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pink roses

In this movie starring Kate Winslet and Alan Rickman, this is the scene of the presentation of Madame Barra to the King of France. She gave him an open pink rose. I just finished watching it.

The King: A light honest scent, natural and unforced. Some other roses seem faded and overblown.

M: That fate awaits all roses sire. All roses are open to the elements your majesty.

They bud, bloom, and fade.

The rose grows entirely unaware, changing from one state to another.

And although the elements may treat her cruelly

She knows nothing of it and continues to her end without judgment on her beauty.

Alas ’tis not the same for us.

King: If such a rose could speak, what would she say?

M: Yes, I am here and gave service under nature’s eye.

And after me, my children will be.

Is there any greater contribution or a more graceful end?

King: A wise rose. And what protection can the gardener afford this rose from the elements of change?

M: Patience, care, and a little warmth from the sun are our best hope, your majesty.

King: I am obliged to you madame for that sweet reminder.

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Male Sexual Fantasy…that’s how you bond?


 

you've got to be kidding meMore information is hitting me today via my intuition about certain men I know and their behavior. I’ve been trying to figure out how men’s minds work for years now and never gave it much thought when I was younger and had no brothers so now I’m playing catch up. I know you’re more simple than us and I don’t need the lecture that I’m over-thinking.

There are two local men I know (in my town) that I’m sure are in love with me to whom I have zero interest or attraction. I know that sounds harsh, but I’m pretty sure guys are the same way. Some women get your motor running, other’s don’t, even if you “try” to give them a chance. These two men are like a dog with a bone simply based on the fact that several years ago I was nice or warm to both of them. (Please refer to my blog post “Warmth from a woman doesn’t mean she’s attracted to you.”). Also, the attraction over social media or the phone is absolutely bizarre to me. You can’t know any truth that way. Again, it’s just for male fantasy gratification and does nothing for the woman. But that doesn’t matter, does it? Just know that if you don’t actually meet a woman, she will drop you like a hot potato fairly quickly.

So, as I was eating my salad and soda crackers just now it hit me. Men’s minds are based on the fantasy of a woman he’s met or has talked to, not fact. Men’s minds form emotional, sexual fantasies based on projection and his own weaving of fantasy that he wants to believe. He also will project his own image via social media and when you meet him, he won’t necessarily look that way. That’s happened to me too. It’s not that we’re biased about the way you look, it’s that you lied and misled us. That’s going to get you in a heap of trouble guys.

I and every woman I know, are very rational about relationships and men. We look for certain hygiene, clothing, behavior, and financial facts, communication that absolutely tell us whether to let our motor run for you or not. We can control all of that. Yes, we do control all of that, like we’re shopping. I’m not saying that smell, pheromones, looks and such aren’t involved because they are at a very primal level. So yes, women say, “God he has a perfect booty.” and get all lusty, or “He’s super sweet and smart” but not the way men do. Every woman is different but it is never based on GQ crap…ever. However, if his tone of voice with us or the way he acts is vile, that fine booty counts for nothing, nada, zip, zero. We fall in love with the person and the potential for bonding, not your body. That’s how our brains work.

Why is that? Because our arousal is based on your vibe, whether you know us or not, whether you want to know us or not, our feelings, our relationship. You’re falling asleep already reading this and because of that, more women are going to be celibate. We can do that too.

graceful-girl-smilingDo you know how easy this face is to fake for women? More women have just given in to a man’s lust who cannot stop staring at and fantasizing about our breasts or pussy and cannot focus or hold a conversation. We’re like, “For god’s sake, listen to me.” No, you can’t listen to us if you’re staring at our lips or crotch and we know it.  and motivation, Millions of women make quite a bit of money taking advantage of men’s lack of sophistication when it comes to human relationship mostly through prostitution. You’ve set yourselves up! Improve your intelligence and this won’t happen.

So, you guys are completely irrational about any prospects of truly arousing us or knowing us or bonding because relationships aren’t even on your radar. Or to be fair, maybe you don’t “have” the radar. I am trying to be fair. I don’t think relationship and understanding female behavior is in your wiring and I’m done being mad about it. It’s simple. We need love, affection, and kindness in addition to sex.

This is tragic for women who then fake orgasm or does whatever we have to do for ourselves to enjoy our bodies because our culture has men completely brainwashed to believe that your penis is everything and all we need. That is SO wrong it isn’t even funny. I’ve been with men of all different “sizes”, body size and all the other pieces and it has not mattered one iota whether I was turned on or not. There are specific things that do matter but that’s for another blog. Every woman is different! And what is worse is there are millions of women out there who have given up and just let the man’s fantasies and his penis focus control her love life believing that you will NEVER be astute enough to get our sexuality and how we love.

I have not given up hope yet, but applying some rational fact and getting a handle on those sexual fantasy feelings will be a big step forward.

I welcome any questions. If you think I’m off on something, feel free to call me out but do so in a civil manner, please. I don’t have all the answers and I know I’m not always right.

 

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You can find my daily posts of the Tzolkin Themeplex or Mayan Calendar daily’s here. It’s now a TAB on my homepage. I do not have a run-of-the-mill approach and doing comprehensive research on how the Tzolkin synchronizes all life on the planet and events. You’ll find it interesting.

Be sure and spin up your birth themeplex at the bottom of the post.

Here is the link:

https://lisaktownsendauthor.com/tzolkin-daily-themeplex/

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A Star Is Born Movie Review


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This movie is doing very well in the review department so far and is still in theatres. But I saw this last night and was left a little flat frankly. I read the review found at the link above and agreed with most of it but I’d like to add that the movie lacked timbre change. The melodrama lacked strong up and down movement which is needed on the big screen. Instead, it was incredibly real, the acting so very real that I felt like I was a voyeur looking in on the very old, moldy issue of drug addiction and showbiz. I’m over it. Are you? I don’t feel that the story of “A Star Is Born” is a story worth re-telling now that we’re leveling past the subconscious drama of family dysfunction repeated in our own adulthood. Re-telling the story just keeps it going. That, and fame and fortune aren’t all they’re cracked up to be on a personal level.

The acting, from all of the cast, is Oscar worthy. Lady Gaga’s music and singing, the songs, Grammy worthy. I agree with all of that. But the movie as a whole did not hold together for me or move me very much. It was all very predictable, maybe because it’s about the fourth remake of this story?

I adore Lady Gaga even more than I did before. She is one talented woman and her acting was great! I feel like the movie goes to her. Kudos to Cooper for his work and the rest of the cast as well but she gets my biased admiration. Girl crush sismance.

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Grand Rapids, MI; Moving and Shaking


I didn’t see this coming really. I live in Grand Rapids and am I ever happy to be back from California two weeks out. They have nice blooming flowers and fresh figs all year but that doesn’t outweigh all of their problems. I’m happy to live here and have gained perspective. Grand Rapids has a history of provincial conservatism as the birthplace of Gerald R. Ford, but he wasn’t the worst of the conservatives! Compared to the likes of Trump, Graham, Ryan, and the rest of the bunch in Washington right now he seems pretty tame. He was actually a decent fellow and very well loved in these parts. This could still be considered a Republican stronghold but West Michigan went for Obama during his elections. That was unusual.

Medical Marijuana is legal in Grand Rapids and we have a growing student population with the growth of GVSU (Grand Valley State University). Grand Rapids is really changing quickly. The housing values are going up 14% a year so this area is in demand. Hopefully, we can manage the growth without it becoming a mini-Chicago. My guess is, with the difficult winters in Michigan, only the hearty and communal will have the gusto to move here.

The other issue is the social requirements. Everywhere you go in Michigan, people smile, wave, and talk to you whether they know you or not. We have a common humanity in the midst of our provincialism. People help one another here more than they ignore others. Our state is also pluralistic, so even though most people here call it home and haven’t traveled the world, they will give someone from another part of the world a chance to exhibit their decency and contribute to the community in any fashion they can. But you do have to contribute and do your share. We don’t wait for the government to take care of us here. We get organized ourselves for the most part and get moving.

Grand Rapids used to be quite segregated but in the last five years, the neighborhood demographics are changing quickly. East Town is becoming more like East Grand Rapids and the Polish Westside, where I live, is becoming more like East Town. East Town is a funky little area right next to the very upscale East Grand Rapids where the rich live. Apparently, the wealthy are expanding in the Wealthy St. area and pushing out the hipsters. They’re walking on my sidewalk now with their buns on their heads and long skirts and jean jackets. My neighborhood is very integrated.

My modest house value is shooting up and it will continue that way barring any major weather cataclysm. This is significant given the fact that in 2009 it was underwater due to the housing crisis caused by the crimes of Wall St. I managed to re-modify my loan and own my house outright as a single woman. I hope to leverage all of that in my favor in the next five years as I live here alone.

Here’s to authentic G.R. up and coming, where you’re expected to just tell the truth, be yourself, and do your best. Cheers!

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Maybe Humans Crave Certain Feelings, not Drugs Themselves


That’s a pretty interesting suggestion.  It’s probably not a new one but I sure don’t hear anyone talking about that.  It would mean that you crave the way a drug makes you feel.

You may say, “Well yeah!” Pardon me if my realization sounds naive or conservative.  I’m not.  I’m an extremely liberal woman but I was born sober, so obviously I’m liberal intellectually, in speaking, and in friendships, not in my hobbies.  I have never craved drugs and when I do try them they don’t affect me.  Go figure.  I’ve used alcohol, been buzzed many times and only drunk once. It does nothing for my feelings at all nor does it make my body change much, good or bad. I’ve used pot maybe five times and it doesn’t affect me. I’ve used different kinds of tobacco and I like the smell of it because it reminds me of jazz, but that’s it. I cannot relate to craving a drug to make my feelings change. That’s as odd to me as thinking that changing my clothes will change my personality.  It’s extremely irrational and makes no sense to me.

I AM exceedingly familiar with my feelings changing though, a lot!!  My feelings have always swung this way and that naturally ever since I’ve been a child.  I am in touch with a range of feelings that as a professionally trained actor, I’m able to evoke or bring to the surface quite easily.  So, it must just be my personality; the way my brain works. It does run in my family, being theatrical, but we are also counselors, therapists, and mediums.  I’m also a musician.  I come from an emotionally expressive family so that was seeded in my subconscious in utero.

What all of this is bringing to light is the fact that if you have an expressive art you can imbibe in, maybe those feelings you’re craving will start flowing and your drug craving may go down.  We all need to let our feelings out.  And what about sex?  I know women tend to be more emotional during sex than men if men are at all, but more sex would be good for women then. Most women are as comfortable with sexual feelings as they are with taking a shower or feeling ill.  It’s just part of having a body.  I know this is diametrically opposed to men.

Men, I don’t know how you deal with your feelings other than drinking.  My 19-year-old son tells me that men do get emotionally attached in relationships even though males don’t get emotional during sex itself.  I know that the emotion of sexual tension that occurs when you’re attracted to a female is very uncomfortable for most men and FEAR is your big emotion; maybe even anger at not being able to control the woman’s sexual feelings? That was some inside information I received yesterday that was fascinating.  So, let yourself “be” in a relationship, talking, feeling bonded to other males and females as friends are very therapeutic for guys.  Also, just letting yourself feel the sexual tension with a woman you like.  It doesn’t mean you have to take any major action on it immediately…I guess.

As a female, I don’t really emotionally need friendships as much as I need sex.  I don’t think many women admit that but that’s definitely the case for me.  Or maybe I’m just far more into feeling my body in its natural state than others are. So it’s more important for me to have a partner than many friendships…eventually.

I’ll follow this blog up with my intuition and findings on sexual tension between men and women and maybe even women and women and men and men.  That should be compelling and timely. The issue seems to be unraveling our society on all levels. It’s about time right? This male fear and issue of emotional control is called patriarchy; then it manifests in forced sex. Nada. But are women really completely emotionally innocent in all of this? I really don’t know, seriously asking.

Is it possible that the psychology of sexual predation and sexual harassment is a form of sexual tension that is physically out of alignment because of pent-up feelings? Stay tuned.