The Anima and The Animus

I’ve always been fascinated by the inner male inside the female (animus) and the inner female inside the male (anima). The terms were coined by the psychologist C.G. Jung.  It seems to me that humans intuitively know we each have those energies as part of our identity to some degree without over-analyzing it. Women and men are both female and male! It’s one of the reasons that the homosexual lifestyle really doesn’t bother most Americans. A Pew Research poll taken in 2017 showed that 62% of Americans support same-sex marriage. We all know that we’re learning about our bodies and our feelings whether we’re attracted to female or male at one time or another.  It’s no big deal as long as you’re honest with yourself in the midst of it and are careful of children’s attachment to parents.

I’m a trained actor with a degree in it, so I know how to have almost instant access to a wide range of emotions, and tears are super easy for me. I spent two years learning how to do that. But I much prefer laughter and happiness as part of my natural personality. Yet when I cry, it feels like a cry for the animus, the male in me that stomps all over my receptive female. My receptive female, all receptive females are beautiful. She is the bearer and producer of life after all. But is she loved and cared for safely the way she should be? Or must she always stroke the male ego to be loved, even if his behavior doesn’t call for it? If love from her partner is conditional based on size and behavior, he cannot say he loves her.  All humans go through hard patches where our self-esteem is bottomed out.  If someone really loves you, and has seen and knows that you have it in you to eventually come out of it, they’ll stay by your side, not bolt.

My experience and intuition tell me that it’s not terribly safe to be an open, loving, female in our society. Most women I know have developed serious defenses now and will even aggressively act out because there is no real equity and heaping amounts of bias based on gender! It’s very similar to unarmed black men being gunned down by police. It’s appalling and tragic!! Women are at about the same level and I’m guessing the stats regarding violence toward women would show this to be true.

Over fifty-four years I’ve maximized my intellect with education, developed firm boundaries in the public workplace (which doesn’t seem to make any difference), insisted on being treated with respect (sometimes it works), focused on my behavior more than my looks (rarely works), and become very focused and skilled in my work. Guys don’t like it. Once I hit my thirties, I learned how to be assertive and opinionated as well. The other thing that goes on is that as a pretty white woman, I feel no obligation to maximize my looks to feed patriarchal bullshit and make myself superficial to manipulate the system. I feel more powerful sitting in my authenticity. Women that aren’t as pretty compete with me or make sure I keep a distance from the man they’re pursuing (so weird) when I’m not even looking. We are so programmed to believe that survival in this planet depends on finding “our level” as prescribed by the institutions and the media that we don’t even know we’re doing it!

It’s not working. I’m still seen as a girl and treated like a girl. No matter how “male” a woman learns to act in public or how many letters she has behind her name with a high I.Q., she’s still paid less than a man and treated like her first order of business is to give something of herself to a man or his system for his consumption. I would never get a sex change operation just so I’d have more money for security but it seems like that extreme could be called for. It’s not unlike MJ bleaching his skin to appear more white. That’s how bad our society is for anyone who is not a white male.

Thank goodness I really love my work and do it very well because of all of my dedication and accomplishment. I work with the Universe who always has my back on this rough planet. If it weren’t for my intuition and rational mind guiding me, I’d probably be dead. I very much want to be alive so it’s a good thing.

Can Your Reasonable Intention Change the Numbers?

The foundation theme for this blog is:

“The balance between rational analysis and intuition create True Reason. One cannot exist or be fully accurate without the other.”-Me

We need to correct the current scientific bias that favors rational analysis over intuition which is why science is currently in a misogynistic black hole (no pun intended). There is a need for both women and men balanced in both their intuitive and rational mind working in the sciences.

Some analogies could be the balance of female/male principle and the balance of right and left brain hemispheres in each individual that takes us beyond the current evolutionary condition. Maybe an individual is dominant in one or the other but a truly reasonable person is balanced in both. I suppose this alone is a new notion and it is my theory. I didn’t read it anywhere. To me, it is logical.

My question is; “Can reasonable, personal intention change the numbers?”

Quantum mechanics says that it can. A thing can change it’s form and vibration if not it’s essential essence. For instance, the number two is always the number two, but it may look and feel different than it ever did before due to evolutionary adaptation.

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Rupert Sheldrake suggests, “Things have habits, they are not fixed by natural laws. Men make laws, nature doesn’t. The cosmos now seems more like a developing organism than an eternal machine. In this context, habits may be more natural than immutable laws.

Say you follow your GPS and get to the right place you programmed into your GPS but once you get there, you see that it’s completely changed its form and feel. It’s so different that you question whether you are in the right place and check your instruments. It is indeed the right place but it’s not the SAME place. Nothing and no one stays the same even though the address is the same.

A person may be the same height and look generally the same but if they have gone through a spiritually and emotionally life-changing event they may seem like a completely different person when you meet them again. This is unusual but it does happen.

It is entertaining to me to observe that after a woman loses weight most people treat her completely different as though she’s a different person just because she’s smaller. She’s not a different person, she’s a different size! I’ve talked to women friends who were quite large and then shrank and they are disgusted at how nice people are to them all of a sudden, as though their very character changed and they are now of more value and no longer some type of criminal because they are no longer large. This type of size bias is very indicative of the superficial values embedded in our materialistic, media-driven culture that rides on the objectification and over-sexualization of women. The assumption is, a smaller woman is more desirable sexually or more skilled sexually. None of that is true at all obviously. Studies have been done showing that doctors are size biased as well toward patients and make assumptions about health that don’t hold up in studies.

In answer to my question, yes the numbers can change but the sums cannot. How that looks is another matter. 2 + 2= 4 is always true and is very comforting but the way that looks in form is completely variable and sometimes you won’t think it’s math at all. That’s where physics can be of help.

The next idea I’ll be looking at is my theory that there are introspective controls possible in axiology that minimize ambiguity and variance so that something, someone, or some relationship can be studied and stabilized. I’ll be coming up with axioms to demonstrate it in relation to Time Science.

Peace out.

Reality and Knowledge Considered As Process-David Bohm

Thoughts from “Wholeness and the Implicate Order”-Chapter 3

Not only is everything changing but all is flux“-David Bohm

I feel, from reading in this pool of information and authors that it is a deep well of perception where our differences could create stress amongst each other or lack of respect. There are not very many scientists, lightworkers, healers, cosmologists, writers and artists who are passionate about the new paradigm in science, healthcare, or spirituality. Most people go along with the way things are to keep it all level. It’s human habit. There might be only thousands of us on the planet out of billions of human beings who look to shake things up. Sometimes it’s lonely out on the leading edge, and no one cares or understands what we’re talking about. All we have are each other.

Yet, if we can keep discussing these ideas, the meanings of our terms, our intuitions about the holonomic movement as perceived through gender and in our bodies without judgment or emotional bias, we can share. It is about stimulating ideas and how to communicate this truth to the larger world without getting thrown against a wall for expressing ourselves in our unique perceptions. We all have feelings.

Let’s not tear one another apart under the stress of being different or not understanding each other. Reality is not defined by one person. Knowledge is not defined by one person and no one person has a fence around this territory.  Someone said, “Fences make good neighbors” but in metaphysics and holonomic movement, we could keep our friends close, agree to discuss in a civil manner and include women as friends in the conversation with men. Infighting is bad marketing. A lack of empathy and cooperation is worse.

So, in that spirit, David Bohm says reality and knowledge are processes. In other words, they are verbs, not static nouns. This could be very upsetting to some thinkers who want to have a corner on the truth to feel more comfortable, to compete, or to feel right. That ego is one of man’s greatest defenses to his most vulnerable spot; his heart. Women understand.

Our intuition tells us that all of Life flows. Change in Life is inherent and it’s obvious to all observers. Consequently, our language and civilization structures need to be flexible so that we can adapt and not break. This is the lesson of evolution, not just survival. Science tells us we can use our thoughts to focus and make choices and decisions so that our lives aren’t blown by the wind or dictated by fate. “Now let’s think about this before we make a rash decision!” is what we hear. Look before you leap, but let’s still get moving; especially if your intuition says, “Let’s go!”

Bohm is going a step into the netherworld in this chapter though. He is saying that science, quantum physics, in particular, have found that mind and matter are not solid, not real, and as shown in experiments, are in flux. The flux IS the ground.  What they cannot find is the Source of intelligence. They can watch thought happen in the material brain but where it the thought coming from? Intelligence; and there the trail ends in science.

You can go to bed tonight thinking about the fact that reality and knowledge are in flux, they are not pinned down and no one has a corner on the truth no matter what you “think” you see.

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David Bohm, Quantum Physicist on Wholeness

For me, life in civilization (in the city) can become a grind. I generally do enjoy being an urban dweller, but like my patients, unless we release our fragmented perceptions of our bodies and life around us, it can become oppressive.  I don’t believe that life on earth is inherently oppressive; it’s our mind and our habits that are.

So, to that end, listen to the refreshing perspective of the truth of wholeness as articulated by quantum physicist by David Bohm. He really does call for an end to reductionist thinking where adults treat their respective fields of study like a kid at Christmas with a new computer that she/he wants to take apart. IT IS NOT THE PARTS OF A THING THAT TEACH US HOW IT WORKS OR WHAT IT IS! Actually using it and feeling how it works is the beginning of understanding. The truth is, different parts could probably have been used to make the thing whole anyway so why get attached to “the parts”? I encounter this issue daily as I work with people on their bodies, who continue to view it and feel it in pieces because of our health care system. Use your intuition and your breath to feel the truth.

I do believe that if each of us, one by one, can breathe, meditate, and sense our own wholeness within our body, it will teach our mind that very thing as well. That’s how life on earth will change.

Have a listen…

David Bohm on Wholeness

“The Science Delusion” by Rupert Sheldrake

Rupert Sheldrake relentlessly asks mainstream so-called objective science to balance itself with its nemesis; the relational feminine principle; the dragon lady. He does not say this in the book but he alludes to it in every chapter.

I’m not sure he realizes it, but when he refers to the subjective, open inquiry, the dark cave, and the humanization of scientists as opposed to demi-gods, he seems to invoke the mythical goddesses Athena, Artemis or even Demeter in her nurturing, fecund ways. He wants scientists and the public to sit around the kitchen table and bake science bread together. It’s really rather charming, personally speaking, although I can see how traditional scientists would rather put their pants back on reading this book. He does hit below the belt as he reminds us that each scientist was born of his mother whether he liked her or not. You wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for her. Scientific fact #1; she made you in her body. That is the purpose of patriarchy and science right?; to forget that fact, or to erase the predominance of the way nature works. Yes, well, we all need reminding of that lest hubris utterly annihilates the planet through militaristic science funded technology in the name of progress and the virility of men.

I can’t get enough of Rupert’s support of balance between the earth, shamanism, intuition, psychism, natural healing and good old-fashioned fun. I bet he had a cool Mom. Yes, Mr. Sheldrake assaults all of that in this book with a lucidity full of probing questions and facts that would make Harvey Weinstein blush.

Just because you’re a man, doesn’t mean you get to ram your billions of dollars through every last science program you can get your hands on, declare yourself God, mistreat the intelligent women, hog the awards and call Science The Truth!  Again, he doesn’t say that.  Those are my words, but he is British so he says it all nicely.

I just finished this book. The title is misleading because he is a scientist and has worked in science his whole life. He supports and has taught science; he is just seeking to have clearer and more honest communication with scientists themselves. In fact, the book is set up in a format to enhance a three-person discussion about materialistic science. As he says in the book, scientists are just people like you and me; no more correct or objective than any normal human being. Some of the time they are correct and some of the time they are not. We should no more put scientists on a pedestal than pastors, priests, or presidents!

In the book, he poses ten questions to the materialist scientist, explains his position and then challenges the scientist to examine his own thinking;

  1. Is Nature mechanical?
  2. Is the total amount of matter and energy always the same?
  3. Are the laws of Nature fixed?
  4. Is matter unconscious?
  5. Is Nature purposeless?
  6. Is all biological inheritance material?
  7. Are memories stored as material traces?
  8. Are minds confined to brains?
  9. Are psychic phenomena illusory?
  10. Is mechanistic medicine the only kind that really works?

I enjoyed the last question because I’ve worked as a holistic practitioner for twenty years and have seen the answer first hand. I’m not going to be a spoiler on this one; I encourage you to read the book and comb through his logic. In each chapter, he poses historical fact and scientific evidence to challenge the materialist dogma. He’s clearly trying to have a conversation with his peers if anyone will respond!

He ends the book talking about scientists illusions about objectivity and the future of science. I read it and posted it as an audio clip. Happy Reading.

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Bodymind, “Molecules of Emotion”

This will be a perfect segue into the next subject matter on Intuition UP; morphic resonance; a phenomenon discovered by the work of Rupert Sheldrake. Dr. Pert talks about it as well at the end of this book.

Information is not dependent on time or space, as is matter and energy, but exists regardless of these limits! If information exists outside of the confines of time and space, matter, and energy, then it must belong to a very different realm from the concrete, tangible realm we think of as reality. And since information in the form of the biochemicals of emotion is running every system of the body, then our emotions must also come from some realm beyond the physical.”

Information theory seems to be converging with Eastern philosophy to suggest that the mind, the consciousness, consisting of information, exists FIRST, prior to the physical realm, which is secondary, merely an out-picturing of consciousness. Although this is about as radical as my scientist’s mind will let me get, I’m beginning to understand how such a view could coexist comfortably with the kind of science I’ve been doing.”

A priori knowledge. That’s the wisdom of the ancients. We could not come into the body through our mother without it. We are first and foremost, Mind. It precedes the physical and continues on when the physical ends. Information theory is simply morphic resonance which creates holograms. The science behind morphic resonance is illumined in the scientific work of Rupert Sheldrake. This definition is from HIS website. I recommend you go to the link.

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Morphic resonance is a process whereby self-organizing systems inherit a memory from previous similar systems. In its most general formulation, morphic resonance means that the so-called laws of nature are more like habits.”-Rupert Sheldrake

When Dr. Pert says out-picturing of consciousness, this harks to the phenomenon of holograms. They are;

a three-dimensional image formed by the interference of light beams from a laser or other coherent light source…a photograph of an interference pattern that, when suitably illuminated, produces a three-dimensional image.
Some people suggest that our world, us, and earth are holographic. Life is more like a movie projection of the matrix of all of our intentions than anything else. All that most people see is in 3D, yet scientists have proven we live in at least 21 dimensions. Just because you can’t see them doesn’t mean they don’t exist.
Her realization at the end is;
And now that I know my body has wisdom, this calls for a new kind of responsibility on my part. I can no longer act like a dumb machine and wait to be fixed by the mechanic-otherwise known as the doctor. Now I have the potential to consciously intervene in the system myself, to take an active role in my own healing. I’m both more powerful and more responsible for creating the health I experience than the dumb machine I used to think I was
That is the basis for all holistic medicine. We seek to empower the patient with scientific facts, not gouge you for a huge profit based on materialism. We make a living with our work, not a killing and ask you to do your part for yourself. I talk about my journey in my book “Healer”. Enjoy!
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Are you Time Traveling Yet?

My previous post was all about the 13:20 ratio and The Dreamspell. It will help to read that before you read this post but the subject matter here is not that complicated.

The gist of seeing synchronicity every day and beginning to time travel is to feel and understand that Time is the fourth dimension. Unless you’ve mastered teleportation magic, at this point, time travel is happening in the mind. That’s where it starts!

What we “see” as manifested physical life is space or the third dimension and only scratches the surface of true reality, despite what you see on “reality TV” and on Wall St. Actually none of that is real. It’s an illusion so they can keep you in the time warp, asleep, and believe that you are just a robot, no heart, no imagination, no free spirit. It’s very profitable for them you see.

But quantum physics has proven that we live in a multi-dimensional universe all at once while most people perceive only the first three dimensions. Science is a big help here and really illumines spiritual truth and intuition. Science and intuition work together as all great scientists know.  I’m not a great scientist by any stretch but I am extremely intuitive. I feel and see beyond the first three dimensions daily and I use no drugs at all; not even sugar anymore.

The other day, I was pondering, at length, the spinning of the twenty tribes of time in the harmonic index, (human DNA illumined and moving in the 260-day galactic spin), how they align with the 13-day cycle and the 13 tones of creation. There are 20, 13-day cycles which complete the 260-day galactic spin that sprockets exactly with the 365-day solar year. But each 13-day cycle is always completed by a different tribe at tone 13.  I wondered and felt intuitively that there must be a correspondence between tone 1 of each wavespell and it’s corresponding tone 13 that ended another wavespell, so I did the math. (Here’s where the science follows intuition. I am pretty good at basic math).

Wavespell 1 of the 260-day galactic spin starts with Red 1 Dragon and ends with Red 13 Skywalker.  They are kin 1 and kin 13 in the greater 260-day cycle. Where is the Dragon 13 gateway? Way down in Wavespell 17, it ends the Red Moon wavespell and is Kin #221.  I did the math.  221-1=220.

Where is Red Skywalker 1? In wavespell 5, kin 53. 53-13=40.  When you put the two wavespells together that complete each tribe set of 13 tones, they show themselves to be 5 wavespells apart, articulating the fifth force and add up to 260 or 220+40=260.

Wavespell 2 starts with White 1 Wizard and ends with White 13 Worldbridger.  They are kin 14 and kin 26 in the greater 260 kin/day cycle.  Where is White 13 Wizard? Way down in Wavespell 18; kin 234. 234-14=220. And in like fashion, White Worldbriger 1 is kin #66, 40 kin down so once again, the two wavespells complete one another and add up to 260.

Jose A. didn’t mention any of this in the Dreamspell or any of his books. He leaves some things out for us to find. The transpositional magic of the Tzolkin/13 Moon cosmology is that no matter which way you turn it or do the math, it’s perfect. There is never a mistake. And it sprockets perfectly with the 365-day solar year made of 52 weeks of 7 days each and 13 full moon cycles of 28 days each with the day out of time.

I am convinced that the key to bringing forward the “light body” that so many spiritual people talk about is to fully feel and know in our minds that the cells of our body are controlled by 4th-dimensional time, not 3rd-dimensional space.  We don’t have to appear like everyone else, we can go back and forth between space and time. They’re just different cell spin rates.

For what purpose? To bring forgiveness and love to that which has not been made whole whether it’s the past or the future and to change karma to dharma. It will end this ceaseless time warp of militarism, trashing planets back and forth, constant evolution, and gender war where the female is degraded no matter what planet we live on, angst and political complaint that hasn’t stopped for 5000 years, and materialism.

What it will never bring is justice because Earth is an experimental planet where the forces of resistance and allowing create free will which some humans claim and feel and others refuse to believe in and choose to use as a force for good. We always have a choice and everything happens for reason. Once you see that, you can cease the anger and reaction and create your own destiny by focusing your own Mind instead of blaming the powers that be. Are you a victim? Not if you know how to use Time Magic with Love.

Healing Feeling, “Molecules of Emotions”

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She’s in Southern California now hanging out with the progressive, spiritual folks.

Here in California there seems to be room for a consideration of the spiritual dimension of health, which can encompass such elements as prayer, energy flow, distant healing, and psychic phenomena, to name but a few.”

The time period was post-NIH when she felt unsupported and maligned, so her friend Nancy taught her a type of protective mantra that focuses the mind and the Qi. I do this with my own patient’s as well who are going through very difficult circumstances with work or divorce. When your habitual thought and emotions go negative, it goes right into your cells. Which cells it goes into depends on which thoughts and feelings you’re running. None of it is good for you or your body. I get rid of the rocks in my patient’s shoulders and they return with them again if they don’t stop the mental/emotional habit. Holistic medicine is about real change; not pills. We have scads of scientific evidence backing it up. It’s important to set your boundaries and protect yourself between treatments. We call that mindfulness or self-care.

She felt good about doing it on an intuitive level and called it, “extracorporeal peptide reaching, a form of emotional resonance that happens when receptors are vibrating together in seemingly separate systems. This was before the term subtle energy had been introduced to describe a still mysterious fifth force beyond the four conventional forces of physics; electromagnetic energy, gravity and weak and strong nuclear forces.”

She then gets into a conversation about how the information has changed our concepts.

We have to make a distinction between the metaphor of matter and energy and that of information”, her friend Gottesman said. “The older metaphor deals with matter, force, energy, and is expressed in Einstein’s famous formula connecting those elements E=mc2. While these terms are useful for building locomotives and bridges, even atomic bombs, they are not so useful for understanding the human body. Physical processes aren’t things, they are dynamic and take place in an open fluid system, and therefore fit better with the metaphor of information than that of matter and force.”

I absolutely see this as well in my office. My patients don’t hesitate one bit when I suggest that what they’ve been through and continue to hold to as far as a mental and emotional habit is causing the problem in the tissue that I’m holding in my hand. Once they realize it, they can let it go. How do I know what the energy is? Part of it is listening, part of my work is intuition. When dealing with the body, intuition is vital.

He goes on; “Today, the concept of information is replacing energy and matter as the common denominator for understanding all biological life and even environmental processes.” Dr. Pert says, “Yes, and the neuropeptides and receptors are the biochemicals we call information molecules, they are using a coded language to communicate via a mind-body network. They are in the process of information exchange, having a two-way conversation-very different from what happens when there is a one-way push from behind, the way force works.”

Well, our modern healthcare system hasn’t caught up with all of this science one bit, which came out in the late nineties. And here it is 2017. Why should we believe anything they recommend. They’re not updated.

A New Crowd, “Molecules of Emotion”

It’s time to finish up Chapter 11 and Dr. Pert’s life has completely changed.  She’s in a “labless existence” as she puts it.  Being in healthcare myself, I can’t imagine being without my office where I treat my patients.  I’d be lost without it!

In 1991, she met Deepak Chopra, MD who is still sort of a rock star in the field of leading-edge holistic medicine, similar to Andrew Weil, MD.  They “get it” on an energy level and use their intuition, not just their allopathic, reductionist training in their work. She is now a regular on the circuit of speakers and is called “the bodymind scientist” and following Stanley Krippner, Ernest Rossi, Stan Grof, Willis Haran, Fritjof Capra, Beverly Rubik, John Upledger, and Joan Borysenko. She says,

The ability to accept very diametrically opposite points of view is due I believe, to the fact that I’m a woman. Because women have a thicker corpus callosum, the bundle of nerves that bridges the left and right brain hemispheres, they are able to switch back and forth from the rational, or left brain, to the intuitive, or right brain with relative ease. With fewer nerves connecting the hemispheres, men tend to more focused in one hemisphere or the other”

Of course, there are men who are open-minded and not “objectifiers”, which I just read yesterday in a prominent article about how to tell if your partner is truly straight or bi-sexual, written by a psychologist.  Here is a link to the article.  I found it very enlightening. Women wonder about this all the time these days. Here is the link.

Is Your Man Gay or Straight

I have to wonder what this doctor would have to say about Dr. Pert’s statement regarding the corpus callosum. He calls women “relational” when it comes to sex and men “objectifiers”.  I have personally found that too for the 54 years of my life.  It’s terribly hard on women. Our emotions tend to be involved with sex and we bond easily.  Women these days are trying NOT to bond but I feel that’s a mistake and is lowering ourselves to the level of many men. How is that helping?

Well, women need sex, I believe more than men do. If we’re going to get the sex we need, maybe some of us have decided that for our health, it’s worth the compromise. I’m guessing men would say that being married and monogamous is terribly hard on them but it sure is expected of them on the surface by all of our institutions! I know it’s a two-way street and it’s no one’s fault! Nature and evolution have made the genders this way, I feel and I wish we’d stop fighting about it and try to compromise; the institutions’ values be damned. It’s about our bodies and our hearts when it comes to men and women.  Those two combined affect our families and I believe we all care about our children and families. If we don’t keep it together, it rips the foundation of our society apart.

Now she finds an investor for Peptide T.  Hurray! He is Eckart Wintzen and the year is late 1990.  She did not pursue him; he came to her.  He was a millionaire and said, “Call me if you need anything.” They were about to go bankrupt and quite gloomy about the prospects for Peptide T research. Synchronistically, she received a call from Mr. Wintzen on the deadline and he said he would send her the money that she hadn’t even asked for! With a simple FAX, the government now got what they needed, proof that she had a major investor, one who could without a doubt supply the millions needed to support further research and development and successfully bring the drug to the marketplace. The solution had come only when she had stopped trying.

Crossing Over, Coming Together, Part II

I’m almost done giving you the scoop on “Molecules of Emotion” by Dr. Candace Pert, Ph.D. I’m going to finish summing up Chapter 11 of this great book where she talks about healing herself after all she’s been through in the NIH lab, with the men, and being unfairly excluded from the Lasker Award because she’s a woman.  She says,

I realized that I had been angry for years, harboring deep resentments that went all the way back to Sol and the Lasker, perhaps even further back… (more details)In the Lasker days, when I began comparing what happened to me to the losses inflicted on Rosalind Franklin. I had only intuited that suppressing my emotions was dangerous and might lead to cancer, but now I had amassed enough hard scientific data to convince me that I needed to heal my emotions if I wanted to pull through this difficult time-alive and healthy” –pg. 236

Rosalind Elsie Franklin (25 July 1920 – 16 April 1958) was an English chemist and X-ray crystallographer who made contributions to the understanding of the molecular structures of DNA (deoxyribonucleic acid), RNA (ribonucleic acid), viruses, coal, and graphite so her comparison was apt given her work and success. Born in 1920 in London, England, Rosalind Franklin earned a Ph.D. in physical chemistry from Cambridge University. She learned crystallography and X-ray diffraction, techniques that she applied to DNA fibers. One of her photographs provided key insights into DNA structure. Other scientists used it as evidence to support their DNA model and took credit for the discovery. Franklin died of ovarian cancer in 1958, at age 37.

This is what women do to themselves because there is so much negativity reflected back to us regarding having power, intelligence, and self-esteem from other women, men, and religion.  Dr. Pert says,

There was no doubt I had a reputation for being a spitfire, someone who was so hellbent on her own path that other people often felt the best thing they could do was simply stay out of my way. For the first time, I seriously considered; Was I the problem? If I’d behaved differently, been a good girl, and played the game according to the rules, would Peptide T have made it to the market, saving the lives of people who were now dead because it wasn’t available sooner?

I wrote “No” all over the margins. We’re not called to be saviors of the world or co-dependent. The short of it is, she found some spiritual healing for herself, was about to understand the true nature of forgiveness and forgave Sol, her old boss. She began to accept herself and found a quiet mental state where she didn’t feel the need “to perform” or achieve so much anymore.  I can totally relate to that as many women can.  She says,

I also started to become aware of synchronicity, to see connections between events and people happening simultaneously and then to act on this awareness instead of out of the more familiar linear cause-and-effect model”-pg. 242

Here is where intuition really kicks in and she says,

It appealed to me intuitively. The mind-body network is so taxed by unprocessed sensory input in the form of suppressed trauma or undigested emotions that it has become bogged down and cannot flow freely, sometimes even working against itself, at cross-purposes…When stress prevents the molecules of emotion from flowing freely where needed, the largely autonomic processes that are regulated by peptide flow, such as breathing, blood flow, immunity, digestion, and elimination, collapse down to a few simple feedback loops and upset the normal healing response.”

As a professional bodyworker and reiki practitioner, I see this every day and align it every day with my patients.  They can feel it and I stay busy!

“My colleagues were doing research on how trauma and blockage of emotional and physical information can be stored indefinitely at the cellular level.“-pg.243

So there you have it. And does our health care system understand and act on this in their treatment before they charge you $10,000/year for health insurance? No. Do they cover treatments by practitioners that really empower and help people get well?  No way! They are mired in materialism and greed most of the time and their treatments don’t work unless the placebo effect kicks in. It’s your belief in their pill that makes you feel better, not the pill itself. That’s an expensive magic show and sometimes they make it worse. It’s a crap shoot they play with our body and most people let them.