you.

I guess the saying on the left could apply to women and to men but women are quite a bit more pre-meditated in choosing which men to talk to and then sleep with. Our lust does not control our rationality, much to men’s dismay. Sometimes mine does but I’m working on curbing it now that I realize men fall in love easier than women do, even it’s just our breasts they’re in love with.

This is especially the case for women of reproductive age.  So mostly, this applies to women. Just because a man desires you doesn’t mean he values you. For men, this could say, “Just because a woman likes to talk to you doesn’t mean she values you or loves you.” If people are not possessions then relationships with them cannot be assessed like an insurance adjustor would assess the damage done to a car.

Loss Adjuster Inspecting Car Involved In AccidentI’m following up on my previous post “Bonding Instead of Possession”, and suggesting a compromise between men’s dualistic approach to relationships which is either promiscuity or possession. Analyzing a relationship is not akin to being an insurance claims adjustor. It’s a matter for your HEARTSET to assess the situation which entails your feelings and then use intuition since feelings only lead to intuition which is the higher mind. No one is called to act on, indulge, or hold on to their feelings. Feelings are supposed to lead to the movement of Mind and Heart so we can make informed choices. You can’t leave out Heart or Mind or it will fail. That’s the whole point of knowing your feelings and it’s not minor. The Intuition leads to the higher mind and the Rational leads to the lower mind. One is fast, one is slow. I didn’t figure that out, the scientists did, nor do I really like the situation but that seems to be the way the brain is laid out for now until we evolve differently.

Promiscuity or possession is an all or nothing approach, a decisive approach that actually is emotional, even passionate based on physical lust, need, and desire, not love. Why is it considered normal and acceptable for men to not want a relationship but not women? Many women, including me, like being single, but I like friendship, love, and sex but I don’t want to be in a relationship. I like my absolute freedom and need it. I also like monogamy but only if the man doesn’t go overboard. Can a man process all of that and accept that I don’t want to possess or control him and he can’t possess or control me?

So far, no.

 

 

I Haven’t Written about Intimacy in Awhile


…because a panicdemic isn’t exactly an inspiration to intimacy.

IT’S A DIFFERENT WORLD SINCE I LAST REALLY POSTED ANYTHING!

I’m just going to say it. If you’re well and have faith in your immune system, know that you make antibodies as everyone does and feel like you can walk above the Fear Fray, HAVE SEX!

I’m above the fear fray. I’m incapable of following the crowd on this. Literally. I watch NO T.V. Because I know better. Being holistic, I know the facts about the body and take care of myself.  I don’t rely on doctors and their pills. I use herbs and take Chinese anti-viral herbs that make it impossible for a virus to go into your lungs. YEAH, THEY SHOULD BE ALL OVER THE HOSPITAL but there is no way Big Pharma would let Chinese herbs that work in there, even if they can save lives.

Being who I am, I know how to pretend I’m complying and then do the little actions and use the little wipes, hand washing like it’s a religion, social distancing, blah, blah, blah that everyone thinks is SO powerful and make my office smell like Lysol which is actually not good for us. I actually do it, probably more than the fear people because I coddle the fearful people too much. I feel sorry for them having no faith whatsoever in their bodies.

It’s because they THINK THAT and FEEL that that gives it power. I feel it already without the little anti-microbial everything. Someone do me and people LIKE ME a favor and have a better understanding of how your body really works and some FAITH in your very powerful immune system. We never get that satisfaction. We just get to see darting eyes behind and mask and FEAR oozing out of every part of your body while you walk really fast from the grocery store. Do you know how TOXIC that is?

This whole thing is killing intimacy of any kind and sex and I find it very, very sinister to the social fabric of humanity. We’ll see if they really intend to open up normal movement again. Just start doing it yourself quietly. If everyone does without making a fuss then who is going to stop them?

What is intimate is the virus itself. It’s microscopic folks. It’s smaller than any moisture cells that come out of your mouth during a sneeze. The mask everyone is making like Betsy Ross made the flag aren’t helping with anything. If you sneeze, the microscopic virus goes right through the fibers of the mask. Outside particles in the air go right into and through because they’re microscopic. The only mask that stops it is N95 and I have one. A healthcare worker gave it to me so I could work on her. It’s asphyxiating meaning it works to keep out the virus. Oxygen can barely get in which means nothing in the air is getting in. That’s how you know it works. And you could faint wearing it. So the masks that do work don’t allow you to breathe. There’s a quick death. The whole mask issue is one of psychological false sense of security. If your vibe is full of fear you weaken your immune system.

Anyway…your mind (thoughts and feelings) control your immune system. There are all kinds of nasties, every day of your life in your body that if multiplied, would kill you quickly. Mammals are full of destructive microbes! All the time! We don’t die because our immune systems are 1 million years old of brilliant and are on vigilant guard and go after anything that gets out of line UNLESS, we tell them to stand down and let the killing begin. Meaning, you, the host, feel weak and sad and want to die. That doesn’t usually happen but this would be a good time to split if you felt like it. No one would question you, no hassle. The virus would be blamed, you would not be.

I feel the lack of intimacy and socializing is worse for people than the virus. We are meant to be together. This distrust of our bodies and the immune system is nonsense. That said if you feel weak and full of fear you should stay home because your vibe is toxic. Maybe not just now but all the time. You’ve got some meditating to do and choices to make about your relationship with Life.

A Matter of Opinion


aerial photography of water beside forest during golden hour
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“Some people need to take their own advice instead of endlessly propelling it at others. “The truth” is only “their truth” which is just their opinion. There are facts of science and nature but when it comes to people, it’s all relative and a matter of opinion.”

-Me, Lisa K. Townsend

Intimacy; Familiar Lover


It’s so much easier to melt into your warm flesh because I know how you smell and your voice.

It’s just the nurturing comfort I need right now but you won’t kiss me as you did before.

Something is distinctly unfamiliar…

You feel different in my bed, humidity on a dry. cold, windy day when the sun is loitering in the sky rather than actually warming things up.

You’re a woke soul, a man not a boy with your dreams doing cartwheels.

It’s not love, it’s familiarity which so many humans mistakenly wrap their arms around in tribal joy.

No doubt, what is familiar today will change tomorrow and that intrepid fact is forever familiar all around us.

aerial photography of water beside forest during golden hour
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Intimacy; Gray Area Between Relationship and Hookup?


I have to admit, if I’m not looking for a committed relationship with a man I don’t pay much attention to personality. I’m looking for attraction for sex or a lover. Men are no different with women.

Having touch and sex is a health issue. We all need it! I’m not throwing guilt in there but I do notice that the emotional detachment  with a man turns me off no matter how hot he is. I appreciate the beauty of a man though just as much as men do with women. Yet, it’s not even close to being like love.

Things get tricky when a man is your friend and you have things in common and have known each other for awhile. If he has a disposable hookup habit with women who are not friends how will he handle sex with a friend? Another notch only meaner? He gets double points for disposing of a female friend? Ultimately, she’s only a woman and nothing stops him from devouring as much as he can for free?

Being women, we do have the ability to make a man fall in love with us by loving him from the heart, talking to him and being irresistibly sexy even while we’re a free spirit and have no intention of having him on a hook. Personally I have no desire for a man around just as I have no pet in the house. I’m busy with the work I love. But I’m not sure I want the burden of a man in love with me to weigh me down.

I think you have to be ready to lose the friendship on the sex altar. It happens on the attraction and flirting altar too. That just ended one of my friendships. We didn’t even have sex but we may as well have because the energy and affection were there…then it left. It was his doing because he decided to hookup with someone else much easier to handle, blonder,and more tattooed likely with piercings in all the gross places. Lol. She was his level.

There is a gray area in there somewhere. I just haven’t found the sweet spot. Que sera sera.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Intimacy; Hip to Be a Ho?


It’s all socially permissible and fine for women and men to be promiscuous now. Everything has changed in the last few years. I include men in the Ho category. In fact they seem to feel privileged to be so detatched. I find that doubtful.

Women my age are as hot as ever and the younger men like us because we’re more skilled and can’t get pregnant. Add to that we know what food to eat so our body fluids are tasty. That’s not something most younger women think about because they assume their pheremones have their sexual superiority to us all tied up in a pretty bow.

My generation was not raised to feel perfectly fine about pure sex with no love and I still don’t. But it’s not a happy thing for a woman to go so long without sex that she starts to tighten up to the point of re-virginization. It makes intercourse painful.

The problem there is, as all women know, you could wait forever and slowly become a nun before you find a man with an open heart, emotional skills and capable of intimacy. A woman could easily get stuck hanging out with her gay boyfriend and gay husband like Stanny was to Carrie on “Sex in the City”. Remember how long Carrie had to wait for Big to really love her and then marry her?

So, mainly for health reasons, women and men become Ho’s and have sex outside of love, commitment, and a relationship most of the time. I’m not judging it. I just did it and I wasn’t turned on at all. I walked into the kitchen and said to myself, “I have to live with myself. This is the way I am,” meaning I don’t get turned on unless there is some love and affection, kissing, and matching vibe. I’ve never been superficial or very promiscuous.

Mind you, this man was 6’2″, his body was not just a 10 but more like a 12, perfect manhood, knew what he was doing, brought me coffee and muffin and had luscious lips. And he enjoyed my body and said so! I love my body too. So what! I don’t need his approval.

Nothing. I felt nothing. He was the most detached lover I’ve ever had and I felt sorry for him. He may have actually been a professional because he had the looks and the skill.

I’d rather be celibate. There is nothing I hate more than a man who is hot and utterly emotionally uninvolved with me. This is all feels unfair. If I don’t want my womanhood to close up I have to resort to nonbonded sex with someone I barely know? Do you know how many dumb dates I’ve had with trolls? Why can’t men open their hearts more and get with the program? “Ho ho ho” and it’s not even Christmas.

Intimacy; You’re not necessarily in a relationship just because you have sex.


just friends

 

What I’m seeing men do is, instead of doing a series of hook-ups, they decide to be monogamous with one woman. Then the assumption is that is a relationship. No, it’s not; not if you don’t have feelings for one another. It’s just an ongoing hookup which is not a relationship.

You’re in a relationship if you have an ongoing friendship, you care about one another, and you hang out and go out, you love talking to one another, you help each other out sometimes and you eat together. That might include sex, it might not. It might be intermittent sex or not. The man or woman’s sexual behavior does not define the parameters of what a relationship is.

It’s time for women to step up and speak up! We need to accept that sexual communication IS a relationship to men and they don’t understand anything much deeper or how to go about it. Women understand emotions and bonding moreso and absolutely need to mix that in with the sex. But we still should not let the man say, “We had sex so you’re my territory.” Maybe you’re just dating. Sex is just part of dating.

Women are territorial sexually as well but my point is, the emotional friendship bond is what really creates an ongoing relationship; not sex. That should be perfectly obvious given how many people have hook-ups and it means nothing. For that matter, sex doesn’t define marriage either.

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