My Astral Level Dream

I recommend remembering your dreams as much as possible. They have vital information for your 3D life. Asking to remember them or telling yourself to before you go to sleep might work.

This dream was twelve nights ago between White 13 Worldbriger, my analog, and Blue 1 Hand, my 5gforce so this was pivotal. I had no idea it was coming, nor have I been remembering them lately.

The first three-quarters of the dream was getting rid of a feeling of failure that I’m incapable of jumping through hoops for a lesser man just so I can fit into what society thinks a beautiful woman is supposed to do, feed a man her soul who doesn’t deserve her instead of being single. If what I am is so wrong, why do straight women come to my office all the time and tell me they wish they could be like me? Free.

Because they aren’t willing to pay the price of societal rejection, judgment, and pressure in patriarchy and make their own money instead of being subsidized by a man. Because they are NOT me. That’s why not.

Well, I’m tired all the time, never take vacations, and have no sex because I won’t degrade myself with hookups. Do they want that?

Women use men all the time because most men don’t love, they lust. Gay people use each other too but sometimes love. Lust isn’t love. Friendship is love. That attracts gay men to women and presents another problem.

Here is the dream;

I was in a car on a local road here and for some strange reason, there was no sign. I took a right off-ramp and I didn’t know where it was going or why but I ended up on this extremely strange highway that was geometric cubes. They were sort of cushy, full of air or balloon-like and it was ginormous and colorful, thousands of them. There were a lot of cars and types of roads but it was all slanted downhill and it was very scary cause it went super, super fast was by no means normal. I guess in our dimension it looked like a high-tech road and I was warned in a previous dream that it was being built. I remember now. I believe it was the astral level.

I ended up on a boat with people and we were in some secluded tropical island place. I said, “Oh my God where am I?” There was no map, no idea of where we were, everybody was nice but they had no way to help me bc they weren’t from my home land of earth. But they were people. No biggie. No threat. They weren’t strange at all, like normal E.T.

Then the different symbols start coming. I saw a woman and she looked familiar and I said you know who I am right? She stopped and acknowledged me. “Do you know where we are or how I can get back home so I can get married on time? ” We were supposed to get married at 5 and now it was 7! I said, “Why can’t I see you at home?” when she wasn’t even in my dimension and she said it was because we love each other, I can see her now. It makes you able to see people you wouldn’t otherwise in 4D and 5D. And then she went away. She was nice but not warm at all. So it almost was like she was a guardian angel, somebody I knew. She looked physical, wearing a brown dress, long brown hair, normal woman.

And then I saw a note. I kept getting  phone calls from earth like “Lisa where are you? The pastor and guests and my mate were ready to go. Everybody’s here.” I kept putting on the wrong earrings and my shirt had spots on it and at one point I was in a restaurant and the clothes were messed up and it was just chaos. I had the wrong necklace and earrings. No, I bought different things. The feeling was failure.

Then finally I saw this little note at the bottom, it’s very odd, it didn’t fit into the dream and it was from Harry in code with symbols. Typical. He loves to be cryptic to avoid emotion. It was very mischievous. Scribbles. There was a symbol of an upset cart laughing, and basically it was like he was being mischievous in spirit because he knew how to and was trying to stop me from mating with someone else because he wanted to but he felt like he couldn’t do it with me yet, he couldn’t mate with me, even though part of him wanted to. But he didn’t know what to do so he was gonna stop or sabotage somebody else from getting to me on the astral level. Little shit.

I woke up pissed like I need to email him again and set boundaries. He won’t listen. Let him stew in his bad energy soup of unforgiveness.

So that kind of woke me up to what Harry is about. Goofed up spiritually. That’s all he knows to do is to make trouble with women and thinks it’s fun. He doesn’t know exactly how to be constructive or change himself on his etheric level which is his emotional/mental body, so he’s just mischievous and destructive emotionally it was in code and I saw his name in code.

So the dream made clear to me the difference between the physical body, the etheric emotional mental body, and the astral body and how when we make choices in our etheric emotional mind, it changes the direction we’re gonna go which is our destiny. It’s the wider universe. There’s a cosmic component and I’m doing it myself. But the majority of the journey was spent just feeling like I have been a big failure as far as mating bc I can’t change for a man. It’s not in my personality. I feel that even in my waking life and punished by men bc I won’t hand them my soul for them to have bc they are so empty! I have no control over that. They do.

But the truth of the matter is, the person who is on my astral path is just as off the 3-D path as I am so we’re both trying to get ourselves lined up with our new destiny before we meet each other…I think. I hope. Who knows what the universe intends? I’m human so my vision is limited.

People Hate Smart Women Because of Misandry

Misandry is the hatred or contempt for and prejudice against men…who are human beings with feelings who women and patriarchal assholes will never allow to express themselves without being chastised. If they are healers, shaman, or artists, they are at the bottom rung.

Simple jealousy is in the mix, too. It’s as silly as hating someone who was born exceptionally beautiful, as though they could control that. The truth is, on this planet, if you aren’t born average or below for your cultural group, you’ll get much negative attention.

If women are to lead as men have, we need to respect what they’ve accomplished, not hate them, stop expecting them to shoulder all of the leadership burden and have the courage to lead ourselves in cooperation with other women rather than compete for a man’s attention. We can learn from their mistakes, which are numerous, and not repeat them. That means women are going to have to give up their excuses and too much time and money spent on appearance.

How can hatred of men cause intolerance of smart women?

…because smart women raise the ante in the game between men and women when it’s already TOO STRESSED by gender inequity. Men are programmed to only look to us for detached sex when the truth is they need a relationship, and we act like we’re going to give them one when all we want is sex, children and money necause women are programmed to act like that. We USE them because we don’t respect them in truth. We’re programmed not to so they can be used by the elite as war fodder and slaves.

Barely any woman I talk to respects a man. We just pretend we do because, in truth, we don’t respect ourselves because we’re programmed not to.

No woman goes for her full potential to achieve greatness because she will be outted, outcast, and left alone at the top of the summit by the women gaming the system WITH THEIR BODIES to manipulate the men they despise following their media and family programming.

Women bitch about men using us when we’re the ones using them because we know that truly smart women who show how smart they are in the system of patriarchy are not going to get laid. And we want sex and money without having to work for it ourselves. Smart women ruin the game that USER WOMEN who do not like or respect men, or themselves, are running.

Men have feelings, and patriarchy uses them as much as it does women. It’s odd because men are more emotional than women, yet society tolerates women expressing their feelings but not men. That’s patriarchy. Women are far more practical and rational than men because we don’t have testosterone in huge amounts running through us. It’s a huge advantage in the game. Women are more rational.

Women never love men as much as we do our children. We tell them we adore them and give them what they want and pat them on the head when we should be setting boundaries with them and taking care of ourselves. They can make their own doctor appointments or whatever and cook their food and such!

Instead, we marry them and use them to get children and money when we haven’t established our own independence FIRST without obsessing on our looks. Women have no business having the blessing of children before she has proven her self-esteem on her own, past needing a MAN to approve of her and her body. She needs to approve of herself and her body, which smart women do.

There you have it.

Men are human beings with a mind and a heart and women are human beings with a mind and a heart and we are programmed by ALL media and EVERY SINGLE INSTITUTION IN SOCIETY TO TREAT EACH OTHER AS OBJECTS TO BE USED, NOT LOVED…

because of GREED and PROFIT by the nefarious elite who have the human species enslaved FOR THEM and they use our sexuality and desire for children AGAINST US.

God bless the human race and all sentient DNA life on the planet.

Yellow 12 Human, 2/14/23

Happy Valentines Day. ❤️ Love yourself and love others and turn off your damn TV.

Lisa T.

Sacred Beginnings | Grand Rapids, MI | Supporting Victims of Trafficking

Go to this website and watch the video. Her book, “When Angels Fight” is available on Amazon.

https://www.sbtp.org/

I just got back from my meeting with the BBB and Leslie King’s name was dropped. She is from Grand Rapids, lives here, and helps women who have been human trafficked. Human trafficking and violence toward women and men in the sex trade is a nationwide problem. As she says on the video, it is a multibillion dollar industry. This is Jeffrey Epstein level evil on which I did a blog post showing how he lingered in the shadow of his birth kin destiny.

This mentality has corrupted bodyworkers, healers and lightworkers in my state and likely all over the country because of the DEGRADATION OF THE HUMAN BODY and our DNA, and who we are as a species. It speaks directly to what I am about and teaching as far as holistic mindset and the Mayan oracle.

She talks about forgiveness, spirituality, and about feeling hugged by Spirit. She FELT IT. God answered her prayer and it took her into rehab. Makes me weep. God is real. Source is real. Synchronicity is REAL.

Our DNA, our time, our bodies are a temple of the Holy Spirit. I’m all about it and I think highly of the human race, not politically correct disdain as many do. Holistic medicine is all about this.

I will be contacting Leslie and will keep you posted. Netflix is making a movie about her story.

Intimacy; No Possession in Relationships

just because someone desires you.

I guess the saying on the left could apply to women and to men but women are quite a bit more pre-meditated in choosing which men to talk to and then sleep with. Our lust does not control our rationality, much to men’s dismay. Sometimes mine does but I’m working on curbing it now that I realize men fall in love easier than women do, even it’s just our breasts they’re in love with.

This is especially the case for women of reproductive age.  So mostly, this applies to women. Just because a man desires you doesn’t mean he values you. For men, this could say, “Just because a woman likes to talk to you doesn’t mean she values you or loves you.” If people are not possessions then relationships with them cannot be assessed like an insurance adjustor would assess the damage done to a car.

Loss Adjuster Inspecting Car Involved In AccidentI’m following up on my previous post “Bonding Instead of Possession”, and suggesting a compromise between men’s dualistic approach to relationships which is either promiscuity or possession. Analyzing a relationship is not akin to being an insurance claims adjustor. It’s a matter for your HEARTSET to assess the situation which entails your feelings and then use intuition since feelings only lead to intuition which is the higher mind. No one is called to act on, indulge, or hold on to their feelings. Feelings are supposed to lead to the movement of Mind and Heart so we can make informed choices. You can’t leave out Heart or Mind or it will fail. That’s the whole point of knowing your feelings and it’s not minor. The Intuition leads to the higher mind and the Rational leads to the lower mind. One is fast, one is slow. I didn’t figure that out, the scientists did, nor do I really like the situation but that seems to be the way the brain is laid out for now until we evolve differently.

Promiscuity or possession is an all or nothing approach, a decisive approach that actually is emotional, even passionate based on physical lust, need, and desire, not love. Why is it considered normal and acceptable for men to not want a relationship but not women? Many women, including me, like being single, but I like friendship, love, and sex but I don’t want to be in a relationship. I like my absolute freedom and need it. I also like monogamy but only if the man doesn’t go overboard. Can a man process all of that and accept that I don’t want to possess or control him and he can’t possess or control me?

So far, no.

 

 

Intimacy; Panicdemic

…because a panicdemic isn’t exactly an inspiration to intimacy.

IT’S A DIFFERENT WORLD SINCE I LAST REALLY POSTED ANYTHING!

I’m just going to say it. If you’re well and have faith in your immune system, know that you make antibodies as everyone does and feel like you can walk above the Fear Fray, HAVE SEX!

I’m above the fear fray. I’m incapable of following the crowd on this. Literally. I watch NO T.V. Because I know better. Being holistic, I know the facts about the body and take care of myself.  I don’t rely on doctors and their pills. I use herbs and take Chinese anti-viral herbs that make it impossible for a virus to go into your lungs. YEAH, THEY SHOULD BE ALL OVER THE HOSPITAL but there is no way Big Pharma would let Chinese herbs that work in there, even if they can save lives.

Being who I am, I know how to pretend I’m complying and then do the little actions and use the little wipes, hand washing like it’s a religion, social distancing, blah, blah, blah that everyone thinks is SO powerful and make my office smell like Lysol which is actually not good for us. I actually do it, probably more than the fear people because I coddle the fearful people too much. I feel sorry for them having no faith whatsoever in their bodies.

It’s because they THINK THAT and FEEL that that gives it power. I feel it already without the little anti-microbial everything. Someone do me and people LIKE ME a favor and have a better understanding of how your body really works and some FAITH in your very powerful immune system. We never get that satisfaction. We just get to see darting eyes behind and mask and FEAR oozing out of every part of your body while you walk really fast from the grocery store. Do you know how TOXIC that is?

This whole thing is killing intimacy of any kind and sex and I find it very, very sinister to the social fabric of humanity. We’ll see if they really intend to open up normal movement again. Just start doing it yourself quietly. If everyone does without making a fuss then who is going to stop them?

What is intimate is the virus itself. It’s microscopic folks. It’s smaller than any moisture cells that come out of your mouth during a sneeze. The mask everyone is making like Betsy Ross made the flag aren’t helping with anything. If you sneeze, the microscopic virus goes right through the fibers of the mask. Outside particles in the air go right into and through because they’re microscopic. The only mask that stops it is N95 and I have one. A healthcare worker gave it to me so I could work on her. It’s asphyxiating meaning it works to keep out the virus. Oxygen can barely get in which means nothing in the air is getting in. That’s how you know it works. And you could faint wearing it. So the masks that do work don’t allow you to breathe. There’s a quick death. The whole mask issue is one of psychological false sense of security. If your vibe is full of fear you weaken your immune system.

Anyway…your mind (thoughts and feelings) control your immune system. There are all kinds of nasties, every day of your life in your body that if multiplied, would kill you quickly. Mammals are full of destructive microbes! All the time! We don’t die because our immune systems are 1 million years old of brilliant and are on vigilant guard and go after anything that gets out of line UNLESS, we tell them to stand down and let the killing begin. Meaning, you, the host, feel weak and sad and want to die. That doesn’t usually happen but this would be a good time to split if you felt like it. No one would question you, no hassle. The virus would be blamed, you would not be.

I feel the lack of intimacy and socializing is worse for people than the virus. We are meant to be together. This distrust of our bodies and the immune system is nonsense. That said if you feel weak and full of fear you should stay home because your vibe is toxic. Maybe not just now but all the time. You’ve got some meditating to do and choices to make about your relationship with Life.

Intimacy; Familiar Lover

aerial photography of water beside forest during golden hour
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It’s so much easier to melt into your warm flesh because I know how you smell and your voice.

It’s just the nurturing comfort I need right now but you won’t kiss me as you did before.

Something is distinctly unfamiliar…

You feel different in my bed, humidity on a dry, cold, windy day when the sun is loitering in the sky rather than actually warming things up.

You’re a woke soul, a man not a boy with your dreams doing cartwheels.

It’s not love, it’s familiarity which so many humans mistakenly wrap their arms around in tribal joy.

No doubt, what is familiar today will change tomorrow and that intrepid fact is forever familiar all around us.

Intimacy; Gray Area Between Relationship and Hookup?

I have to admit, if I’m not looking for a committed relationship with a man I don’t pay much attention to personality. I’m looking for an attraction for sex or a lover. Men are no different from women.

Having touch and sex is a health issue. We all need it! I’m not throwing guilt in there but I do notice that the emotional detachment with a man turns me off no matter how hot he is. I appreciate the beauty of a man though just as much as men do with women. Yet, it’s not even close to being like love.

Things get tricky when a man is your friend and you have things in common and have known each other for a while. If he has a disposable hookup habit with women who are not friends how will he handle sex with a friend? Another notch only meaner? He gets double points for disposing of a female friend? Ultimately, she’s only a woman and nothing stops him from devouring as much as he can for free.

Being women, we do have the ability to make a man fall in love with us by loving him from the heart, talking to him, and being irresistibly sexy even while we’re free spirits and have no intention of having him on a hook. Personally, I have no desire for a man around just as I have no pet in the house. I’m busy with the work I love. But I’m not sure I want the burden of a man in love with me to weigh me down.

I think you have to be ready to lose the friendship on the sex altar. It happens on the attraction and flirting altar too. That just ended one of my friendships. We didn’t even have sex but we may as well have because the energy and affection were there…then it left. It was his doing because he decided to hook up with someone else much easier to handle, blonder, and more tattooed likely with piercings in all the gross places. Lol. She was his level.

There is a gray area in there somewhere. I just haven’t found the sweet spot. Que sera sera.

 

 

 

 

Intimacy; Hip to Be a Ho?

It’s all socially permissible and fine for women and men to be promiscuous now. Everything has changed in the last few years. I include men in the Ho category. In fact they seem to feel privileged to be so detached. I find that doubtful.

Women my age are as hot as ever and the younger men like us because we’re more skilled and can’t get pregnant. Add to that we know what food to eat so our body fluids are tasty. That’s not something most younger women think about because they assume their pheremones have their sexual superiority to us all tied up in a pretty bow.

My generation was not raised to feel perfectly fine about pure sex with no love and I still don’t. But it’s not a happy thing for a woman to go so long without sex that she starts to tighten up to the point of re-virginization. It makes intercourse painful.

The problem there is, as all women know, you could wait forever and slowly become a nun before you find a man with an open heart, emotional skills and capable of intimacy who actually loves you. A woman could easily get stuck hanging out with her gay boyfriend and gay husband like Stanny was to Carrie on “Sex in the City”. Remember how long Carrie had to wait for Big to really love her and then marry her?

So, mainly for health reasons, women and men become Ho’s and have sex outside of love, commitment, and a relationship most of the time. I’m not judging it. I just did it and I wasn’t turned on at all. I walked into the kitchen and said to myself, “I have to live with myself. This is the way I am,” meaning I don’t get turned on unless there is some love and affection, kissing, and matching vibe. I’ve never been superficial or very promiscuous.

Mind you, this man was 6’2″, his body was not just a 10 but more like a 12, perfect manhood, knew what he was doing, brought me coffee and muffin and had luscious lips. And he enjoyed my body and said so! I love my body too. So what! I don’t need his approval.

Nothing. I felt nothing. He was the most detached lover I’ve ever had and I felt sorry for him. He may have actually been a professional because he had the looks and the skill.

I’d rather be celibate. There is nothing I hate more than a man who is hot and utterly emotionally uninvolved with me. This is all feels unfair. If I don’t want my womanhood to close up I have to resort to non-bonded sex with someone I barely know? No. Do you know how many dumb dates I’ve had with trolls? Why can’t men open their hearts more and get with the program? “Ho ho ho” and it’s not even Christmas.

Intimacy; You’re not necessarily in a relationship just because you have sex.

just friends

 

What I’m seeing men do is, instead of doing a series of hook-ups, they decide to be monogamous with one woman. Then the assumption is that is a relationship. No, it’s not; not if you don’t have feelings for one another. It’s just an ongoing hookup which is not a relationship.

You’re in a relationship if you have an ongoing friendship, you care about one another, and you hang out and go out, you love talking to one another, you help each other out sometimes and you eat together. That might include sex, it might not. It might be intermittent sex or not. The man or woman’s sexual behavior does not define the parameters of what a relationship is.

It’s time for women to step up and speak up! We need to accept that sexual communication IS a relationship to men and they don’t understand anything much deeper or how to go about it. Women understand emotions and bonding moreso and absolutely need to mix that in with the sex. But we still should not let the man say, “We had sex so you’re my territory.” Maybe you’re just dating. Sex is just part of dating.

Women are territorial sexually as well but my point is, the emotional friendship bond is what really creates an ongoing relationship; not sex. That should be perfectly obvious given how many people have hook-ups and it means nothing. For that matter, sex doesn’t define marriage either.

Heartset; Wounded Men and the Women Who Take Control of Them Instead of Empowering Them

 

let it kill you.

I guess I thought I might be getting into a rut, defining myself by my work and my private practice but I’m now thinking it’s FAR more important that I focus on that than finding a new mate. I’m not lonely. I love sleeping alone and don’t wax nostalgic over a man stomping up and down my stairs and making noise and a mess in my home. I do like men as lovers (if they know what they’re doing) and friends though so that’s what I was using dating for. The purpose of dating is not for sex and hookups. Sex is no big deal and can be part of it but in no way does it define it, despite the man’s priorities.

But it’s a mess out there. Men are beaten down and have no self-confidence or knowledge to actually date a fine woman. They do hook-ups, sluttily, with women who will let them, risk STDs, decide which woman turns them on the most or reminds him of his ex the most, lets her chain him to a whipping post and hang out in her dog house and call it a relationship. If she looks good hanging on his arm that’s all he needs for his ego. If she gives good head he can tell his buddies at work about it and it’s even better. That’s the state of affairs out there. He doesn’t know what else to do and then she gets to own him at least for a while. It’s truly pitiful.

The princely men, or who I thought were princely men, are slipping through my fingers one by one because they feel they are toads and then act like toads picking up the trollop women. What do I mean? A negative attitude, negative posts on social media, foolish behavior like drinking and driving and driving in a car with someone who has open liquor, smoking, lying, stalking, name-calling, selfishness, promiscuity, and blame. Three of them now. Didn’t I see the red flags? Yes! And thus didn’t go very far with it. I didn’t fall in love. God no. But they all have good traits as well.

Other women who tolerate these men either take advantage of them and use them for sex and a distraction from their own lack of self-determination and intelligence or become their friends. Some of this could be the Pygmalion complex in reverse. Eliza Doolittle in “My Fair Lady” was taken in as a cockney trollop and turned into a princess by Professor Henry Higgins. These days, the beaten-down trollop could be Henry Higgins and Eliza Doolittle would take him in and help him out. Women are far more empowered now. Many men have lost everything, just like many women but the women have people skills so we bounce back better. We also tend to get custody of our children more due to the natural mother-child bond that fathers and their children do not have. Fathers can have a bond to their children but in no way does it compare to the mother and it never will.  I know that’s controversial. The tables are becoming even though.

Many men are very threatened by women who make more money than them, are smart, beautiful and successful. They may then find a woman similar to that who is kinder and more vulnerable and caring and take out his rage and usage on her. He’s a victim, by his own admission and the big, bad powerful woman did it to him. Someone has to pay the price and usually the nice women who are compassionate fall in the trap. She’s the scapegoat. There could be layers of dysfunction and pain on the part of the adult wallowing in said pain. They haven’t gotten help or therapy or taken care of themselves. Maybe there is a good reason that their ex doesn’t want them to have any custody of their children. This could be either the father or the mother. Many women have no business being parents either. There is no way for a civilian to know the situation. The courts and social workers scope it out.

What is the lesson here? Compassion for someone wallowing in physical pain and self-pity can bite you in the ass. It doesn’t matter if it’s a man feeling compassion for a woman who is down and out or a woman feeling compassion for a man who is down and out. They need to save themselves and pay whatever price they need to pay to get back on their feet. And most of all, if they call you a friend, friends don’t lie. Lying is the worst. That’s life.

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