The So-Called “Helping Professions”

It’s a misnomer.

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Nothing in the world
is as soft and yielding as water.
Yet for dissolving the hard and inflexible,
nothing can surpass it.

The soft overcomes the hard;
the gentle overcomes the rigid.
Everyone knows this is true,
but few can put it into practice.

Therefore the Master remains
serene in the midst of sorrow.
Evil cannot enter his heart.
Because he has given up helping,
he is people’s greatest help.

True words seem paradoxical.“-Lao Tzu #78

I believe the word “evil” in this context means error. That would be the error of excess emotion. It’s is not helpful when emotion overtakes the rational mind of human beings. It is also a mistake for parents and therapists to allow those we’re teaching to over-indulge in emotion. Some are fine to release it but then you need to stop it.

 

 

This is a Weird, Very Cool Booklet

I found this paper by Dr. Smith synchronistically, being a bit obsessed with the conviction that the scientific method was missing its other half; intuition. The physics nomenclature was not completely foreign to me given that I am an office chair (arm chair) student of physics and other sciences myself.  So, I did have fun with the bulk of the contents and view it as a hike up a science hill for a student. Bring your water bottle. Your gray cells will get a workout and I recommend it. It is for that reason I put key terms in bold and key ideas in italics.

Upon reading Dr. Smith’s biography in this booklet, you’ll see that he was a heavyweight in his era, 1934-1979 would be his approximate working time, but not as notable as his colleagues Van Allen and Allison. James Van Allen discovered the radiation belts around the earth.

I am grateful for having found this little piece of gold, for as much as I enjoy and respect the scientific method, I cannot relate to it nearly as much as I do intuition, dreaming, and the vast ocean of information in the unconscious mind which I have been aware of and lived in my entire life. It’s like breathing for me. My personal proclivity will be toward Axiology and the Behavioral Sciences as I move forward with my career.

All I ask from readers of this booklet and others is to keep an open mind and acknowledge that everyone has different experiences with information. We all deserve to be heard out; people who are very controlled in their thinking and people who are very intuitional in their thinking. The fact is, no one is right one-hundred percent of the time and you’d be committing hubris if you asserted it.  Dr. Smith, with all of his education and experience, comes to the conclusion that intuition is far more important in the scientific method than previously noted. For that, I am very grateful.

Please note Table 1 on page twenty-six.  I view the unity of these approaches as a holistic scientific method and wish for nothing less as we move forward forming our models of the universe.

Lisa K. Townsend, B.A., LMT

 

Physicist David Bohm’s Big Truth

I quote Bohm from “Wholeness and the Implicate Order”, page 9-10

“Some might say; ‘Fragmentation of cities, religions, political systems, conflict in the form of wars, general violence, fratricide, etc., are the reality. Wholeness is only an ideal, toward which we should perhaps strive.‘ But this is not what is being said here. Rather, what should be said is that wholeness is what is real, and that fragmentation is the response of this whole to man’s action, guided by illusory perception, which is shaped by fragmentary thought. (He is saying “the whole” can respond and does.)

In other words, it is just because reality IS whole, that man, with his fragmentary approach, will inevitably be answered with a correspondingly fragmentary response. So what is needed is for a man to give attention to his habit of fragmentary thought, to be aware of it, and thus bring it to an end. Man’s approach to reality may then be whole, and so the response will be whole.

For this to happen, however, it is crucial that man be aware of the activity of his thought as such; i.e. as a form of insight a way of looking, rather than as a ‘true copy of reality as it is’. (In my field we call this Mindfulness-Lisa T.)

It is clear that we may have any number of different kinds of insights. What is called for is not an integration of thought, or a kind of imposed unity, for any such imposed point of view would itself be merely another fragment (gentrification). Rather, all our different ways of thinking are to be considered as different ways of looking at the ONE REALITY, each with some “domain in which it is clear and adequate.” End Quote

It’s like this apple. It’s “born” or grown whole but in order to use it in our bodies, it has to be reduced to the smallest pieces (digested). However, it can only do that if we first see it, want it, and eat it whole. The truth of its beauty, lusciousness, and nutrition is that IT’S WHOLE. Only when we acknowledge that will we appreciate the apple for what it is…fantastic. Everyone will observe different things about the apple but it’s still a whole apple. It’s one reality.

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Camille Paglia-Some Great Reading for the Weekend

Click here for the full interview for your reading pleasure this weekend.

Camille Paglia-EXCELLENT!

Paglia is an essayist, author, and professor of humanities at the University of the Arts in Philadelphia, where she has taught since 1984. She completed her Ph.D. at Yale under the supervision of Harold Bloom, author of The Western Canon. Her first book, Sexual Personae: Art and Decadence, from Nefertiti to Emily Dickinsonwas listed by David Bowie as one of “100 books we should all read.” 

Her other books include Break, Blow, Burn, a close-reading of 43 classic poems, and Glittering Images: A Journey Through Art from Egypt to Star Wars. In recent years, her essays have been collected and published in new editions, including Free Women, Free Men: Sex, Gender, and Feminism (February 2018) and Provocations: Collected Essays on Art, Feminism, Politics, Sex, and Education, which was released by Pantheon in October 2018.

“I thought Derrida and DeMan and the rest of that crew were arrant nonsense from the start, a pedantic diversion from direct engagement with art. About the obsequious Yale welcome given to the prattlings of one continental “star” visitor, I acidly remarked to a fellow grad student sitting next to me, “They’re like high priests murmuring to each other.”

Love it.

Nevertheless, the poisons of post-structuralism have now spread throughout academe and have done enormous damage to basic scholarly standards and disastrously undermined belief even in the possibility of knowledge. I suspect history will not be kind to the leading professors who appear to have put loyalty to friends and colleagues above defending scholarly values during a chaotic era of overt vandalism that has deprived several generations of students of a profound education in the humanities. The steady decline in humanities majors is an unmistakable signal that this once noble field has become a wasteland.”

Anything focused on real intelligence, literacy, and human beings have been thrown to the wayside. I see it in holistic medicine as well, everyone willy-nilly willing to go to their white-coat and pay through the nose for their crap. People follow each other like lemmings to the sea to drown no matter how much it costs.

The headlong rush to judgment by so many well-educated, middle-class women in the #MeToo movement has been startling and dismaying. Their elevation of emotion and group solidarity over fact and logic has resurrected damaging stereotypes of women’s irrationality that were once used to deny us the vote. I found the blanket credulity given to women accusers during the recent U.S. Senate confirmation hearings for Brett Kavanaugh positively unnerving: it was the first time since college that I truly understood the sexist design of Aeschylus’s Oresteia, whose mob of vengeful Furies is superseded by formal courts of law, where evidence is weighed.”

WOW!!

What I see spreading among professional middle-class women is a bitter resentment toward men that is in many cases unjust and misplaced. With divorce so easy since the sexual revolution, women find themselves competing with younger women in new and cruel ways. Agrarian women gained power as they aged: young women were brainless pawns whose marriages, pregnancies, childcare, cooking, and other chores were acerbically supervised and controlled by the dictatorial crones (forces of nature whom I fondly remember from childhood).

In short, #MeToo from a historical perspective is a cri de coeur from women who are realizing that the sexual revolution that many of us had once ecstatically embraced has in key ways devalued women, confused their private relationships, and complicated their smooth functioning in the workplace. It’s time for a new map of the gender world.”

She’s speakin’ it. On many points, I agree with her. Crack a book, folks; female and male.

Camille-Paglia

What Intuition Is and Is Not

I’ve been an intuitive, psychic person my entire life. My brain is like a radio station picking up the signals. I just have to sort through them. I just picture a person, tune into their “station” and feel their vibe in my mind. Then I can see what’s going on with them, what they’re doing, how their feeling, you name it. I’m not going to do that all day because I’m living my own life. It would be terribly distracting and a waste of my time. I have no need to vampire off of other people’s vibes to keep myself afloat. I live from my own inner self. The human brain does have this capacity though and many people have it.

It’s not a cake walk.  I’m a lightworker and a lover, so I’m very sensitive to nasty, crappy, toxic energy.  I don’t and won’t tune into people or read people that live on the “dark side” unless I have a super important reason to. Sometimes Spirit, says, “Go ahead. We’re here.” That energy is bad to expose yourself to. Most people that I’ve seen walk in between light and dark, yin and yang and that is quite normal for Earth because we’re all learning about our soul and mind power and how to use it correctly to be creators.

It is common for me to see pictures and sense feelings and energies upon meeting someone. It’s easy for me to hear and feel loved ones who have passed over when talking to someone on the phone and the details I receive are accurate. They confirm it when I’ve never spoken to them before nor have I met them. I can usually see what someone is doing when I’m talking to them on the phone, and I have prescient dreams. All of that is normal for me.  I think all human brains could do it if the skill was honed, but you need to allow it to flow.

I am not Wiccan, pagan, or anything because I don’t worship earth or the Universe or entities. I do believe in God and J.C. has my heart but the religions are no different than the state. I’m aware of how unusual I seem but I believe more people are admitting that they are attuned or have one or more psychic senses than before. In the American culture that means you don’t talk about yourself very much just to be safe. The Christians, in particular, are very afraid of spiritual gifts, but fear is the basis of that religion. I work and center in love always and my life is the proof of it. No book has the power to tell me who I am. Even God doesn’t presume to tell people who they are. I was born in 1963 so now in 2018, things are getting better in our society in regard to this. There are even spirit mediums who are on the national circuit and quite famous.

I can’t say I fully support that because as an intuitive myself, I feel like my time is better spent empowering people to find their own, natural psychic nature than doing it for them.  It’s no different in my office where in order for me to be a good example and teach people about what they’ve done to the soft tissue in their body, I have to put my hands on it and then they can feel how they’ve turned themselves to stone. The blood isn’t flowing as it should because their mind and emotions are clenched up. Don’t clench up or get angry too much or it will make you sick and in pain.  Let it go and forgive because it’s the best thing for you, not for the other person.

When the blood stops flowing through your flesh it’s because your emotions and thoughts are repressed or misdirected, and you are not expressing yourself in some fashion and releasing it. Or your activities are done in stressful mind. Then the vibration goes straight into every cell of your body.  There is no question here. All of this has been proven in the lab by neuroscientists. It’s a fact. I blogged about it as well in previous posts citing the examples.  So, if you’re uncomfortable with your feelings and unwilling to face and release habitual, negative thought, then just know that is the main reason you are ill or in pain. It’s not about blame and guilt but empowerment. You have the power to align your thoughts and heart through your own choosing. You are the only one who can finally be mindful of it and let it all go. That, and you don’t HAVE to say it to anyone. You can be private about your experiences, I believe.  Or journal it, let it go, and burn it! Privacy is important if you feel that way. That said if you really feel the need to talk it out, tell a counselor. But you still have to follow your own inner guidance.

Intuition is not “a hunch”, “a feeling”, “a sense”, “a guess” or following your nose to find the right way. Intuition is not a dream or emotions at all. Intuition is not the ability to “read minds” of people who are failing to communicate properly with you in the normal fashion. If I’m talking to someone, I’m listening to them and how they speak, I’m not intuitively reading them. That would be rude and more work for me when they need to do the work of communicating what they mean. Intuition is not “tuning into your heart” either.

Intuition is a function of the higher, rational brain and works in tandem with it. Great musicians, artists, and scientists use their whole brain in balance. Music IS math. Numbers are alive and can morph the way tuning on a musical note morphs. But the essence of the note or the number remains the same.

The more you use your brain for reading, critical thinking, writing, abstract thinking, and learning, the smarter you will become and the more highly developed both sides of your brain will be. We know we have a right and left brain hemisphere and one brain does the organizing work and the other one does the abstract spatial work but they always work together. This is the theme of my blog. Both men and women have intuition but because we are social creatures, for some reason, it’s perfectly acceptable for women to be intuitive and develop and show our sense highly but not so acceptable for men.  That’s a big detriment. Why is that? Men are intuitive too, obviously, because they do have a right brain hemisphere. The same is true for women able to analyze information in a rational manner and do well with math. Obviously, we are capable of that because we have a left brain hemisphere.

Advice that tells you to follow your feelings and your thoughts is not good advice. Listen to your feelings as an indication of your truth and use it to make a decision but use other things as well, such as your intuition. That’s like telling someone driving in a car to just follow the signs they see on the road. Well, no, don’t just go where the signs point because there are all kinds of signs pointing in all different directions depending on where you want or need to go. The higher mind, using both hemispheres and your psychic senses, can make choices, lay out a plan, have an idea in mind, have a rational sense, think it through, and have an intuition about the destination, Yes!?? I mean…really.  It’s the “think before you speak or leap” advice that is so rare on this planet. Too many people are running on instant gratification.

Don’t just do what you feel like doing or blow with the wind most of the time. That’s not to say you won’t make a mistake even if you think it through. The reason for that is the unconscious mind. It is there in our mind but we’re shielding it from ourselves because it’s too painful, like subconscious events from in utero-five years old that were brought on by our parents. Human history shows that those that blow with the wind litter the sides of the road and the hospitals far more than those who have used their mind to think it through. They also have more money, success, and productive communication and healthier relationships with the world around them.

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Morphic Resonance; The Presence of The Past

It took me months to finish this book because Sheldrake’s ideas are so epic. It is a very worthwhile read if you want to understand evolution, nature, biology, life, change, and memory.

When I was almost done, I stared at the title and realized he only mentioned the past, not the present or the future. Time is not the subject of the book but how morphic resonance and formative causation rely on the past to create a new future through habits of behavior and memory. Yet from my own studies of the Tzolkin and True Time, I believe we time travel backward and forward in the radial time matrix to create synchronicity. Sheldrake, on the other hand, talks about probability structures as morphic fields. He’s got a point but that casts life as a guessing game, possible serendipity, luck, chance, or an accident. Tzolkin Cosmology teaches that by understanding the real nature of True Time we can observe synchronicity all around us and even predict what’s coming next. There are no accidents. Everything happens for a reason. I can’t predict what’s coming next by rational means by I have a friend who thinks he can. I “see” what’s coming next through my prescience and intuition. It’s quicker and usually more accurate. All of this is a spiral; not linear. Sheldrake does seem to be on a linear timeline.

Morphic resonance is an ambitious theory that brings into question the dogma of natural laws and instead presents a convincing hypothesis that nature is habitual but its probability structures are flexible. He’s close…very close.

I’d like to see his hypothesis merge with quantum field theory, time science, Tzolkin Cosmology and quantum physics so we can finally get the time right instead of being stuck in a third-dimensional explicate time warp. We all have dreams.

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How Do Humans Turn Intuition into Knowing?

Turn off the outside disturbances, carve out silent alone time for yourself, workout, love your body, do yoga, and plan a vegetarian or vegan way of life. Make a list of friends who are loving and friends who are toxic and make some decisions. That’s a start!

What I observe about 98% of humans is that they pay FAR more attention to the media, material concerns, and others than they do to their own body, how it feels, what they are feeling emotionally and what direction their heading in. They live on automatic pilot and let their lives be dictated by everyone else. Under those conditions, you’re not going to hear or see anything! You’re sleepwalking through life and likely abusing some kind of drug. That’s the other thing is my brain is completely sober so I go through life extremely mindful.

Your real life doesn’t begin until you can feel your own body, feel your feelings, hear your thoughts, and become aware of your habits. If you care more about what others think of you than you do yourself, you’re off track.

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Personally, my intuition has always been spot on, ever since I was a young girl. That’s how I know something ahead of time. And then it happens…always. I absolutely KNOW what is going to happen and it’s always right, like the sun rising every morning. It’s very normal for me, and always has been, for me to get “a flash” like hearing something on the radio or seeing it visually as on a screen before it happens. Dean Radin, Ph.D. is a great researcher and writer on the paranormal and psychic knowing. He’s documented it fully. I like his book, “The Conscious Universe”.

The Conscious Universe

I’ve got one other post on this issue I believe. The other new piece here is that the biologists have found magnets in our brains. I believe, if they keep looking, they’ll find them all through the body in all of our cells. They don’t understand it yet, but I’ve felt the magnetism in the body in my office doing bodywork on my patients for 20 years so this is no news flash to me.

Magnets in the Human Brain Mapped

When I do Reiki I feel like my entire body is spinning in a magnetic vortex also. Back to the original question, how can anyone tune into their intuition and follow it? I’m not convinced I’m “gifted”. I believe it’s natural to all human beings. I don’t know what it’s like to walk around being someone else but I do observe other people walking around negative, doubtful, hyper-rational or hyper-emotional, and materialistic.

Pete Sanders, Jr. wrote a book called “You are Psychic”. I worked with him in Sedona, AZ when I lived there. He’s a trained scientist from MIT. He teaches classes on this empowerment.

You Are Psychic

 

Once you drop all of that, you’ll get the life you came into the body to live and it’s magnificent. Anything less is not worth living for…at all.

Keep trying and being honest, peeling those layers bit by bit until you’re living an authentic life. You can do it!

 

The Cultural Meaning of the Shaming of Roseanne Barr

The so-called Populist revolt that ended in the earthquake election of Donald Trump has left the cultural and social foundations of America shaken to the core. This latest media storm around Barr is indicative of that. We’re all still in need of extra herbs or meds in light of how he and his people in Washington seem to be trying to take us down! It feels like anarchy to me. Parliamentarian Puritans (Democrats) vs. Royalist Monarchists (Republicans). Trump wants to take down our Democratic Republic that seeks to empower our pluralism and civil rights in America and turn it into what? That “what” is the problem and producing anxiety in our collective.

I’m from Chicago, NW Illinois, white middle class, a true Cubbie Blue Cubs fan and Democratic Yankee Puritan (Episcopal, Church of England). My entire upbringing was about integration of mostly black and white and exposure to any form of Christianity. My family was also a mix of Democrat and Republican. But the overriding tendency was tolerance of differences and civility. No violence. I was exposed to everything. I’m kind of a mix of African-American matriarchal tendency and White European patriarchy because my Mom’s family was matriarchal and my dad’s family was patriarchal. Just as I’ve had to straddle the cultural fence, most Americans do also. So when we perceive what’s going on in our culture, it’s with our particular bias, to be sure.

Roseanne Barr is a granddaughter of Jewish immigrants from Central Europe and Russia, the oldest of four children in a Jewish Salt Lake City, UT family.  Barr has stated, “Friday, Saturday, and Sunday morning I was a Jew; Sunday afternoon, Tuesday afternoon, and Wednesday afternoon we were Mormons.” Barr doesn’t wear the fact that she’s Jewish on her sleeve, which completely changes how people might perceive her “joke” about Hitler and the cookies in the oven. That said, even though she is an award-winning comedian, nothing is funny about what she’s said lately. I didn’t know she was Jewish. She was deriding Hitler for the genocide of her own people and likely most of her ancestors from Europe and Russia. Her grandmother who was an orthodox Jew held the highest sway over her family. Trump likewise came from a family that for generations back, was extremely traumatized so that visions of royalty and kingship rule his psyche. When your ancestors fall far behind, something overly ambitious kicks in within the brain to compensate. That’s my theory.

Her show portrayed a culture that hails from Greater Appalachia, Tidewater, and the Deep South, referring to three of the regions of America discussed in Colin Woodard’s great book, “American Nations”. Greater Appalachia is Southern IL, most of Indiana, southern OH, WV, VA, KY, southern MO, part of OK, N. Texas, northern AR, TN, NC, northern MS, and northern AL. The Deep South is southern Texas, LA, and all states further south to FL. Tidewater’s history is the landed gentry who eventually betrayed the inhabitants of Greater Appalachia and the Deep South.  They are N.Carolina, Maryland, Virginia and Washinton D.C. Trump won all of those states in the election. Roseanne Barr supported Donald Trump! What is going on in America? Two years on and we still haven’t figured it out.

The truth is, the United States is an imperialist, colonized mish-mash of enslaved people. This country exists on the back of ALL cultures being enslaved by the Royalist Republicans. They then came to America as the Tidewater landed gentry in the South with their Royalist, Republican biased values and commenced with their brand of violent evil.

In Chapter 3, Founding Tidewater, Woodard says of the opposite side, The Yankee Puritans;

For the Norse, Anglo-Saxon, Dutch, and other Germanic tribes of northern Europe, “freedom” was a birthright of free peoples, which they considered themselves to be. Individuals might have differences in status and wealth but all were literally “born free.” All were equal before the law, and all had come into the world possessing “rights” that had to be mutually respected on the threat of banishment. Tribes had the right to rule themselves through assemblies like Iceland’s Althingi recognized as the world’s oldest parliament. Until the Norman invasion of 1066, the Anglo-Saxon tribes of England (Germans) had ruled themselves in this manner. After the invasion, the lords of Normandy France imposed manorial feudalism on England, but they never fully did away with the “free” institutions of the Anglo-Saxons and (Gael-Norse) Scots, which survived in village councils, English common law, and the House of Commons. It was this tradition the Puritans carried to Yankeedom. (MA, VT, NH, MA, NY, PA, IL, MI, WI, MN).

The Greek and Roman political philosophy embraced by Tidewater gentry of the southern U.S. assumed the opposite; most humans were born into bondage. (Republicanism) Liberty was something that was granted and was thus a privilege, not a right. Some people were permitted many liberties others had very few, and many had none at all…It was a philosophical divide with racial overtones and one that would later drive America’s nations into all-out war with one another. (The Civil War).”

Speaking of the Civil War, Abraham Lincoln was an anomaly in the Republican Party of his time in many respects. His ancestry was neither royalty or landed gentry and Lincoln behaved more like an Independent than someone from either party. If there was anyone who straddled the political fence, it was Lincoln. Many times the Republicans like to claim him but in key ways, Lincoln’s behavior and values were from neither party. He was more Universal.

I’ve posted about this before, but we are country at war with our own subconscious mind and ancestral memory seeded in us, in utero from the ages of 0-5 by our parents who have inherited their minds from our ancestors and on it goes!! That is what is going on here. Our culture, our institutions, and our families are still dominated by the memory in our subconscious mind instead of by our actively chosen, adult,  conscious mind. Trump and Barr and many others are still playing out so much of what they’ve lost because of their wretched upbringing and have never regained because they don’t claim the right over their own souls to cut it off. Well, they may be trying, but the emotional struggle to love themselves is all that comes out of their mouths and on Twitter as they seem to fail at loving or tolerating anyone else; least of all themselves.

The meaning of the shaming of Roseanne Barr and Donald Trump is that the U.S. and it’s media is still largely Puritan, Yankee, Democratic and Christian in its values despite this Republican upsurge. If the Democrats can mobilize the apathetic base, it can be turned around in the next election and be more pluralistic. We are a young country, still deciding who we want to be when we grow up.

The Anima and The Animus

I’ve always been fascinated by the inner male inside the female (animus) and the inner female inside the male (anima). The terms were coined by the psychologist C.G. Jung.  It seems to me that humans intuitively know we each have those energies as part of our identity to some degree without over-analyzing it. Women and men are both female and male! It’s one of the reasons that the homosexual lifestyle really doesn’t bother most Americans. A Pew Research poll taken in 2017 showed that 62% of Americans support same-sex marriage. We all know that we’re learning about our bodies and our feelings whether we’re attracted to female or male at one time or another.  It’s no big deal as long as you’re honest with yourself in the midst of it and are careful of children’s attachment to parents.

I’m a trained actor with a degree in it, so I know how to have almost instant access to a wide range of emotions, and tears are super easy for me. I spent two years learning how to do that. But I much prefer laughter and happiness as part of my natural personality. Yet when I cry, it feels like a cry for the animus, the male in me that stomps all over my receptive female. My receptive female, all receptive females are beautiful. She is the bearer and producer of life after all. But is she loved and cared for safely the way she should be? Or must she always stroke the male ego to be loved, even if his behavior doesn’t call for it? If love from her partner is conditional based on size and behavior, he cannot say he loves her.  All humans go through hard patches where our self-esteem is bottomed out.  If someone really loves you, and has seen and knows that you have it in you to eventually come out of it, they’ll stay by your side, not bolt.

My experience and intuition tell me that it’s not terribly safe to be an open, loving, female in our society. Most women I know have developed serious defenses now and will even aggressively act out because there is no real equity and heaping amounts of bias based on gender! It’s very similar to unarmed black men being gunned down by police. It’s appalling and tragic!! Women are at about the same level and I’m guessing the stats regarding violence toward women would show this to be true.

Over fifty-four years I’ve maximized my intellect with education, developed firm boundaries in the public workplace (which doesn’t seem to make any difference), insisted on being treated with respect (sometimes it works), focused on my behavior more than my looks (rarely works), and become very focused and skilled in my work. Guys don’t like it. Once I hit my thirties, I learned how to be assertive and opinionated as well. The other thing that goes on is that as a pretty white woman, I feel no obligation to maximize my looks to feed patriarchal bullshit and make myself superficial to manipulate the system. I feel more powerful sitting in my authenticity. Women that aren’t as pretty compete with me or make sure I keep a distance from the man they’re pursuing (so weird) when I’m not even looking. We are so programmed to believe that survival in this planet depends on finding “our level” as prescribed by the institutions and the media that we don’t even know we’re doing it!

It’s not working. I’m still seen as a girl and treated like a girl. No matter how “male” a woman learns to act in public or how many letters she has behind her name with a high I.Q., she’s still paid less than a man and treated like her first order of business is to give something of herself to a man or his system for his consumption. I would never get a sex change operation just so I’d have more money for security but it seems like that extreme could be called for. It’s not unlike MJ bleaching his skin to appear more white. That’s how bad our society is for anyone who is not a white male.

Thank goodness I really love my work and do it very well because of all of my dedication and accomplishment. I work with the Universe who always has my back on this rough planet. If it weren’t for my intuition and rational mind guiding me, I’d probably be dead. I very much want to be alive so it’s a good thing.