I’m Jealous


I’m publishing this again because I’m no longer jealous. I figured it out and myself and turned it around. But…this was most definitely true about a month ago. Life is a rampage. We mostly have to tangle with ourselves and what we want. Jealously is projecting your wishes for yourself onto someone else. In this case, who better than my Twin Flame to take the brunt of it. I have to say, I’m not particularly enjoying this journey. There is so much mirroring! It’s a good thing he lives in a western state, 1840 miles away at this point.

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God, it’s horrible. I’m not a jealous person but I am right now! I’m never jealous of anyone because I really do love myself generally. Of course, we all have things we need to work on in our character but I do a self-inventory regularly and I’m patient with my process. My issues with men for thirty years turned into resentment and now I see it as jealousy. I’m jealous that by virtue of their gender, what men say, write, and do is taken 100% more seriously than women. When they write a book, it will likely sell. I’m smarter and more literate than most men and it’s doubtful that my non-fiction work will ever get traction. That said I haven’t tried yet because I don’t think it’s perfect. I need to edit it down further. It’s too long.

Have you noticed that women write stories, fiction, and cookbooks and it flies? Unless a woman leaves her receptive femininity and beauty at the door (like Camille Paglia) and is no-holds-barred intellectual, no one will hear a word she says. Women have to display their male characteristics to be heard in public.

I am jealous, I realized, of my Twin Flame. Why did he get to come onto earth in his perfect, thin, small cut male body that doesn’t bleed from the inside and doesn’t feel this neurotic need to sacrifice for his children and nurture others?

Since he is my twin flame, he’s the literal embodiment of my animus. This is part of the Twin Flame journey in facing myself in the mirror. He is perfect physically (although he doesn’t think so) and it makes me sick! He looks exactly the way I always wished I could look since high school. My body was almost exactly like his in high school but less muscle. I was a trim 137 when I was a junior. Both of us are only 5’4″; the same height so there really is no justification for either of us to weigh more than 150.

He doesn’t have all this rampaging estrogen that makes his body thick with the desire to bake cheesecake and cookies, to feed others and be fed. He gets to have all the testosterone that causes him to burn fat much quicker than me because men have more muscle than women, which also gives him more aggression and confidence in the face of life’s challenges where I want to retreat. Women don’t want to fight generally speaking. That’s hormonal! We’re estrogen dominant which makes us peaceful, chatty, and horny.

Robert Downey Jr.

The worst part is the social advantages. Everybody listens to a man speak his mind no matter what color his skin is, just because he’s a man! Men’s ideas, thoughts, inventions, writing, and words dominate our world. Watch the public panels and meetings, the powerful Congressional committees and the staff of most universities. They’re men. Even white women are below all men in the human caste system. ALL men, every creed, color, intelligence level, criminal or not are listened to and taken more seriously than any woman by virtue of their gender. Well, gender is not a virtue; it’s just a biological difference.

There are many brilliant women on the planet of every creed and color and our ideas and writing need to be acknowledged if they’re good. But can anyone hear a woman’s ideas as good or will their bias always get in the way or her looks be too distracting for you to listen to her? All of our minds have been brainwashed to objectify women. Women especially do it to each other.

If a woman has a bigger brain than boobs in our patriarchal system, she doesn’t have as much power. Who is more famous; Stormy Daniels or Camille Paglia? “Who is Camille Paglia?”, you all say. Exactly.

She’s a brilliant writer and equity feminist that refuses to have sex with men and roots for their just treatment as much as women. I agree with her. Stormy Daniels is a huge chested porn star that had a liaison with Donald Trump, but she’s on the news all the time. The whole world knows who she is.

I’ve got my inner work cut out for me on this one. Jealously is a terrible trait that can only be turned by applying love. I’m not there yet.

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Stretched


Wanting more, doing with less,

My mind is stretched past the sun into an abysmal, contorted, apperception too fractured and repetitive to mean what it used to mean.

Meaning is obfuscated because every day I’m in this…protoplasm of lust, whose hands and heartbeats with loving passion, not appetite.

And where am I to go in this quiescent swamp to be fed, nourished, and watered when my mouth can barely open with lips so cracked from the sun that they are silent with the sound that says nothing.

No one really knows me. Only my fingers stretch on the keys to refract a sliver of my pneuma that is groping to be relevant in a world that just needs to…

Ball up, contract, relax and breathe instead of stretching to be noticed by people who don’t even notice the miracle of their own respiring.

shaman-hands-over-sun

Let’s do the Amino Acid Dance


https://lisaktownsendauthor.com/tzolkin-daily-themeplex/

The Tzolkin archetypes are literally the amino acids that make up animals and plants (US!) I show it here right at the top! Just click on the link.

Amino Acids are proteins, which I assume most people know. It’s simple and our bodies are basically an acid factory breaking down everything we put into our mouths (food, drink, drugs) into their basic elements, like glucose or sugar.

Our muscles are made mostly of protein and our bodies are made mostly of muscle and blood, thus the line of work I’m in; bodyworker that focuses on medically treating the flesh.

What kind of healthcare system ignores the basic building blocks of the body as far as the focus of medical treatment? OURS! $3.7 trillion (12 zeros) spent on NONSENSE.

Take a look at this! I think you’ll be fascinated. Life IS fascinating if you are mindful of nature and your own body.

 

cool fractal

The Autumnal Darkness


As soon as it snows in Michigan, where I live, everyone says, “Winter is here!”. Well, there is autumnal snow along with the increasing darkness and the winter snow along with the increasing sunlight. I love those super bright sunny days in January where not only is the snow blinding but the sunlight as well. It’s just what we need.

There are 36 days left of autumn where it gets darker, and darker, our bodies feel sluggish because our brains don’t get the sunlight in our eyes that we need and we have to turn to our “internal light” and likely sleep more. I don’t mind hibernating a bit like a bear. As we get older, I suppose, our internal qi is waning because our organ qi is waning. It’s the way of all flesh eventually.

In 36 days, it will be Winter Solstice and the sunlight will return. We can do this!

first christmas snow

Physicist David Bohm’s Big Truth


I quote Bohm from “Wholeness and the Implicate Order”, page 9-10

“Some might say; ‘Fragmentation of cities, religions, political systems, conflict in the form of wars, general violence, fratricide, etc., are the reality. Wholeness is only an ideal, toward which we should perhaps strive.‘ But this is not what is being said here. Rather, what should be said is that wholeness is what is real, and that fragmentation is the response of this whole to man’s action, guided by illusory perception, which is shaped by fragmentary thought. (He is saying “the whole” can respond and does.)

In other words, it is just because reality IS whole, that man, with his fragmentary approach, will inevitably be answered with a correspondingly fragmentary response. So what is needed is for a man to give attention to his habit of fragmentary thought, to be aware of it, and thus bring it to an end. Man’s approach to reality may then be whole, and so the response will be whole.

For this to happen, however, it is crucial that man be aware of the activity of his thought as such; i.e. as a form of insight a way of looking, rather than as a ‘true copy of reality as it is’. (In my field we call this Mindfulness-Lisa T.)

It is clear that we may have any number of different kinds of insights. What is called for is not an integration of thought, or a kind of imposed unity, for any such imposed point of view would itself be merely another fragment (gentrification). Rather, all our different ways of thinking are to be considered as different ways of looking at the ONE REALITY, each with some “domain in which it is clear and adequate.” End Quote

It’s like this apple. It’s “born” or grown whole but in order to use it in our bodies, it has to be reduced to the smallest pieces (digested). However, it can only do that if we first see it, want it, and eat it whole. The truth of its beauty, lusciousness, and nutrition is that IT’S WHOLE. Only when we acknowledge that will we appreciate the apple for what it is…fantastic. Everyone will observe different things about the apple but it’s still a whole apple. It’s one reality.

Red apple with leaf on white background.Apple portions:

 

A Video that Goes Perfectly with “I’ll Never Love Again” by Lady Gaga from “A Star Is Born”


First, start the song, then scroll down and start the video. As a woman, this is how love tends to be for us. Especially after too much sex where the man is not or will not be emotionally involved with us. What’s the point then? It’s a deep pool where we feel alone being who we are.

 

This video is really beautiful and unique. I just happened to see it on my FB feed while I was listening to Lady Gaga’s song. Just keep the mute on the video while you listen to the song.

10 Things Passionate People Do Differently


yellow desert flowers

Passionate People

The picture above is from UC Berkley Botanical garden which I visited on my trip out to Northern California last month. This picture speaks to my intuition and the way I feel much of the time.

The desert plant in the picture is very radial, goes in many directions and has all kinds of insights and ideas.  But the yellow flower next to it is the idea that blooms. It’s the one that a passionate person sticks with until it flowers.

Take a look at the link above. It outlines 10 Things that passionate people do differently.  That is how I am and how a few of us are. We’re not going to change even though sometimes we drive others crazy. We were born passionate and we will die passionate.

Cheers.

Male Intuition and the Sacred Masculine


I feel like apologizing for always blogging on the feminine intuition, feminist issues and the need for women to empower themselves in the midst of the patriarchal paradigm by using their intuition. But I’m not going to because…I’m a woman! I don’t have a man’s perspective on what it means to be a man right now in the patriarchal system.  What I do know is there is still a tremendous amount of unequal power for both men and women, Guys have rough patches too but I’m not sure they know how to express it as well as women. We have the communication advantage in our brains.

Nevertheless, I had a very significant dream last night that is leading me to blog on this difficult topic.  It does segue into the Twin Flame phenomenon too because the Twin Flame journey is all about spiritual ascension or spiritual maturing for both parties. It doesn’t have to be heterosexual but in my case it is.

I remember the details of what I was dreaming most of the night and it was run of the mill, nothing exciting; just my mind letting go of habits is what I surmised. Then, a very big, black crow that seemed very real, not ethereal like the rest of the dream, showed up right next to me in my house and quickly flew away with the help of another woman shewing him away. He was pretty big and very alive. I felt no death whatsoever around this bird. He was powerful. This crow was grounded and had his own ways but I was very surprised as soon as I saw him in the house and said, “How did this crow get in here?!” The other woman knew a bird like that should not be in the house and helped me get rid of it.

Now as I’m writing, the crow felt shamanistic or deeply masculine, the cave, and the dark which in my tradition, we usually ascribe to the feminine because of the dark of the womb, the seed, the egg, gestation, the womb, and birth. Male energy is usually the light of the Mind. Everything is shifting right now on the planet and I believe this dream was a harbinger of the sacred masculine balanced with the sacred feminine coming forward. Indeed, that is what the Twin Flame journey is about. Males and females are both light and dark, yin and yang, male and female. We’ve always said that in my field but it’s never actually manifested in our institutions on this planet! That’s been the problem.

This is similar to the actual, real-life appearance of a raccoon in the open skylight on the roof of the cottage in which I was staying in California three weeks ago. He was trying to come in and I had to quickly close the skylight. Both of these animals are totems or archetypes for Blue Monkey in the Mayan System or a Trickster, creator, and mover. It is play, illusion, and magic. But Crow is also a Blue Eagle archetype which is creativity, mind, and vision. They are both Blue so they are closely related in energy. Blue kin is all about transformation. I am definitely doing that right now!

When looking at yin-yang energy, it’s easy to characterize it in a good vs. bad dichotomy. Females are valued and rewarded for being good, warm, loving, small and nurturing and are punished for being bad girls, big, strong, powerful, hypersexual and are slut-shamed. Males are valued for being aggressive (within reason depending on the context), protective, mean (also depending on the context), bad, rebellious, and rampaging anything that’s big! They are punished for being too small, fearful, wimpy, emotional, indecisive and more. These aspects are still entrenched in our system.

As we all know now, in 2018, this is B.S.! Women and men absolutely do share all of these traits and swap them around when they feel like it. God bless America! In our country, we truly do believe human beings have the right to express their true feelings and sexuality even if we don’t rock it in public yet. Everyone still has their secrets.

None of those traits are ascribed in stone to either sex anymore and those that do are so un-hip. Right? On the surface, most women and men still try to rock those boxes but we’re really not supposed to anymore and the younger generation will get in your face about it. My nineteen-year-old hates it when I classify the genders in those boxes. Yet, look at all the leading sports programs, politics, and all the television shows. Men are still very dominant and portrayed in those boxes. It’s a function of patriarchy. Women are seeping in only slowly (female sportscasters) and when they do, they have to act somewhat masculine or just are that way to be socially acceptable! The women can’t act very feminine yet. It’s taboo.

Where is the sacred masculine in all of this? The earth. The ways of nature are male and female. Whenever the natural forces of procreation are challenged, the powerful earth energy steps in. Strong drumming evokes the balance of the male/female energies in sex and alignment, equally! The earth loves her daughters and her sons equally and wants them to walk together in balance on her. It’s only humans all over the world that still prefer sons. Men who love and take care of their bodies, who honor their strong feelings and inclinations, who are creative souls and express themselves in their art, who still want to fuck with abandon and feel no shame just like the animals and the insects.

Men are men and women are women. But we are more similar than different by nature and we both can embody bad and good traits without judgment if we just loosen up those boundaries and deeply feel our bodies and drop the definitions of who we are by Church, state, and media. And we both need to love ourselves as we are.

You have to see this. Trust me, you will dig it! Just click.

Drumming Group-Very cool!

You won’t believe this woman. She is very talented and super beautiful.

Cassandra Fox Belly Dancing. Unbelievable

 

 

 

 

 

How Can Intuition Be Measured?


The Science of Intuition

These days cognitive scientists think of intuition as a set of nonconscious cognitive and affective processes; the outcome of these processes is often difficult to articulate and is not based on deliberate thinking, but it’s real and (sometimes) effective nonetheless.”

Intuition works in an associative manner: it feels effortless (even though it does use a significant amount of brain power), and it’s fast. Rational thinking, on the contrary, is analytical, requires effort, and is slow.”

Intuition is about the brain’s ability to pick up on certain recurring patterns; the more we are exposed to a particular domain of activity the more familiar we become with the relevant patterns (medical charts, positions of chess pieces), and the more and faster our brains generate heuristic solutions to the problem we happen to be facing within that domain.”

This quote doesn’t apply to the way I do readings where I’m dealing with a new individual and the person they are connected to. It’s always new energy; like meeting a new person so there is no pattern to their energy. The only pattern is the format I use over and over when tuning into their frequency.

This link mentions taking hemoglobin readings before and after hands-on healing. Check out the link. Below is a quote from it. Check your cognitive dissonance at the door on this. Just because something makes you uncomfortable you can’t say, “No, it’s not true.”

Psychic/Intuitive Healing

The healer for this study was Oskar Estebany, a Hungarian who seemed to have an uncanny ability to treat all kinds of problems by the ‘laying-on-of-hands’: he would simply place one or both hands on the person (or near their body) and visualize a positive energies surging into the patient’s body.

Estebany thus treated 49 patients, who were suffering from a broad range of illnesses; Krieger selected another 29 patients with similar problems and medical profiles who would receive no psychic healing from Estebany, and thus serve as a comparison (or ‘control’) group. When all sessions were completed, Krieger compared the blood samples of the two groups. She found that hemoglobin levels of ‘treated’ groups had increased much more than the hemoglobin level of the ‘untreated’ patients: as attested by an objective measure, the patients which Estebany had visited were in better shape. What was especially striking was that this increase in vitality was not just a short-term, transient effect; in a follow-up study, Krieger found that the difference in hemoglobin levels were still statistically significant a full year after Estebany’s treatment!”

What distinguishes these approaches from all other forms of cure – including those based on homeopathy, herbs, acupuncture, and so forth – is that psychic healing does not seem to involve any known physical substance or energy”

Well, it’s not known yet but everyone in my field can feel it as can our patients. It’s Qi and Love. That’s been known forever on Earth. Just because so many people are cynical about it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. It just seems to have been replaced lately by materialism and TV and it’s bringing us and the planet down.

But most Americans would rather spend $3.4 trillion (12 zeros) on modern medicine than cash on bodywork and Reiki as well as other holistic therapies. My treatments work if you stick with it and have worked for twenty years and I combine intuition with reason. I kind of wish we could get on with it here and speed things up. The money wasted on the modern snake oil and invasive tech is bankrupting Americans.

What’s the actual problem? Fear of judgment from ignorant family and friends? Keeping up appearances? If they’re ignorant, why do you care? Be smart. Use holistic services and be well and whole!

Autumn

A Segment From “Healer”


woman on pier

Shortly before I finished writing this book, I had a dream and intuition about my sister’s health, so when my mom called and told me what was going on, I was not surprised. After talking to her on the phone, I had a vision that applied to my sister’s situation and anyone going through recovery from addiction.

The subconscious mind that was imprinted on us from ages zero to six, predominantly by our mother in utero, but also our father if he was present, is our home on the shore (or woods), figuratively speaking. Year by year we build a pier, plank by plank, that we can walk out onto into the lake that is our conscious mind, aware of diversity amidst the unity that is the greater world, people, natural life, the planet, and the expanding universe.

If as the years’ progress, we let our planks rot with body abuse, guilt, grief, fear, blame, violence, war, negativity, and enmeshment, we are still supposed to have a safe, grounded shore to go to–the subconscious mind where we hail from which is our home and birth family.

The secure subconscious is what gives us the courage to leave the shore in our boat and go out and expand our conscious mind.  In that way, we learn that people are just different, even if we don’t understand them.  There are still universal traits among all humans that unify our one human race among the various cultures.

Healer on Amazon