Prose; The Falling


The Falling

Allowing gravity leads the falling and nature rests. Resisting gravity leads the rising and nature displays. Which could we do without? Neither”.-Me

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Prose; Spiralling Paradox


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The gravity of each individual Mind pulls us and keeps us in the body, giving off a specific gift, look, flavor, color, and feel.

Individual cells dance with electromagnetic charge set in motion by our feelings and thoughts.

Complete…we can co-create just as we are right now.

Yet gravity still makes us spiral as One toward The Center, all touching and affecting each other.

It’s a paradox.

We are individuals yet we are One.

 

Essay; There is Something Emotionally “Off” with Guys


(I wrote this 2 years ago and I’ve come a long way since then realizing what the issues are. I believe the societal programming of men, expecting them to “man up” and be inhumane is hurting them and our whole society. It’s patriarchy and it’s oppressive for men too. The woman he’s with has to give him permission to express them or he won’t. Some women are very hard ass. Harder than men! )

stock-footage-alone-man-standing-on-the-seashoreThere are too many on the roster for me to ignore this.  I read a lot too, so it’s not as though I’m ignorant. Well, seriously…I know men have feelings. That’s very obvious and I’m good with that, unlike many women.  It’s just as obvious as the fact that women have feelings. And I am sensitive to men’s feelings, as different than women’s and have a ton of experience with men expressing their feelings with me.  I’m safe to do that with.  That’s sort of the problem…maybe.

The Jekyll and Hyde thing, the fear of getting too close, or relying on a woman as your friend, or letting her help you with something she is strong in and you have no idea about; she does the same with you. Why can’t men rely on women the same way? Why is that so emotionally vulnerable for you but it’s not for us?  Maybe you didn’t have a good sister?  That’s how you pattern it in your brain?

As a woman, who has talked to a lot of women, if we get a red flag about a dude, we break it off, let it go, and have a fairly practical attitude about the lack of emotional affinity so we don’t usually cling, push away, cling, push away, kick and punch.  That induces no sense of emotional security in a woman at all. And I’ve seen it way too much with men.  I don’t see this behavior in women maybe because there’s no way a guy would tolerate that from a woman.  I see and hear her making her mind up.  She has a subjective sense of “the feel” of the guy and their emotions and the sexual affinity so her radar is on baby If all that isn’t flowing, we’re not interested and don’t need to analyze it.  Our body told us and that counts the most.

Now the objective part.  Males tend to value or be, more objective to their everlasting detriment.  You’re missing half of the picture. You thought you drank the whole glass, the other half is in there. You thought you took a full breath, you didn’t exhale. I’ll stop. The objective picture, which women can fully, competently, always, always, see, is just dumb to us. It’s never just that way. You can’t gain any accurate information in life or in relationships by only being objective any more than you can know what sex feels like by just standing outside of it and watching it.

Subjective means you are the subject, you’re in it, you’re living it, your senses, feelers, intuition, BODY (such a big truth for women) are in the situation and we’re talking UPLOAD of information into the computer. It computes, along with the easy, objective stuff. We know what’s going on when we’re next to our man but we will never, ever, understand why guys are so irrational and comatose when you’re next to a woman, or her breasts, that you love or care for. Just why?

The rational way to analyze and proceed in a relationship is to dip your toe in the water, smell each other, listen to each other’s voices, socialize, get your instincts going, eat together…and this only takes maybe a couple weeks or the total of five dates to have enough data to make the decision.  Do I want to have sex with this guy and allow some emotional bonding or not?  Whether women admit it or not, our brains are programmed to emotionally bond otherwise, I don’t think we can orgasm.  It’s kind of obvious.

It is forever lost on me why men can’t be more rational about their feelings.  Women have evolved to be objective and subjective. We tend to be balanced for the sake of our children. There are plenty of brilliant women that can do the math, science, tech, blah, blah, blah, blah, like it’s such a big deal.  No…it’s not.  It’s pretty easy for us.  Dealing with you guys and not having to have our defenses up when you freak out over how you feel is what is not easy for us. Living with you is not easy for us.  I don’t think I can do it anymore.

Please try to be more subjective, more empathic, more understanding of other people and women who are different than you.  We are not men nor do we want to be nor do we need to follow you around doing guy stuff.  We can balance being objective with being subjective and we ask the same of you.

Heartset; Breath controls Feelings


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I was inspired by Cristian Mihai’s blog about being alone. I shared the link above. Please read it if you have not. I actually just blogged on “I’m Alone Now” because my nineteen-year-old son left home.

I told Cristian that I related exactly to about eighty-percent of how he feels and I’m guessing many writers on here are introverts and love to be alone. But for me, it’s very positive. I never feel lonely. In fact, I wish I had longer streams of time, undisturbed alone to read, think and write. I’m still very busy in my home and have a small holistic business here so people are in and out. That may be part of it, I’m not sure.

I paused when Cristian wrote, “You can’t change how you feel”. Long pause. “Hmmm.” “No, he’s right.” I thought. “Feelings are organic. They just come up.” We all know that and it’s part of what makes us writers. But I have a physical process I go through that I want to share that turns my tears, worry, anxiety, sadness, the concern that comes up organically into feeling better.

I observe my breath. In and out. It is MY breath in MY body. I have complete control over how my breathing feels and how I allow my breath to reach my organs. I envision my blood pulsing through me. It feels very warm and loving. I relax my feet and make sure they are planted on the ground. I relax my legs. As a writer, I find immense joy and gratitude in feeling my brain and eyes process like a computer, my thoughts and then how my hands type. Then I stop and observe my breathing again. I am alive. I knew once and can remember what it felt like when I was almost dead in 1996 the day before my birthday when I had an ectopic pregnancy. I have this day, this time to keep learning and processing my journey in my body that no one else can control. I have control over this process and this moment.

So, I guess my technique is grounding. Think of a two-pronged plug that you put into a grounded wall socket. The two prongs are your legs and the electrical outlet is the ground; the Earth. When you inhabit and are mindful of your physical process, the chaotic, mean, death-riddled, unloving world can swirl around you unhindered. You have no control over any of them or their events. But you do have total, unequivocal control over tuning into YOUR BODY, plugging it in and turning it on and observing how each part of your body feels, not just the thoughts and emotions you tend to be running that day based on events, either theirs or yours.

I love my body so much for having its own balanced process that literally guides me and grounds me each day. Of course, I honor my heart, which has its organic emotional flow, but it…is…fickle. The heart is fickle!! At least mine is. Of course, I honor my thought processes. The brain/mind is amazing in its ability to digest and process information but the eyes only see what is visible, right in front of it in the light and believe only what it sees. The eyes only see ILLUSION and then your mind tells you it’s real. It’s a pretty good magic trick. The heart only feels immediate feelings and tell you they are real.

The body doesn’t lie. Your breath doesn’t lie. Just as sure as the trees know exactly how deep to push their roots, reach up with their branches, leaf out, drop their leaves and blow in a storm, so your body also has billions of years of DNA in evolution and it knows exactly…what to do. The same is true for all of nature from season to season. Nature is the truth and life itself.

Our health care system, our society, our media, and our civilization would take that grounding, the Earth life force, Gaia in all of her eternal ways and consciousness and tell her who she is and when to do it, as though she were a little girl. They would control that vital physical knowledge for themselves, hijack it from you and tell the daughters and sons of the Earth that they know your body better. They don’t. It’s your body, your truth, your power and your reason for being on the planet. Let the wisdom and rhythm of your body guide your heart and mind and you will be in a safe harbor while you live no matter what your heart and mind “see”.

Our bodies are ancient and universal and intimately tied to everything on the planet. We are gods and goddesses in all different forms dancing our way through time and eternity just for the sheer experience of it. Our in-breath and out-breath prove it.

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Freedom Bound by Sculptor Paige Bradley, http://paigebradley.com

Essay; Sexual Shaming of Men


 

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I’ve been thinking about this issue for about a year now but it coalesced last night when I read a quite long, but well-thought-out blog post on this site that made light of how many women absorb shame from men when we have sex with them. Before that, we’re fine, happy with ourselves, like being a woman, and like our bodies. I think women are getting better at accepting our bodies as they are and the media is helping with that. I know I am. There are more women of all different sizes on T.V. and in all media. The SIZE SHAMING, no matter what size, has decreased. More women understand that it’s more important for us to love ourselves than to please a man.

But, reading her blog, I immediately related to the experience of being mystified as to why a man I was with would turn pornographic in his tone, talked about how hot I was, did the sweetie, beautiful “speak” and then wanted to get sexually nasty as opposed to sensuous and intimate. My assumption is it’s the testosterone and most women consider it normal. The last lover I had said, “Why do you have to be so seductive?” “Me? Seductive?” I’m a chipmunk! What was he talking about? I don’t think he was seeing who I was; he was seeing who he wanted and needed to see. He was projecting. Women are individuals not porn stars and it’s objectifying to treat us like we’re part of your MENTAL fantasy, not a person in front of you. But again, I’m not sure men can help it because of the shame they’re socialized with. Their minds are all cluttered up with objectifying materialism which makes them feel better. Their feelings are stimulated by things; women’s bodies, food, cars, houses, boats, and on and on. I’m not sure women understand this.

How much does that happen? Probably all the time. It’s men’s fantasy need of having a car or motorcycle that reminds them of a childhood toy that they loved. Then they imagined they were a superhero on that vehicle and some adult males still do it. They get a life-sized one and keep the fantasy going. It’s objectification that transfers over to sex with a woman. I suppose this underlies the barely clad woman advertising a car that is so nauseating to us.

It’s something to keep in mind that men probably watch a tremendous amount of porn because they can’t express their sexual feelings as much as they need to or the way they want to in our civilization that shames it. Most men are not relational, not romantic and don’t want to be yet many women need that to be turned on! If he acquiesced, he would be too much like a woman and he’s not a woman, he’s a man, which means he’s a part wild animal, part human. Not all men are of course but most of them are. It’s scary for some women like me when they turn wild animal. I guess other women like it.

I think that men project a lot onto women, as though it’s our issue, about how turned on they are by feeling ashamed, nasty, or mean. OR…is shame projected on to them from all sides FOR BEING male as though they are expected to be like that even if they are not? The writer I read didn’t say that in her blog or maybe she doesn’t understand it.  I think men get turned on by feeling repulsed. They’re attracted to women and things that are not nice and that are uncivilized and wild. It’s all that testosterone blasting through their brains that blows everything up. It’s the opposite of most women. I know some women are attracted to pain and ugliness, like a sadistic thing but it’s not terribly common. Still, I’m not judging it. Nevertheless, I am not that way.

It appears to me that everything in our civilization exists as it is to control men’s sexual nature and make things peaceable for women and children. Before, most of the time it was working. NOW, society seems to be tearing itself apart because men’s sexual nature is finally coming to the surface, there is more awareness of abuse of women and children, guns are everywhere which men love (you don’t see women using them in public much), we see incest, pedophilia, and sex trafficking at the highest levels of institutions, all the lies, and control about it are coming forward, the institutions don’t know exactly how to lie about it anymore. Men are victims of the system too otherwise they wouldn’t be victimizing those more vulnerable than them. It’s a trickle-down from the women and men in power who hold the system in place.

Civilization uses guilt, shame, control, incarceration, blaming women, sports, and the media all to LIE about men’s sexual nature. I guess we’re still working on a balance to our civilization as though it’s progressed from being in the wild. Sometimes I think it’s worse because it represses the true feelings and then they explode to the surface.

 

 

Heartset; The Word “Truth” Should be Taken Out of our Spoken Language


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I love change, flexibility, free edges, creativity, and flow. I trust the Universe and my intuition and it pays the bills. That’s because I process my emotional truth all the time. I always know how I feel and I pay attention to my body, love it and take care of it at all times. It’s pretty easy when you’re single and is actually pleasant because it means I always know my center and my truth, the only truth we can know. It also means I know how to sculpt my body to fit my needs and designs on this planet of theatre that is a projected reality.

I agree there is some small percentage of absolute truth that might define the order of the Universe but my intuition tells me my puny mind can’t perceive the exact parameters of absolute truth. It’s huge! God knows religion can’t and neither can anyone else. That would mean you were Source and Center yourself which is crazy. So THE truth is out of the question to even utter.

What’s left is relative truth; relative to our individual perception, our individual experiments, our group experiences, our communally created world we live on but it’s still all relative and MOVING. Everyone intuitively knows that except rigid people. Everything is moving and evolving all the time so the relative truth keeps shifting as well. Human beings being who they are, we do find it easier to agree on some basic, relative truths (THAT COULD CHANGE IF WE ALL DECIDED TO!);

  1. Grass is green
  2. The sky is mostly blue
  3. There are approximate 24 hours in a day
  4. 2 + 2 = 4

And this list can go on that no humans have a HUGE pressing emotional issue with, therefore it’s held as relatively true. It would tip if a majority of humans started changing their waveform and decided they needed a movement of people who were color blind and saw grass as blue, that grass is not green.

I find the facts of relative truth, proven by quantum mechanics and quantum physics to be extremely entertaining, creative and a great blast into people’s reality who are in emotional denial because of their subconscious mind that was programmed in childhood by their parents. There is some huge torrential secret that they can’t say or feel so they cling to absolute truth or “The Truth” as security in their world of delusion. Those are high walls.

The reality of relative truth and ever-shifting and evolving vistas of art and science has been nothing short of a complete solace for me in the face of absolutely NO security from provincial human society, my family, or my domestic life. Through no fault of my own, time and again, death has visited the people I’ve relied on and loved and they’re gone. I accept it and move on so that I can continue to learn about “the new relative truth” and enjoy my life. My personal truth is no one I get close to sticks around…ever. That is factually true for everyone actually, over time, but people resist it and get attached and demand people they love to stick around; children, mates, friends and they comply. People do imprison one another in these human social units and claim to be free. I don’t think they are and it’s creepy.

Contrived provincial lives offer them a theatre of emotional denial for something that happened to them, something in their family they never let go of and it’s crippled their body and mind. It’s made them ill. It’s that simple. If your body is ill, your thoughts and feelings are ill. You have not accepted relative truth and the shifting sands of earth waveforms and people coming and going.

Death is just a change of waveform. There is no point whatsoever over fretting or constantly revisiting your death or someone else’s death. It’s a waste of QI and you cut down your own body and adventures on earth while you’re here. I’m personally not interested in it and I’m not going to watch it if that’s “The Truth” for you.

Heartset; Who has your back?


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If you didn’t need human permission to be born and you don’t need human permission to die, why do you think you need human permission to live your life as you see fit, or that it is at least a good expansive experience for you? The same Energy that got you here and helps you leave here…HAS you here.

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Heartset; The Truth Controlled as a Weapon for Materialism-Part 2


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“There is, however, a significant weakness hiding in the imposing-looking materialist redoubt. It is as simple as it is undeniable: after more than a century of profound explorations into the subatomic world, our best theory for how matter behaves still tells us very little about what matter is.”

 

Here is the link to the full article; Where does consciousness come from?

Defining truth is weaponized when surrounded by religion or state dogma which is dominated by males. The truth is not found in religion or government. The subjective truth is that each of us has our own feelings, experiences, and opinions and for the most part, that’s what we spew as truth. It’s personal. It’s just our truth, no one else’s. However, it’s weaponized by virile, good looking, confident, dominant alpha men who are looking to make a buck. Sometimes they become church leaders and sometimes leaders of a movement that indirectly only wants followers to agree with him. Anyone that disagrees, especially a woman, will be punished and thrown out. They are not interested in discussion and the only women allowed a position in the movement are smiling, not very intelligent, passive women.

Then there is the empathic truth, what we can feel. That is a temporary truth but it is factual because it’s the truth about how you feel at the moment. Feelings rarely, if ever last like a moving stream to the sea so it’s important not to call it love. Love is literal energy and behavior, not feelings. Love is a mindset. I call it heartset.

The rational truth is, who we are as human beings, intelligent, conscious, biological cells are made by our mothers, who are women, and just seeded by men. In fact, the word “matter” comes from that Latin “mater” which means “mother”. It is important to note here that the rational mind is the combination of the right and left hemispheres of the brain which are intuitive and analytical. The fact is they always work together and when humming forms the higher mind.

If most of the scientists are male and being paid by males, run in a male-dominated institution, they’re going to do their damndest to not talk about or acknowledge THIS TRUTH and expect us to live with “the reality” that they should be able to define and control matter, not us. That’s a weapon. The institutions of materialism are ironically used as weapons against women who make matter in our bodies. That matter obviously has consciousness. The truth is matter is female in every way and it’s best exemplified in our flesh, our muscles and blood and the soil of the earth. Blood is QI which is Chinese for consciousness.

That best we can do is share power. The men need to give up on patriarchy and it’s institutions, support women leading in every field, at the very least equal with male leaders, or the species will end once again. They can’t win. It’s nature. The majority of our bodies are muscle and blood and the majority of the earth is soil and deeper down, dense rock that used to be soil and geothermal energy whose magma is the liquid rock. It’s all…soil. The seeds are just on the surface. Women are everything. There’s no getting around it and many men refuse to accept it. It’ll kill the planet and our species if this keeps up.

Everyday Spirituality; What is Your Lilith Placement?


This is actually pretty interesting. I woke up obsessed with the Lilith point position in my solar chart. I must have dreamt about it. Our solar charts are limited with regard to our destiny and personality because they only take into account 4D solar positions of where we are each positioned in this Matrix of ours.  When I do Intuitive readings for people, I only glance, not study their solar natal chart and their Tzolkinkonic line-up in the Mayan multidimensional alignments as well. Those are the destiny patterns. Now the context of what I see intuitively for the individual is in a universal context.

I’ve been working this way for years and it’s not hard to work up a chart. It does take time though and I offer it as a service. That said, there STILL is NO CONTROL or overstep by those alignments over your free will, your mindset, and heart set. So when I look at a person intuitively, I literally see what they’re creating right now, what could be coming pretty soon and bit further down the line. However, that can change if you change yourself in a big way.

The thing is, most of us don’t change in a big way as we go through life. It’s all usually gradual. That is the healthy way to be because of our brain and body like equilibrium. Every health care practitioner will tell you that. Consequently, people who are drawn to extreme swings of behavior or health regimens are usually judged handily. That’s not fair. Sure, they may die sooner than rest of us but if that’s fun for them and makes life worth living, let them be. However, don’t follow their lead! It’s not for everyone. Personally, I’m better SAFE than SORRY!

Now we get to what I’ve been blogging on. Men and relationships, dating and sex boundaries. In walks Lilith, the dark of the moon who is often envisioned as a dangerous demon of the night, who is sexually wanton, and who steals babies in the darkness. Lilith may be linked in part to a historically earlier class of female demons in ancient Mesopotamian religion, found in cuneiform texts of Sumer, the Akkadian Empire, Assyria, and Babylonia. She was mythologically Adam’s first wife made of clay, just like him, not from his rib as Eve was. Again, this is all fictional, a character likely made up by the Jewish priests who needed a twist on Eve. Her name really means Night.

Dark Lilith

I think she’s a little Hollywood Blvd. or everyone dressed in black in Greenwich Village in New York. It’s kind of immature but there are many women that are into this. I personally wouldn’t mess with this energy. That said, one interpretation of my chart says I need to face my inner night, my lack of balance that is my Lilith in Libra.

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There is another whitewashed version of her that is a little Victorian. But many women take to this one as well. I can’t relate to this one either. I know many women who can and do though. My family takes after this one.

The Lilith placement in the solar chart is about your resistance in this life. What are you ashamed of, what do you struggle with, what do you need to rampage? Having confidence in yourself? Taking care of your body? We all know that we need struggle to grow, like a seed germinating in its pod underground. There has to be some adversity, a freeze, to stimulate its DNA to push up out of the dark soil toward the sun. The human soul is exactly the same way. To that end, google “Calculate my Lilith in my natal chart” to find out. Then there are many sites that interpret it. As you might guess, my Lilith in Libra has everything to do with the balance of power with men and it is a huge issue for me. Apparently, the blindfold on the goddess Justice is idealistic. It doesn’t exactly work that way.

I am a lightworker, but in what ways do I need to see my dark pieces? It’s a valid question because we all have vices amidst our virtues. I prefer the picture below as it indicates the wisdom and animal totem of owl, birds, night time, and the full moon. Those things are all good and evoke the womb, the second chakra, goddess energy and what the men truly crave from women in balance during sex. I believe the balance between women and men begins with each woman truly honoring the power of her body, her light pieces, and her dark pieces. Men (and women) can help us see what those might be but we should never give them control over them.

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