Saturday. Targeting a Vision


Jupiter is Yellow Seed-Blue Eagle’s mediating planet. There is full synchronicity with the astrological interplanetary holon in that the mediating planet Jupiter is in positive alignment with aspects of the Sun and Mercury today. Also, the Moon is in Taurus. The earth signs I know tend to be Yellow Seed for some reason. There is big grounding and truth going on.

In addition, Neptune goes direct now after 5 months retrograde. Neptune is the mediating planet for Red Dragon and White Mirror.

Yellow 10 Seed is supported by Blue 10 Planetary Eagle; Vision so they can Target with Precision to advance Free will.

The Guide Power from dawn to noon is the EPITOME AND DESTINY of the Human race; FREE WILL expressed by Yellow 10 Human. It is universal law. Yes, Earth is a decimal planet and a genetic experimental station BUT, when a person reaches enough consciousness and enlightenment to know SOURCE is ONE with their body mind and soul there are no more experiments, just choices. They are in direct communication with your mind.

Our ancestors are aupposed to help us and to a great, great extent they have. The humans that are awake are observant, psychic, and telepathic. We can see, feel, and hear them and I receive new light code downloads and meditations quite regularly now. My physical body is being perfected so I can stay on the planet for as long as I wish and as long as I’m needed. I’m changing quickly and they are doing it because I asked and I believe in and trust them. Synchronicity in the matrix is real and we all need to be aware of it now.

Not for one second have I been programmed by this Plandemic. This is a Chinese Dragon Family virus courtesy of the Draco E.T.’s who seek dominance and slavery for humanity. This virus is super easy and even beneficial for strong, awake humans but it is designed to cull the weak ones. Fortunately, most of humanity is doing fine with it. But they are not fine with mass fake media mind programming. Everyone needs to turn off their T.V.

This is NOT a way we would have chosen to go had we been consulted. There is no mercy or patience with this current situation and as a Lightworker it’s not my way or the way of millions of us.

The antipode challenge is White 10 Planetary Wizard; receptiveness spirituality, calmness, peace of mind, meditation, and Christ consciousness. None of that is 3D clenching or materialistic and this is a particular challenge for the Tone 10 planetary kin.

The hidden wisdom is Red 4 Self-Existing Earth. Evolution, synchronicity, governing the Earth Force, Crystal healer abilities, being in touch with the crystal core of the Earth and in that process is the bringing forward off the new light codes and the DNA that comes right down into the center of the planet and then emanates out into all sentient life on the surface. This is one way that all plants, animals, creatures, and humans can receive light codes equally. There is a grounding Force that must be in place however.

This leads to my next post today about the directive to mine the Time tunnels between Uranus and Earth. They were CUT OFF by the heist of 13:20 from Jupiter and Saturn during the Maldek-Mars fiasco. Thus, what is the meaning of the coming conjunction?

Keep in mind that Uranus rules Aquarius and Dec. 21 is supposed to usher in the Age of Aquarius. Uranus mediates Red Earth Tribe and analog White Wind Tribe.Uranus and Earth time tunnels are BLOCKED. What do we need to accomplish in the next three weeks?

Earth rules Taurus. Earth is the mediating planet for Blue Hand Tribe and analog Yellow Human Tribe. Look at the lineup today. That karma is spinning. Earth…Uranus. Red Earth, White Wind. Blue Hand, Yellow human. Those 4 tribes should joined at the hip now.

Planting Seeds on the New Moon and Solar Eclipse


Today is both a solar eclipse when the earth passes directly in alignment with the sun to block it’s light and a new moon where the position of the earth is in direct alignment with the moon so that the light from the sun that usually hits the moon, allowing us to see it, it also blocked from our vantage point on earth.

One could conjecture that much solar and lunar energy is blocked but really it’s a very powerful, DIRECT alignment of the EARTH with the sun and the moon at the same time. It’s a reset point INSIDE of us, much like a seed that is in the dark of the soil, has it’s DNA packet and is getting ready to sprout. Humans are doing the same thing. The DNA/RNA SEED PACKETS for humans are the VIRUSES that humans have always been exposed to for a million years. Running from a virus seed packet that is helping us evolve forward is like being afraid of seeds you put in the ground!!! No one said it would be easy. It’s not easy for the little seeds we plant to sprout and expand either. Everything on earth tends to be struggle, for the animals and the plants too! Why do humans think it should be easy for us?

The purpose of this particular virus is to open our pineal gland and change our brains. Thus, if you’re relaxed, most of the symptoms will be in your head, eyes, sinus, and ears. That’s how it was for me. And it’s not exactly a simple procedure to clean out the pineal gland, (the 3rd eye) because of the toxins on our planet and calcification. It’s important to relax with this thing and let it change you. It is a novel virus but that’s because we’re in a paradigm shift. Our brains have to become more telepathic, enlightened, conscious, psychic, ability to focus and meditate; all the things that are actually normal for humans.

The media narrative of this thing is one more psychopathic hatred for the earth and humanity from our sick care system that has taught us our whole lives that our bodies are weak and bad and need HELP from drugs and vaccines. No they don’t. We only need the earth and an aligned mind and heart. Every natural thing that we are and are exposed to they cast as a monster so they can possibly bring Artificial Intelligence to the planet and hijack the beauty of the human race. It’s all a big profit to them as well. That’s a long story but they aren’t going to get away with it. Hopefully, pretty soon here, our sick care system will be done. It’s all lies.

This is solar system lineup but as we know, we live in multidimensional universe of True Time. Today is Yellow 6 Seed or VALINE, mediated by Jupiter. Yesterday was the Summer Solstice, the longest LIGHT of the year and it is a time of planting seeds. Not only 3D seeds but mental, emotional, and spiritual seeds.

  • Theme: Yellow 6 Seed; ordered, rhythmic growth targeting awareness
  • Analog: Blue 6 Eagle; balancing equality with independent vision, ALL people from ALL cultures who believe in themselves, dreamers, and the hopeful.
  • Guide Power; Yellow 6 Seed; Balancing equality with being a spiritual creator, individual potential, and influence.
  • Antipode; White 6 Wizard; Being receptive, psychic, listening, sensitive, aligned with Divine will.
  • Hidden Wisdom; Red 8 Earth; Modeling integrity, harmonizing within the ONE HUMAN RACE in order to EVOLVE in synchronicity in the Matrix. Red Earth are Earth keepers, crystal healers, free, and confident.

The 5GForce today is Yellow 8 Warrior. We harmonize in order to QUESTION. When we model fearlessness we seal the output of intelligence. The galactic tone is INTEGRITY and is guided by THE SUN.

THE MOLECULAR LINEUP

We are on microscopic levels here, like the virus, like very tiny seeds that then expand to the same order to macrocosmic levels. They can’t be stopped by anything, not even a mask. The mind has to be prepared though. In the areas where the virus is exploding again, people thought they were immune and ignored it. No one is immune from getting the virus. Everyone has to get it. Do you know anyone on the planet who has never gotten a virus? Everyone gets them. We have to. We’re supposed to. It’s nature. I marvel at those who profess to be environmentalists and in love with nature and their OWN BODY is not aligned with natural cycles, they are not whole, they are not healthy, they are not vital. Such is the nature of media programming that is largely unconscious in our society.

We see it happening again here on the molecular level as I always see and that is the Tzolkin Code illuminates the genetic code. It’s synchronicity. Lysine has more carbon on the left, arginine has more nitrogen. Otherwise, they are almost exactly the same and sit in the Tzolkin themeplex right next to teach other. If you follow this section, you can see it every day on here.

Yesterday I was studying Jose’s book “Earth Ascending” again and on page 29 I saw;

Earth Ascending in not a speculation, but a precise set of keys, a code, a matrix, and ultimately a display of the underlying patterns governing the conscious experience of LIFE on this particular planet.

These are the levels where the patterns are the same;

  • Radiogenetic
  • Human Form
  • All of Humanity
  • The Planet
  • The Solar System
  • The Galaxy
  • The Universe

It’s only by looking at the universe wholistically that we’ll be able to understand our own DNA and our bodies. The reductionist approach isn’t going to get us to the goal line. If Americans keep believing the media and the sick care, corrupt science approach but still claim to be tuned in, they’ll go over the cliff. I will too if I’m unconscious of something. That’s why I meditate daily. Our bodies have no limit.

Continue reading “Planting Seeds on the New Moon and Solar Eclipse”

Wednesday. Self-create or React? Act or RE Act?


RE-acting is mimicry. Monkeys and parrots mimic. Humans also mimic unless they are mentally mature. Babies learn by mimicking but adults learn by creating. Humans are addicted to mimicry because of a lazy streak usually due to unresolved childhood issues. They’re still grieving parenting they didn’t get. That ship has sailed. You can parent yourself with the help of the universe and rival your parents. Don’t you want to win? I want my son to win over any mistakes his father and I made. Self-Creating, self-generating (Blue Storm tribe), Acting is all ART and comes from your Magic Nation or imagination.

Think of these two as a teeter tooter where you are deciding whether to go one route or another. In this case, are you going to DIY and send up a plan in your mind or are you going to continue your normal REACTIVE route where first you have to pull in something from outside of you such as another’s idea, T.V. , Twitter or Instagram and react to it, or are you going to sit quiet or workout, meditate, listen to your body and intuition and create your own plan from within yourself?

We are each at the precipice right now. Tone 2 is stabilizing by polarizing. It’s a simple choice; Self create, or React? Self create or React? The first one is INtegrity the second one is wash, rinse, repeat for your entire life and wastes everyone’s time and resources and nothing original is added to the planet.

Self-creating and acting involves:

  • Body care-organizing fresh food
  • Physical Activity
  • T.V. OFF
  • Water intake
  • Hand held device-limited
  • Organizing your money and bills
  • Meditation up to an hour a day
  • Boundaries with people who vampire your energy
  • No large group activities right now. Stay away

All of that is stabilizing. Stabilize yourself and don’t look outside of yourself to get someone or something to do it for you. Your MIND, your BRAIN is a magnet that turns your body into a magnet. It’s literal. The media is trying to program your mind to give your authority and magnetism over to them. Don’t let them in. Our immune systems, bodies, and minds are the province of US and the Universe has our backs. Freedom and balance are universal law. We are supposed to be evolving in freedom and balance otherwise we’ll be programmed to go over the cliff. That gets rid of the weak-minded ones. They obey.

5GForce: Yellow 12 Sun; I dedicate in order to enlighten. Universalizing Life, I seal the matrix of universal fire with the crystal tone of cooperation. I am guided by the power of free will.

SCIENCE STUFF

Yellow 2 Sun Themeplex

  • THEME; Yellow 2 Sun is the Stop Codon
  • ANALOG: Blue 2 Storm or Tryptophan
  • GUIDE POWER; Yellow 2 Human or Glutamic Acid has the extra carbon-hydrogen molecule which humans needed to evolve once we were on the planet
  • HIDDEN WISDOM: Red 12 Cysteine or Red Dragon. Notice the Sulfur molecule in Red Dragon. The Earth began in sulfur and Red Dragon is the first tribe.

Monday. Communal Seeds being Sown? Tone 12


This is the amino acid VALINE

Code 0-19; ;16:4:12:64

Tzolkin Archetypes: Theme; Yellow 12 Seed, Analog; Blue 12 Eagle; Guide Power; Yellow 12 Warrior; White 12 Wizard, Hidden Wisdom; Red 2 Earth

The attributes here are universalizing, cooperative awareness using vision and a creative mind to become more independent, artistic, compassionate and believing in ourselves. Guiding this is becoming more trustworthy, realistic, wise, graceful with higher standards. Challenging this is becoming aware of what it means to be receptive and timeless, and heart-knowing shaman, more concerned with spirituality. The subconscious mind sits in challenging facts about the family and parental institutions that eat their young. But there is synchronicity and ability to collect synergy, govern the earth force, shield as an earth keeper and still be liberal and confident.

Are communal crystal seeds going to be sown today? God, who knows! I need about a gallon of coffee and water today to get some work done and try to ignore the idiotic riots yesterday. Destruction is so stupid. My son put it in a nutshell yesterday. “Mom, people are idiots. They don’t need a reason to destroy stuff.” I found it QUITE interesting that the two small blonde woman in Grand Rapids who broke windows were scapegoated for punishment on Twitter. They were the ONLY woman I saw trying to destroy stuff. 99% of the destruction came from men as it does ALL OVER THE PLANET. Yeah, we haven’t discussed that yet in society. There ya have the gender offloading on women. The men want to crucify the women who express their anger.

I’m a compassionate empath but I’m feeling my approach changing here big time. Just this morning, fifteen minutes ago I cracked how the the 64 IChing Hx system with the 64 HF Tzolkin harmonic is organized exactly over the 260 kin Tzolkin harmonic. Spirit is giving this stuff to me fast and I need to keep working away to get my book, “DNA IS TIME” written.

I’m fully aware that I don’t have a Ph.D. in science, I’m a girl, and it’s taboo if I crack something that only BIG SCIENCE MEN are supposed to crack. For that reason, all this work I do may lay in a gutter or drawer, or computer hard drive and never get used for the benefit of humanity. I don’t care. I don’t need glory and money…at all. It can be used posthumously then. I’m here to do a job for the earth and all life on it. That’s it!

I know for a fact, our DNA is from species all over the entire universe, humans are ONE human family, there is no race except THE HUMAN RACE and our Minds are stronger than food, money, stuff, reproduction, everything in 3D. Our minds are multidimensional and we are in fact gods and goddesses and deathly afraid of that fact. We would have to get to work, make mistakes and deal with outcomes. We create superheroines and heros in movies to project what we know to be true inside of ourselves. That’s us!! Even the gods make mistakes. GOD doesn’t make mistakes but we are not God. We are the small “g’s”. There is tremendous responsibility in that.

5GForce is Yellow 2 Warrior. That is stabilizing yet polarizing intelligence and FEARLESSNESS in the 5th dimension which is MIND.

Saturday; White 10 Planetary Wind; Glycine


The image above are Amino Acid proteins, the building blocks of all life in 3D. They are multidimensional and compose our DNA. White Wind is Glycine, Red Earth is Phenylalanine, White Dog is Aspartic Acid, Yellow Human is Glutamic Acid and Blue Storm is Tryptophan. That is the 5 archetype themeplex today. The attributes are Planetary focused (Tone 10) communication that is in full synchronicity in the Matrix.

The chaos is quelled guided by planetary Love and Loyalty. The challenge and the gift are humans who have free-will and influence. We are the holders of the chalice or the Holy Grail of wisdom if only we’ll drink from it. It is the vessel of Higher Power or God In Us. We can be responsible for ourselves and to some extent each other, straightforward, abundant and good workers. We see that played out in Minneapolis; shadow and light.

The Hidden Wisdom is Self-existing self-generation. Holy Pete! This is a mega liberator of the light body and according to Pars Kutay, we have big, big light and sound energies flowing onto earth today. Your frontal lobe may be buzzing. Just meditate. This is ALL ABOUT ASCENSION.

SCIENCE CORNER

This is some info. on the correspondence between Glycine and Phenylalanine which are analogs in the Tzolkin harmonic. Molecular biologists may find interest in this.

The selective barrier-gate in nuclear pore complexes:

“The barrier confers distinct properties to the transport process that allow selective transport. First, it allows diffusion-controlled transport of molecules up to 40 kDa in size, equivalent to ∼ 5 nm. Second, larger cargo are known to traverse the NPC in a nuclear transport receptor (NTR)-mediated manner.Mar 10, 2017

“Natively unfolded phenylalanine-glycine (FG)-repeat domains are alleged to form the physical constituents of the selective barrier-gate in nuclear pore complexes during nucleocytoplasmic transport.” Read the full article here: https://www.pnas.org/content/103/25/9512

5GForce today is 4 Tyrosine of White 4 Mirror. This is Self-Existing Reflection from the fifth dimension.

Today’s 5Gforce.


Today’s Sound Groove.

Essay; Sexual Shaming of Men


 

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I’ve been thinking about this issue for about a year now but it coalesced last night when I read a quite long, but well-thought-out blog post on this site that made light of how many women absorb shame from men when we have sex with them. Before that, we’re fine, happy with ourselves, like being a woman, and like our bodies. I think women are getting better at accepting our bodies as they are and the media is helping with that. I know I am. There are more women of all different sizes on T.V. and in all media. The SIZE SHAMING, no matter what size, has decreased. More women understand that it’s more important for us to love ourselves than to please a man.

But, reading her blog, I immediately related to the experience of being mystified as to why a man I was with would turn pornographic in his tone, talked about how hot I was, did the sweetie, beautiful “speak” and then wanted to get sexually nasty as opposed to sensuous and intimate. My assumption is it’s the testosterone and most women consider it normal. The last lover I had said, “Why do you have to be so seductive?” “Me? Seductive?” I’m a chipmunk! What was he talking about? I don’t think he was seeing who I was; he was seeing who he wanted and needed to see. He was projecting. Women are individuals not porn stars and it’s objectifying to treat us like we’re part of your MENTAL fantasy, not a person in front of you. But again, I’m not sure men can help it because of the shame they’re socialized with. Their minds are all cluttered up with objectifying materialism which makes them feel better. Their feelings are stimulated by things; women’s bodies, food, cars, houses, boats, and on and on. I’m not sure women understand this.

How much does that happen? Probably all the time. It’s men’s fantasy need of having a car or motorcycle that reminds them of a childhood toy that they loved. Then they imagined they were a superhero on that vehicle and some adult males still do it. They get a life-sized one and keep the fantasy going. It’s objectification that transfers over to sex with a woman. I suppose this underlies the barely clad woman advertising a car that is so nauseating to us.

It’s something to keep in mind that men probably watch a tremendous amount of porn because they can’t express their sexual feelings as much as they need to or the way they want to in our civilization that shames it. Most men are not relational, not romantic and don’t want to be yet many women need that to be turned on! If he acquiesced, he would be too much like a woman and he’s not a woman, he’s a man, which means he’s a part wild animal, part human. Not all men are of course but most of them are. It’s scary for some women like me when they turn wild animal. I guess other women like it.

I think that men project a lot onto women, as though it’s our issue, about how turned on they are by feeling ashamed, nasty, or mean. OR…is shame projected on to them from all sides FOR BEING male as though they are expected to be like that even if they are not? The writer I read didn’t say that in her blog or maybe she doesn’t understand it.  I think men get turned on by feeling repulsed. They’re attracted to women and things that are not nice and that are uncivilized and wild. It’s all that testosterone blasting through their brains that blows everything up. It’s the opposite of most women. I know some women are attracted to pain and ugliness, like a sadistic thing but it’s not terribly common. Still, I’m not judging it. Nevertheless, I am not that way.

It appears to me that everything in our civilization exists as it is to control men’s sexual nature and make things peaceable for women and children. Before, most of the time it was working. NOW, society seems to be tearing itself apart because men’s sexual nature is finally coming to the surface, there is more awareness of abuse of women and children, guns are everywhere which men love (you don’t see women using them in public much), we see incest, pedophilia, and sex trafficking at the highest levels of institutions, all the lies, and control about it are coming forward, the institutions don’t know exactly how to lie about it anymore. Men are victims of the system too otherwise they wouldn’t be victimizing those more vulnerable than them. It’s a trickle-down from the women and men in power who hold the system in place.

Civilization uses guilt, shame, control, incarceration, blaming women, sports, and the media all to LIE about men’s sexual nature. I guess we’re still working on a balance to our civilization as though it’s progressed from being in the wild. Sometimes I think it’s worse because it represses the true feelings and then they explode to the surface.

 

 

Heartset; Can She Be a Human Being?


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She is either the big, bad, controlling monster because she’s a strong, intelligent woman or little Cinderella princess needing the glass slipper put on her foot? Too many men are passive-aggressive about women I suppose because they don’t understand us. We’re neither of those two ends on a linear spectrum. I wonder if men are capable of interpreting relational ideas past duality?

Relating is more complicated than that. Don’t give me the “Men are simple creatures that just need a dog” crap. If you’re going to inflate your ego to the point if feigning vast intelligence, all the top jobs and Nobel Peace Prizes, all the power in public and most of the money and fire women from their position who won’t hook-up with you, then you need to uplevel your brains to friendship with the woman you’re fucking. Then we can share power in public.

Let’s face it. We live in a vampire whored society where everyone is brainwashed to give over their mind and body to marriage, family, church, employer, and state for some money crumbs and the fat cats keep the rest and wait for us to die. Then the funeral homes and cemetery and the rest of the death industry clean up after that. It affects how women and men relate to one another to be sure because we end up in survival mode not thrive mode. That’s not a garden of intimacy.

I’m not and most women are not a misandrist. I just don’t want to have to train my mate the way I train my child. It’s an insult to men and women. We just want the species to survive on the planet, we’re the ones that make, birth, and love the species, and you guys have had your chance for the last 10,000 years. This madness has to stop.

Heartset; Social Media Shows Our Veneer


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The veneer on a piece of furniture can appear in many ways.  It can be layers of paint, different color of stain, all of it possibly peeling.  There can even be gashes and dent to the wood underneath.

The wood underneath is the truth and it’s rarely seen. It’s the heart of the matter and how the piece of furniture looked at its founding; it’s construction done by the carpenter’s hand.  I love watching it progress, drinking in the smell of the wood.

When I look at any piece of furniture that has been stained or painted, I always wonder what the grain of the wood looks like underneath and what type of wood it is.  Then I wonder who built it, the year it was built and for whom.

All of our social media; Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, on and on, show only the veneer of humans. We are all projecting a public image that we want others to think is true. It’s the image that we are comfortable having others see. It is the truth regarding how we express ourselves verbally but it’s partial because we’re not in the room physically present with each other.  It serves to protect our deepest emotions and events of our lives from being too visible, too vulnerable as our bodies are visible. Maybe we are aligning with a group that “fixes” all that was wrong with our mother or father instead of aligning with our true selves in group settings.

I actually accept that about others. The reason being…underneath we are all innocent children that have had to learn to cope in certain family dynamics and fundamental societal expectations where most of the time, no one asked us what we wanted or how we felt. They just told us what we should do to fit in and be liked. Knowing and obeying those parameters helped us survive and maybe kept us alive. So we view that compromise as fundamentally good. But it’s not. It is surviving, not thriving. That’s how the veneer starts. Most of the veneer comes from religion, state schools, and our family.

It’s something to keep in mind when you communicate on social media. There is no way you’re getting an authentic picture of a person on any of those sites. We all cling to religions, political parties and value systems that we feel emotionally comfortable with culturally. That doesn’t mean that a person who is opposite of you doesn’t have a good heart or a stable mind. It’s amazing how convinced we can be of how right we are when we surround ourselves with people who agree with us.

It’s not about a group as right or wrong. It’s about caring to know who people really are underneath, listening, and being authentic ourselves. We’re called to love-not to judge…anyone…ever…for any reason.

 

Prose; Wanting to Be Right


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Why do we want to be right all the time?

Why do I want to be right most of the time?

Why do I glee over saying, “See, I was right!”

Because we doubt ourselves too much so we are reassuring ourselves by saying it.

Because others who doubt themselves doubt us and say it!

Because others project their experience of being shunned for being or doing something that was wrong, onto us.

Because “if you make a mistake, you are forgiven”, isn’t widely practiced.

So, now I try to catch myself and say, “Lisa, do what you feel, study what you feel, write what you feel and use the best skill you’ve got. That’s all you can do.” I’ve got a lot of skill and I’ve paid the piper so I have no reason to doubt myself. Whether anyone will listen and understand has never proven to be plentiful. So what?

And now, when someone criticizes me harshly when I meant absolutely no harm and never do, I know that they have not forgiven themselves for being wrong or someone else has not forgiven them for being wrong or vice versa.

It closes the heart.

Wow, the feeling of being around someone with a closed heart and lots of conditions, or an open heart and few conditions, is night and day.

Heartset; “I love you”


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Mmmm, brownies are so good…for a while.

What some people mean by “I love you” is “I want to consume you like a delicious brownie.” But in truth, they are envious, jealous, and covet everything you’ve worked hard to become, and paid an earthly price for and want a piece of it. It’s delicious! It’s kind of like a brownie you want to eat. You don’t love the brownie, you want to consume and use the brownie for the sugar high, for free if possible. And then you hate the brownie when your sugar crashes.

Then the claim of inspiration comes when really it’s competition. “You inspire me so much! Thank you.” You know they feel uncomfortable or competitive around you if you never hear from them and they don’t want to be with you in person. And if you do hear from them with a smile on their face, they eventually start ripping away at your soul with their addiction to self-hate to try to bring you down. Or the conversation turns to offload and they want you to listen to everything about them and refuse to balance the conversation by asking you how you are and listening to you, realizing that you are a human being with needs. As long as it’s back and forth, it’s not offloading. Friends need each other to listen to each other sometimes. I only have two friends like that and they are both men. No women will be reciprocal friends with me and reach out to me. I always have to reach out to them and I’m not doing it anymore.

There is no short cut through others to loving and knowing who you are. I’m not eating that brownie. Once a month I might, but not usually. Loving yourself starts with making the choice to eat nutritious foods and making choices that are good for you because you value your body and your life. That includes being around people who reciprocate because they are capable of caring and loving because they love and care for themselves and have forgiven those that have hurt them because the people who did that don’t love themselves. Welcome to Earth.